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wispfoxWhy the fuck am I still awake?
It is, by the way, _INTENSELY_ frustrating to miss someone you knew well, but no longer know; still see periodically, but can't talk to. I don't know why it matters to me so much that I be able to _tell_ people that I miss them, but it does.
It's also very strange to find myself missing someone, but know perfectly well that it's not them _now_ that I miss because I don't know them now. Then again, I don't think I miss people nearly as much if I have a strong sense of them, since I tend to continue to be able to refresh such senses periodically, and can trust in that ability and in my sense of them.
Sometimes I hate that I don't stop caring about and missing people! And sometimes I wish to _god_ I knew what triggers these mental states.
I truly hope that I manage to sleep enough to actually be awake for looking at apartment tomorrow.
Psinging was fun, though. Many nifty people, much cuddling, much glee at other people's interactions, much amusement. And I was wearing petable clothing!
Kitty's belly fur is still growing in. I suspect that it will still be growing back by the time![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
australian_joe is here.
Almost 2am, and not tired. 'Course, wasn't tired when I got home, but I hoped that being in bed would help (didn't). Perhaps I shall take melatonin...
It is amusing to have a request for random words. Difficult to comply, though!
Yeah. Melatonin. Much as my random babble is entertaining me, everyone else who _doesn't_ have to get up in the morning is in appropriate sleeping places. And my cat wants to know why I'm not in bed. :)
It is, by the way, _INTENSELY_ frustrating to miss someone you knew well, but no longer know; still see periodically, but can't talk to. I don't know why it matters to me so much that I be able to _tell_ people that I miss them, but it does.
It's also very strange to find myself missing someone, but know perfectly well that it's not them _now_ that I miss because I don't know them now. Then again, I don't think I miss people nearly as much if I have a strong sense of them, since I tend to continue to be able to refresh such senses periodically, and can trust in that ability and in my sense of them.
Sometimes I hate that I don't stop caring about and missing people! And sometimes I wish to _god_ I knew what triggers these mental states.
I truly hope that I manage to sleep enough to actually be awake for looking at apartment tomorrow.
Psinging was fun, though. Many nifty people, much cuddling, much glee at other people's interactions, much amusement. And I was wearing petable clothing!
Kitty's belly fur is still growing in. I suspect that it will still be growing back by the time
australian_joe is here.Almost 2am, and not tired. 'Course, wasn't tired when I got home, but I hoped that being in bed would help (didn't). Perhaps I shall take melatonin...
It is amusing to have a request for random words. Difficult to comply, though!
Yeah. Melatonin. Much as my random babble is entertaining me, everyone else who _doesn't_ have to get up in the morning is in appropriate sleeping places. And my cat wants to know why I'm not in bed. :)
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Date: 2005-05-10 05:24 pm (UTC)Yes. And at the same time, it's sad and painful, sometimes.
Though I find those someones have a habit of presenting themselves without any effort on my part. I just have to wait. They usually feel the same way, too.
I have hope that waiting will help, but I have no certainty.
*sigh* Most of the time, I just ignore the fact. Sometimes it beats me upside the head because it thinks I can do something about it, even though I can't.