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People. I like them.
Sep. 30th, 2015 05:50 pmAnd my curiosity appears to be back and _staying_ back. This appears to be strongly correlated to how chipper I'm being.
( for politeness )
( for politeness )
That was somewhat ironic
Mar. 2nd, 2015 04:28 pmJust got out of a cog sci colloquium on neurofeedback and ADD and attention and focus.
As you may or may not know, I have a lot of trouble paying attention to speech. The longer it goes on, the less able I am to focus on it. If I'm not exhausted (eg not winter), I can often play mindless card games on my computer to help my focus, but I forgot to bring my iPad into this talk.
And... about 40 minutes in, my attention _would not_ stay on the presenter any longer. (mind you, this is after a 2.5 hour morning class which is also a whole lot of listening) Found myself doing things like fiddling with blinds whose slats were not all facing the same direction (which wasn't quiet, but I couldn't avoid it anymore), jiggling my leg, and otherwise struggling to stay focused. The talk ended after around an hour and ten minutes, and if I hadn't had such trouble staying focused, I'd totally have been interested in the neurofeedback demonstration. I just _couldn't_ anymore, though. It was at the point of being painful by that point.
I have no idea if I have some minor form of ADD. I know only that listening to someone talk for long periods of time is _exhausting_ and difficult. And worse when I'm tired.
So now I'm going to wait a bit before driving home, because my focus is completely shot. And while I don't want to have to deal with rush hour traffic, I want to drive in this state even less.
Now, some meditation or otherwise not having to pay attention to my surroundings. My brain is full!
As you may or may not know, I have a lot of trouble paying attention to speech. The longer it goes on, the less able I am to focus on it. If I'm not exhausted (eg not winter), I can often play mindless card games on my computer to help my focus, but I forgot to bring my iPad into this talk.
And... about 40 minutes in, my attention _would not_ stay on the presenter any longer. (mind you, this is after a 2.5 hour morning class which is also a whole lot of listening) Found myself doing things like fiddling with blinds whose slats were not all facing the same direction (which wasn't quiet, but I couldn't avoid it anymore), jiggling my leg, and otherwise struggling to stay focused. The talk ended after around an hour and ten minutes, and if I hadn't had such trouble staying focused, I'd totally have been interested in the neurofeedback demonstration. I just _couldn't_ anymore, though. It was at the point of being painful by that point.
I have no idea if I have some minor form of ADD. I know only that listening to someone talk for long periods of time is _exhausting_ and difficult. And worse when I'm tired.
So now I'm going to wait a bit before driving home, because my focus is completely shot. And while I don't want to have to deal with rush hour traffic, I want to drive in this state even less.
Now, some meditation or otherwise not having to pay attention to my surroundings. My brain is full!
One midterm down...
Feb. 26th, 2015 03:44 pmComputational modeling homework and grading student midterms remaining (for Monday).
I have no idea why I dislike being the first person to leave the room for a test but I do. And it's often the case. I either know how to answer a question or I don't, so I do what I can, and go back over it to make sure I made sense (short essay format) and catch anything I remembered in the meantime, and I'm _still_ often first person out.
Ah, well. Could have been worse. Feel like I remembered most of what I needed to remember.school
I have no idea why I dislike being the first person to leave the room for a test but I do. And it's often the case. I either know how to answer a question or I don't, so I do what I can, and go back over it to make sure I made sense (short essay format) and catch anything I remembered in the meantime, and I'm _still_ often first person out.
Ah, well. Could have been worse. Feel like I remembered most of what I needed to remember.school
I have no focus, also exercise
Feb. 10th, 2015 05:12 pmTurns out that I have no focus. This makes grading papers rather... difficult, as I get distracted _in the paper_ from what I'm actually supposed to be grading. La.
Things I never remember about me and exercise: Exercise that is useful in the short term (eg shoveling or using our snow blower or working in the garden) and exercise that is fun (working in the garden is here, too, and wandering around in nature, and social type exercise like Squares if I have help to make sure I actually go) are the types of exercise that I will actually _do_.
Seems like nearly every day this month, I'm doing enough physical work that I'm covered in sweat and achy _somewhere_ by the end of the day. Currently, my right shoulder says I use it too much when using the ice pick.
Anyway. Back to grading papers. And trying to focus.
It's probably good that we keep having snow days. I fear how far behind I'd be if we didn't. Of course, dealing with the snow does take a lot of time and energy, so mu?
Also, the plants on the third floor and in my bedroom are watered. The first floor, not recently. Poor plants.
Things I never remember about me and exercise: Exercise that is useful in the short term (eg shoveling or using our snow blower or working in the garden) and exercise that is fun (working in the garden is here, too, and wandering around in nature, and social type exercise like Squares if I have help to make sure I actually go) are the types of exercise that I will actually _do_.
Seems like nearly every day this month, I'm doing enough physical work that I'm covered in sweat and achy _somewhere_ by the end of the day. Currently, my right shoulder says I use it too much when using the ice pick.
Anyway. Back to grading papers. And trying to focus.
It's probably good that we keep having snow days. I fear how far behind I'd be if we didn't. Of course, dealing with the snow does take a lot of time and energy, so mu?
Also, the plants on the third floor and in my bedroom are watered. The first floor, not recently. Poor plants.
After sleeping for approximately 11 hours (yep, I was tired), I'm much more alert today. Which is good, since I need to finish grading and work on homework in both of my classes. And if I have time, work on end of semester things for my classwork and research.
I just got to the paper of one of the students from whom I expected good work, and it was _such_ a relief to grade. I had to try very hard to not grade the paper too high just because it was so much easier to read and grade than others have been. 4 left to grade! (at least one other of which is likely to be another pleasant change to read)
Watered many plants as a break from grading. I still have some plants that need to be relocated to my office, but I'm kind of running out of space (since plants grow and need bigger pots and also want sun, and all). One of these days I will pick the lime from my lime tree. I'm not sure how to tell when they are ripe!
I've apparently not been getting enough social that isn't someone I live with or![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jasra, given that between time with ratatosk and time keeping company with inukshuk and eventually roommate who I don't know well at all while they prepped for a party that was too late for me to actually attend, I feel rather a lot more balanced. (and yes, that sentence is terrible) Can't help that there is no one else in my office at school. Yes, self, you _do_ need people.
Right. Back to grading the last four papers!
I just got to the paper of one of the students from whom I expected good work, and it was _such_ a relief to grade. I had to try very hard to not grade the paper too high just because it was so much easier to read and grade than others have been. 4 left to grade! (at least one other of which is likely to be another pleasant change to read)
Watered many plants as a break from grading. I still have some plants that need to be relocated to my office, but I'm kind of running out of space (since plants grow and need bigger pots and also want sun, and all). One of these days I will pick the lime from my lime tree. I'm not sure how to tell when they are ripe!
I've apparently not been getting enough social that isn't someone I live with or
jasra, given that between time with ratatosk and time keeping company with inukshuk and eventually roommate who I don't know well at all while they prepped for a party that was too late for me to actually attend, I feel rather a lot more balanced. (and yes, that sentence is terrible) Can't help that there is no one else in my office at school. Yes, self, you _do_ need people.Right. Back to grading the last four papers!
standing desk for class reading
Sep. 27th, 2014 04:45 pmEvidently my standing desk kludge (many piles of things on my desk to allow for a high enough place for the monitor and a different level for my keyboard) is far more useful to me when I'm reading and responding to readings than for other things I have to do. My guess is that I'm better at remembering to move around and not just stand in those cases.
Was pretty restless, so wanted to not sit while I read for class (and later to grade things). So I'm standing, and moving back and forth and stretching and such. Not bad!
Eh, why not:
( picture of desk )
Apparently it is no longer particularly easy to get the actual address of a photo, even on flickr. Grumble.
Was pretty restless, so wanted to not sit while I read for class (and later to grade things). So I'm standing, and moving back and forth and stretching and such. Not bad!
Eh, why not:
( picture of desk )
Apparently it is no longer particularly easy to get the actual address of a photo, even on flickr. Grumble.
May I be excused? My brain is full!
Sep. 11th, 2012 04:17 pmLast night, catchup on three labs in a matlab class I'm suddenly auditing. This morning, another lab for that class, and working on the homework that was due this morning.
After lunch, trying desperately to track down info on signal processing. Then some very basic info from a co-worker which was fabulously useful, and also my brain was full. I'll review tomorrow before he continues.
I do hate having to ask people to stop and return to things, but I was losing the ability to have any idea what he was saying!
Random brief summary thus far: Fourier transformation to get at the frequencies of the pieces of a signal (gives a spectrum of frequencies). High, or low, or band, or notch pass filter to take out bits. frequency and period and amplitude and hz.
So glad that tonight I get to go home, finish cleaning the railings and posts of our front porch, and just do some painting. Minimally brain-hurting activities are good. :)
After lunch, trying desperately to track down info on signal processing. Then some very basic info from a co-worker which was fabulously useful, and also my brain was full. I'll review tomorrow before he continues.
I do hate having to ask people to stop and return to things, but I was losing the ability to have any idea what he was saying!
Random brief summary thus far: Fourier transformation to get at the frequencies of the pieces of a signal (gives a spectrum of frequencies). High, or low, or band, or notch pass filter to take out bits. frequency and period and amplitude and hz.
So glad that tonight I get to go home, finish cleaning the railings and posts of our front porch, and just do some painting. Minimally brain-hurting activities are good. :)
Cuddly people are good
Sep. 9th, 2012 07:40 pmGot to see and be at least a little cuddly with underwatercolor, weegoddess, minerva42, and a couple of people who have no lj that I am aware of.
And then, today, 4 hours of quiet chatting and some cuddling withweegoddess, who also got to chat with galaneia a fair bit. :)
And,metahacker was kind enough to help with my "I am so low on cuddle and now aware of it oh god I can't sleep" problems late last night. It's like opening a door and finding a Gaping Chasm Of Doom (or, in this case, painfully aching need for touch)! I definitely need more people to cuddle with regularly, though, as it can be a bit hard on him to only really have metahacker to get cuddles from. Like if he's overpeopled or it's too warm or whatever, you know?
Tomorrow, start volunteering at the lab I'm going to be helping with. Should be good, and it'll be nice to figure out a reasonable schedule (likely not full time, since that's not great for me when I am being paid, let alone when not,). Will also start trying to figure out where to apply to, no matter how much I do not want to apply agaaaaaain.
Did a bit of painting of the porch railing, with more to come.metahacker finished painting the trim in the back room, and adjusted the arrangement of the furniture in that room. It looks fabulous, I think.
underwatercolor, weegoddess, minerva42, and a couple of people who have no lj that I am aware of.And then, today, 4 hours of quiet chatting and some cuddling with
weegoddess, who also got to chat with galaneia a fair bit. :)And,
metahacker was kind enough to help with my "I am so low on cuddle and now aware of it oh god I can't sleep" problems late last night. It's like opening a door and finding a Gaping Chasm Of Doom (or, in this case, painfully aching need for touch)! I definitely need more people to cuddle with regularly, though, as it can be a bit hard on him to only really have metahacker to get cuddles from. Like if he's overpeopled or it's too warm or whatever, you know?Tomorrow, start volunteering at the lab I'm going to be helping with. Should be good, and it'll be nice to figure out a reasonable schedule (likely not full time, since that's not great for me when I am being paid, let alone when not,). Will also start trying to figure out where to apply to, no matter how much I do not want to apply agaaaaaain.
Did a bit of painting of the porch railing, with more to come.
metahacker finished painting the trim in the back room, and adjusted the arrangement of the furniture in that room. It looks fabulous, I think.My thesis is finally officially done!
Sep. 1st, 2012 03:24 pm"Submission Approved and Archived"
Yay! Of course, come time to try to submit it as a journal article, I'm sure I'll need to revisit it. But for now, officially done with it!
Yay! Of course, come time to try to submit it as a journal article, I'm sure I'll need to revisit it. But for now, officially done with it!
Apparently I have no stamina. I can't tell if I'm sick, overwhelmed, or depressed.
Unfortunately, it's translating to wanting to do anything _but_ my thesis work, which needs to be at a final draft stage before mid-July when my adviser is gone for three weeks. And it's due as in needs to be done and approved by my adviser and second reader by early August. And I just Don't Want To.
Mostly, just tired. Don't really want to do much of anything, and spent last weekend mostly sleeping (which probably means I'm actually sick). I think I may also be sleeping for crap, which may be due to the fact that I have a time pressure that I'm aware of and I feel like I'm not really doing enough about.
Grumble.
Yes, I've done a little meditation, mostly while trying to fall asleep. Not sure if it's helping.
Unfortunately, it's translating to wanting to do anything _but_ my thesis work, which needs to be at a final draft stage before mid-July when my adviser is gone for three weeks. And it's due as in needs to be done and approved by my adviser and second reader by early August. And I just Don't Want To.
Mostly, just tired. Don't really want to do much of anything, and spent last weekend mostly sleeping (which probably means I'm actually sick). I think I may also be sleeping for crap, which may be due to the fact that I have a time pressure that I'm aware of and I feel like I'm not really doing enough about.
Grumble.
Yes, I've done a little meditation, mostly while trying to fall asleep. Not sure if it's helping.
*tired of being tired*
Mar. 12th, 2012 10:02 amI am always tired. This is frustrating! I am able to ignore it to a greater or lesser extent, with sunlight helping and working in the garden helping.
It feels a little like I am with no sleep aids at all, except that my anti-depressant is also a mild sleep aid.
*grumpy* It's _hard_ to do school when I'm always damn tired...
It feels a little like I am with no sleep aids at all, except that my anti-depressant is also a mild sleep aid.
*grumpy* It's _hard_ to do school when I'm always damn tired...
Can has not sick!
Jan. 23rd, 2012 10:30 pmYay, not sick. And hey, a reset on how much food I eat isn't all bad, either.
Unfortunately, winter decided to remind me that hey, I am still seasonally depressed, even if it is mostly under control. Similarly unfortunately, I have still not found a useful replacement for the uppers source that was World of Warcraft for me for years. I am displeased that this appears to translate to trying to find tasty things to put into my mouth, even if I am not hungry. Need WoW replacement!
School back in session. Did not make short list for PhD program at Brandeis, which means that I shall need to find a job in the psych research field for a year when I finish my masters, then figure out where I can and should apply to. On the plus side, if I manage to find a job in the field, I will have more flexibility to handle the possibility that the places I wish to apply to are not at the time accepting PhD students. Also, the possibility that where I do find to apply does not accept me.
Even so, though. Tired of applying. Tired of having to figure out what I'm doing every damn year, and applying to schools every year.
Less down than I was, though, thanks to time withmetahacker tonight.
Unfortunately, winter decided to remind me that hey, I am still seasonally depressed, even if it is mostly under control. Similarly unfortunately, I have still not found a useful replacement for the uppers source that was World of Warcraft for me for years. I am displeased that this appears to translate to trying to find tasty things to put into my mouth, even if I am not hungry. Need WoW replacement!
School back in session. Did not make short list for PhD program at Brandeis, which means that I shall need to find a job in the psych research field for a year when I finish my masters, then figure out where I can and should apply to. On the plus side, if I manage to find a job in the field, I will have more flexibility to handle the possibility that the places I wish to apply to are not at the time accepting PhD students. Also, the possibility that where I do find to apply does not accept me.
Even so, though. Tired of applying. Tired of having to figure out what I'm doing every damn year, and applying to schools every year.
Less down than I was, though, thanks to time with
metahacker tonight.Donwanna!!!!
Dec. 8th, 2011 12:15 pmSo, Tuesday morning's final was terrible. Seriously. Everyone I talked to had a lot of trouble with it.
Tomorrow morning, the professor is offering an additional three questions to answer as an option to replace our three worst, with the awareness that it cannot hurt our grade, as apparently no one thought there was enough time to answer the questions. Of course, there were questions that I literally had no idea why I would be able to answer them at all. Same
Should my exam grade be low enough, I may be able to do an extra credit paper. Due December 16th. On top of everything else I need to do.
As far as I can tell, there is no curve for this exam.
So now? I don't want to do any of the things I have to do. Wicked grumpy.
I won't know my grade on the final until Monday, the day that the first of the two things I'm already working on is due. So I won't know if I need to work on a paper until Monday. The other of the two things I'm working on is due Weds. And, if I need to do it, the bonus paper would be due next week on Friday. So it's not actually that unreasonable, in terms of timing. I'm just so tired, y'know?
*grumble*
Tomorrow morning, the professor is offering an additional three questions to answer as an option to replace our three worst, with the awareness that it cannot hurt our grade, as apparently no one thought there was enough time to answer the questions. Of course, there were questions that I literally had no idea why I would be able to answer them at all. Same
Should my exam grade be low enough, I may be able to do an extra credit paper. Due December 16th. On top of everything else I need to do.
As far as I can tell, there is no curve for this exam.
So now? I don't want to do any of the things I have to do. Wicked grumpy.
I won't know my grade on the final until Monday, the day that the first of the two things I'm already working on is due. So I won't know if I need to work on a paper until Monday. The other of the two things I'm working on is due Weds. And, if I need to do it, the bonus paper would be due next week on Friday. So it's not actually that unreasonable, in terms of timing. I'm just so tired, y'know?
*grumble*
How I forgot this, I do not know.
Tuesdays will be problematic!
9:30a autism class. V interesting, lots of work. Volunteered to give presentation early, which means next Tuesday morning. Read article yesterday, need to summarize, create presentation, and verify that it really only takes 10 minutes and doesn't burn anyone's eyeballs.
Class also involves group things, including debates and such. Many articles. Some required, some not.
Then my adviser wanted to talk to me and others about helping make it more possible for me to get data without quite so many being run by _me_. All sorts of helpful, but talking to me _right after_ 1.5 hours of taking notes like a madwoman makes my head hurt. This may require splitting my groups in half again.
Then trying to reduce the numbers of faces so that that portion of my study only takes an hour. Stupid faces. Stupid time consuming. Tomorrow, I need to adjust my medialab stuff to account for faces removed, and faces moved.
I had lunch in there. I do adore my labmates, but I suspect that I will need to request not interactive lunches on tuesdays.
Then 2 hour class. Lots of notes last Thursday, but this time we did ridiculously basic SPSS stuff so that I had to struggle to remain awake.
I will have a research assistant, who I need to contact and introduce to my study. Need to find time to study around running hopefully 5 people a week. (this is why I volunteered to present sooner rather than later. I'm not the only one settling into the routine!)
Buh. People. Today needs less people!
So, hiding.
I am truly enjoying this! And, as expected, 12 month program is, indeed, taxing.
Tomorrow, first classes of the two classes I have not yet had. And presumably time in between to fix up my darned medialab files again.
At least my presentation is _next_ tuesday. I have a weekend, although I will summarize tomorrow, and work on the presentation part on Thursday (ie, which graphs to explain, what just needs a brief summary, etc).
I hope my group members get back to me about meeting times.
Need to organize the papers from our orientations last week, as they are covering my desk and making me more crazy.
Tuesdays are a problem. I suspect no other day quite this much!
So now I hide and play mindless games.
Tuesdays will be problematic!
9:30a autism class. V interesting, lots of work. Volunteered to give presentation early, which means next Tuesday morning. Read article yesterday, need to summarize, create presentation, and verify that it really only takes 10 minutes and doesn't burn anyone's eyeballs.
Class also involves group things, including debates and such. Many articles. Some required, some not.
Then my adviser wanted to talk to me and others about helping make it more possible for me to get data without quite so many being run by _me_. All sorts of helpful, but talking to me _right after_ 1.5 hours of taking notes like a madwoman makes my head hurt. This may require splitting my groups in half again.
Then trying to reduce the numbers of faces so that that portion of my study only takes an hour. Stupid faces. Stupid time consuming. Tomorrow, I need to adjust my medialab stuff to account for faces removed, and faces moved.
I had lunch in there. I do adore my labmates, but I suspect that I will need to request not interactive lunches on tuesdays.
Then 2 hour class. Lots of notes last Thursday, but this time we did ridiculously basic SPSS stuff so that I had to struggle to remain awake.
I will have a research assistant, who I need to contact and introduce to my study. Need to find time to study around running hopefully 5 people a week. (this is why I volunteered to present sooner rather than later. I'm not the only one settling into the routine!)
Buh. People. Today needs less people!
So, hiding.
I am truly enjoying this! And, as expected, 12 month program is, indeed, taxing.
Tomorrow, first classes of the two classes I have not yet had. And presumably time in between to fix up my darned medialab files again.
At least my presentation is _next_ tuesday. I have a weekend, although I will summarize tomorrow, and work on the presentation part on Thursday (ie, which graphs to explain, what just needs a brief summary, etc).
I hope my group members get back to me about meeting times.
Need to organize the papers from our orientations last week, as they are covering my desk and making me more crazy.
Tuesdays are a problem. I suspect no other day quite this much!
So now I hide and play mindless games.
I cannot figure out why MediaLab refuses to believe in the presence of some of the files it wants, but not all of them in a directory. I see nothing obvious as far as permissions problems, and the file opens fine outside of MediaLab.
And there appear to be no log files which might have a bit more info than that it can't open it.
Rar.
And there appear to be no log files which might have a bit more info than that it can't open it.
Rar.
(no subject)
Aug. 16th, 2011 12:50 pmCampus ID: check
Registered for classes: check
Put class schedule in both personal and school calendars: check
Obtained two books, one on Kindle-equivalent, and one from half.com: check:
One book pending conversation with professor about if an international (and a quarter the price) version is ok: check
Nerves: So very check!
Back to work!
Registered for classes: check
Put class schedule in both personal and school calendars: check
Obtained two books, one on Kindle-equivalent, and one from half.com: check:
One book pending conversation with professor about if an international (and a quarter the price) version is ok: check
Nerves: So very check!
Back to work!
bits and pieces!
Aug. 9th, 2011 03:24 pmNatural break in my work, and a need to leave in a few minutes means that I actually have time to write a post! Shock!
( because it's polite! )
( because it's polite! )
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Graaaa stupid slide scanning software
Aug. 5th, 2011 12:05 pm_Why_ do you save all the slides I scan into a single file? I want them separate! And I don't know how to separate them myself...
Makes me sad to have to scan them one at a time, restarting the software every darn time.
Stupid thing. And I can't find anything useful with a google search.
Makes me sad to have to scan them one at a time, restarting the software every darn time.
Stupid thing. And I can't find anything useful with a google search.
