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[wispfox]

Why the fuck am I still awake?

It is, by the way, _INTENSELY_ frustrating to miss someone you knew well, but no longer know; still see periodically, but can't talk to. I don't know why it matters to me so much that I be able to _tell_ people that I miss them, but it does.

It's also very strange to find myself missing someone, but know perfectly well that it's not them _now_ that I miss because I don't know them now. Then again, I don't think I miss people nearly as much if I have a strong sense of them, since I tend to continue to be able to refresh such senses periodically, and can trust in that ability and in my sense of them.

Sometimes I hate that I don't stop caring about and missing people! And sometimes I wish to _god_ I knew what triggers these mental states.

I truly hope that I manage to sleep enough to actually be awake for looking at apartment tomorrow.

Psinging was fun, though. Many nifty people, much cuddling, much glee at other people's interactions, much amusement. And I was wearing petable clothing!

Kitty's belly fur is still growing in. I suspect that it will still be growing back by the time australian_joe is here.

Almost 2am, and not tired. 'Course, wasn't tired when I got home, but I hoped that being in bed would help (didn't). Perhaps I shall take melatonin...

It is amusing to have a request for random words. Difficult to comply, though!

Yeah. Melatonin. Much as my random babble is entertaining me, everyone else who _doesn't_ have to get up in the morning is in appropriate sleeping places. And my cat wants to know why I'm not in bed. :)

Comments

[leiacat.livejournal.com]

I can muchly relate on the miss-ness thing.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's just no fun.

[randysmith]

*hugs*

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*purr* Having fun in Cali?

[randysmith]

*scritch*

Basically. Not sleeping as well (though I got enough sleep last night and I'm logy today--go figure) but good seeing my sister, dad, and niece. Miss people back home, though!

[ladytabitha.livejournal.com]

Niiice usericon.

[ladytabitha.livejournal.com]

Er, also yes, sympathising.  *blush*

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

regyt made it!

[cindy-lu.livejournal.com]

It is definitely hard to miss someone but realize that you don't really know them anymore.

And petable clothing!

Random word for today: banana tree

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

banana moss!

[jasra]

Sometimes I hate that I don't stop caring about and missing people!

I do this too. Sometimes I write them a letter and save it on my computer. Sometimes that helps, sometimes it makes me miss them more.

And my cat wants to know why I'm not in bed.

Demanding critters, aren't they? :D

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I write them a letter and save it on my computer. Sometimes that helps, sometimes it makes me miss them more.

That's never actually helped, I find.

[minkiekitten.livejournal.com]

I can definitely sympathize with the missing people thing - in fact, I often miss the person whose blog linked me to yours (Lon). Though I imagine you probably know the "now" Lon better than I knew the "then" Lon - but regardless, I miss his freespirited random silliness, which I now only receive in short, yearly doses. :)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Interestingly, I don't actually see Lon much, either, even though I work with him. Busy, busy, guy...

Also, hi!

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

What happened with last apt visit?

[pasquin.livejournal.com]

I miss people with whom I have unfinished business. That incompleteness nags at me like missing keys, a leaking faucet.

Though I find those someones have a habit of presenting themselves without any effort on my part. I just have to wait. They usually feel the same way, too.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

I miss people with whom I have unfinished business. That incompleteness nags at me like missing keys, a leaking faucet.

Yes. And at the same time, it's sad and painful, sometimes.

Though I find those someones have a habit of presenting themselves without any effort on my part. I just have to wait. They usually feel the same way, too.

I have hope that waiting will help, but I have no certainty.

*sigh* Most of the time, I just ignore the fact. Sometimes it beats me upside the head because it thinks I can do something about it, even though I can't.