wispfox

If you're wanting time to yourself, or wanting one-on-one time with someone, how aware are you of you of the presence of other people in your surroundings?

Does it matter if you're in an apartment, a house, outdoors?

Does it matter _why_ you want that time/space?

( my answers )

Yay, party. Even though I was sick and very nearly didn't make it (did make it thanks to being utterly _bored_ of sleeping, a sweetie who came and picked me up, and people including said sweetie missing me at the party).

Definitely need to manage to go to one of majes parties again when I'm _not_ sick, and stay as late as that. I think I may have stayed that late once or twice before. Maybe.

Much cuddly goodness, much hotness, some bits of kissing here and there (trying to not spread plague!). Lots of nifty people.

Now, to get _not sick_ already. At least being sick did not make time with metahacker entirely spent trying to make me less miserable. There were lots of good points _around_ the miserable!

Stupid sick. Hopefully it's not a flu.

On the plus side, dayquil - and therefore probably nyquil - helped. Generic, but whatever.

Wow, my parsing of things I'm reading/writing is fascinating. We'll see if I manage to work tomorrow...

-random conversations with a co-worker about interesting zoos in China with lots of tigers and pandas (made all the better by the sheer _glee_ involved in talking about it)
-People wanting to help me to do research, both just to help me out, and because they are themselves curious (even if some of them were unable due to requirements)
-Pretty music, from various sources, including suggestions by people I'm close to and things played by sweeties
-seeing people who are usually too far away, even if as is always true the visit is too brief.
-bursting out laughing multiple times during said visit
-local sweetie returned to the area
-thoroughly not-local sweetie to be here again in about a month
-hugs
-kisses
-best roommate in the world still is both the best and my roommate.
-funny/good/interesting conversations with all sorts of people
-kitty remembers that it's the time of year that I sit in front of the light for breakfast time, and comes running from wherever he is in the house when he hears the light click on
-I'm driving myself to work three days a week, taking a class, working full-time (which is being especially crazy right now). And my wrists _are still handling things_.
-is loved.
-loves.
-silly camera videos of dogs wrestling. One of which was partly under a sheet. Sheet puppy! Really, _really_ happy puppy tails!
-"hers [camera] is bigger than yours!"

Just happy.

And it's certainly not the weather! :) Even if the trees do remain pretty.

Ok, back to working again.

Spinning.
Climbing things.
Birds in flight.
Music.
Swings.
Nature shows, with as little narration as possible.
Trees.
Aquatic environments.
Being squished.
Tight spaces.
Touch.
People, specifically and generally.
Wind so strong it might help me fly.
Stars.
The sound of wind through trees.
Ohm chanting.
Tibetan singing bowls.
Bells.
Chimes.
Touch.
Scent of recently cut grass.
Scent in general.
Diving into waves.
Swimming.
The silence and weight of lying at the bottom of a pool.
Being high in a tree, looking at everything around me.
Newness with underlying stability/certainty/home.
That moment of interacting with an animal which decides that maybe, just maybe, I'm ok.
Being trusted.
Those fleeting moments when I am graceful.
Grace in other people.
Purring kitty under my hand.
Startling people into smiling or outright laughter.
Knowing people I love are thinking of me.
Open, honest vulnerability.
Finding out why.

A poll regarding harassment of women, via asim. No words, I stole & rearranged his. :)

I keep having an ENOBRAIN error. This makes getting things done difficult!

It's beautiful out, though. And I have a way shorter commute after work than I feared.

It's moderately amusing having had anyone ever ask me 'what people do' (in a specific situation). I seem to recall I commented that I have no idea what 'people' do, but that I can try to explain what _I_ do, inasmuch as ever having specific ideas of what I will or will not do has much useful effect beyond expanding my concept of possibilities (this is why there are _guidelines_, not rules, in my world). (cultural norms? You think I know those? Ha! :)

So. Tired.

But much less absurdly warm at home, as of last night.

Not eating cravings food is not because I am not allowing myself, it's because timing/hunger levels when availability/available amounts/energy levels have been conspiring against me. I'm not one who tends not to eat things if I want them. (or do things, for that matter)

ENOBRAIN!

Back to testing something _not urgent_ for the first time in at least two weeks. Sheesh.

*ignores pending urgent things that have not yet landed*

Mmm. Weekend soon. And my wrists are thinking about letting me possibly consider strength work while doing class things, even with crazy work. Miraculous! Massage last night helped, even if I was falling asleep during it.

Interesting things to remember...

People interactions get exponential very quickly. Tis is not bad, but it is time consuming. When I had no local sweeties, I had a lot more time for maintaining friends relationships. Also, driving is problematic, again.

Because... taking a class is _time-consuming_, if fun, and another step toward future plans, and wrist-usage (esp that first partial week!).

It's funny seeing my trouble with word problems and putting theoretical knowledge into practice illustrated so vividly. My problem with math stats in not the math (not at all), it's knowing what to use, when, and why. Give me the reasons and pattern and big picture, because in all likelihood, I will not figure it out.

But I think the prof has figured it out (or we're just getting out of the definitions), because this week hurts my brain much less. Good thing, because my wrists were hating me, since I was also not sleeping.

And this weekend was good, if really warm. And even if I did take until last night to figure out sleep evils.

(Ignore the time and date-stamp! Going to bed after this!)

Taking an online class from tomorrow through beginning of Aug; unclear how much this will reduce my online presence, and driving availability, as I will need to pull points from _somewhere_, and those are most possible places to pull from. Hopefully I am better enough that it will be about time, not wrist overuse concerns.

On the promising front, I went to two BBQs today under my own power. :) _And_, I'm managing to take my normal anti-depressant break (as I could not last summer, due to stress from wrists and the cascading effects thereof). Currently every other day; stopping for the summer next Sat.