Random updates.

Very good weekend. Very good couple of weeks, really.

australian_joe returns to Australia today (every time I try to say 'returns home', my brain gets confused because he's _not_ going to be at my home! Weird...). It'll be really, really strange to go home tonight and not have him there. Periodically missed him a little over the last couple of days - it's always strange to miss someone who isn't gone yet! Hell, he's _still_ not gone, but may as well be from my perspective, since I'm at work.

Yep. Much missing of him. But, I shall cope. I always do! (asking me if I'll be ok will never have a useful answer - I will always be ok!) No longer being in an uncertain state is good. And having a decent sense of him to draw upon is also good.

Got lots and lots of good cuddling and touch and such. This is a very good thing! Yes.

*purrs, stretches* It's been a while since I was around someone whose idea of 'enough' touch is similar enough to mine to not pose problems. (in not getting as much as I would like, or in them wanting more than I do - rare, but does happen)

Accent not picked up because it's not yet one for which I do not have to modify my brain's translation software. But I suspect strongly that there will be new words in my vocabulary. ;)


And... some (unrelated) quotes from my calendar from over the weekend!

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves." -Carl Jung

"The world is so constructed that if you wish to enjoy its pleasures, you also must endure its pains." -Swami Brahmananda

Random updates.

Very good weekend. Very good couple of weeks, really.

australian_joe returns to Australia today (every time I try to say 'returns home', my brain gets confused because he's _not_ going to be at my home! Weird...). It'll be really, really strange to go home tonight and not have him there. Periodically missed him a little over the last couple of days - it's always strange to miss someone who isn't gone yet! Hell, he's _still_ not gone, but may as well be from my perspective, since I'm at work.

Yep. Much missing of him. But, I shall cope. I always do! (asking me if I'll be ok will never have a useful answer - I will always be ok!) No longer being in an uncertain state is good. And having a decent sense of him to draw upon is also good.

Got lots and lots of good cuddling and touch and such. This is a very good thing! Yes.

*purrs, stretches* It's been a while since I was around someone whose idea of 'enough' touch is similar enough to mine to not pose problems. (in not getting as much as I would like, or in them wanting more than I do - rare, but does happen)

Accent not picked up because it's not yet one for which I do not have to modify my brain's translation software. But I suspect strongly that there will be new words in my vocabulary. ;)


And... some (unrelated) quotes from my calendar from over the weekend!

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves." -Carl Jung

"The world is so constructed that if you wish to enjoy its pleasures, you also must endure its pains." -Swami Brahmananda

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*glee*

A couple of my co-workers are practicing juggling outside right now!

(good gods, my fingers seem to have lost their ability to type anything! Typo-city, here!)

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*glee*

A couple of my co-workers are practicing juggling outside right now!

(good gods, my fingers seem to have lost their ability to type anything! Typo-city, here!)

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catya has people telling stories about falling in love with their partner/s. It's sweet, so I share. :)

And... geminigirl wants to know the silliest/strangest thing you've heard during/immediately after sex?

Are YOU a Literature Abuser?!, in bridgetester's journal, apparently initially from theferrett. (I _so_ am. Bad me!)


QOTD from carocrow:

Just when you think you've graduated
from the school of experience,
someone thinks up a new course.
~Mary H. Waldrip

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catya has people telling stories about falling in love with their partner/s. It's sweet, so I share. :)

And... geminigirl wants to know the silliest/strangest thing you've heard during/immediately after sex?

Are YOU a Literature Abuser?!, in bridgetester's journal, apparently initially from theferrett. (I _so_ am. Bad me!)


QOTD from carocrow:

Just when you think you've graduated
from the school of experience,
someone thinks up a new course.
~Mary H. Waldrip

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Hmm.

Ok, I just realized that I've got nothing planned during the day Saturday _or_ Sunday, which will be really, really odd with no one else in my apartment as of tomorrow night (aelisdeliria is going away for a few days) until after the weekend.

Anyone have any suggestions? I'm likely to want to be at least somewhat social, so...

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Hmm.

Ok, I just realized that I've got nothing planned during the day Saturday _or_ Sunday, which will be really, really odd with no one else in my apartment as of tomorrow night (aelisdeliria is going away for a few days) until after the weekend.

Anyone have any suggestions? I'm likely to want to be at least somewhat social, so...

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For those few of you who _haven't_ yet been sucked into reading starandrea's journal because I link to her, you must read this and this, even though the second 'this' isn't actually her words.

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For those few of you who _haven't_ yet been sucked into reading starandrea's journal because I link to her, you must read this and this, even though the second 'this' isn't actually her words.

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"Not silly until proven silly" is _not_ a valid argument. How does one prove silliness?!

(hi. Yes, my brain is dripping into my LJ. I also have an awful lot of verbal pings, which I didn't really notice until commented upon. hi (and variations), meow (and variations), boo (sorry, no variations here), various questioning looks which aren't so much verbal but are certainly in-person, and there are probably more. Neat!)

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"Not silly until proven silly" is _not_ a valid argument. How does one prove silliness?!

(hi. Yes, my brain is dripping into my LJ. I also have an awful lot of verbal pings, which I didn't really notice until commented upon. hi (and variations), meow (and variations), boo (sorry, no variations here), various questioning looks which aren't so much verbal but are certainly in-person, and there are probably more. Neat!)

[PSA]

Note to those who have my cell number:

If you leave a message, it is _not_ safe to assume I will notice it immediately. I just now noticed that I had a voicemail message from two days ago, because I'd forgotten to take it off vibrate mode, and don't always _look_ at my phone. If I don't answer the phone, leaving a message is fine, but it's probably also wise to try calling back and/or emailing if there is any sort of urgency to your call (there wasn't for this one).

*shakes head*

[PSA]

Note to those who have my cell number:

If you leave a message, it is _not_ safe to assume I will notice it immediately. I just now noticed that I had a voicemail message from two days ago, because I'd forgotten to take it off vibrate mode, and don't always _look_ at my phone. If I don't answer the phone, leaving a message is fine, but it's probably also wise to try calling back and/or emailing if there is any sort of urgency to your call (there wasn't for this one).

*shakes head*

[schmoop? I think?]

I like that, even with the mopey bits relating to the fact that my apartment is _empty_ right now, I am completely confident in that he'll be _back_. (and, yes, I do have intent to visit there at some point - dude, I _already_ wanted to visit Australia! I just have more reason now. ;)

I like that I had time during which I had both lots and lots of words and lots and lots of non-verbal. (And knowing that my need to be highly verbal is _appreciated_ is wonderful)

I like that I didn't let myself not say (and I _said_ them, mostly, not wrote them!) things that needed to be said because it annoyed me that it was true, or because I was afraid. And the telling was always received well. (I'm sure the above comment about highly verbal appreciation was a factor here, too)

I like that I felt like I was listened to on as many levels as I tend to listen.

I like that I was willing to look into eyes for long periods of time without breaking eye contact. And I learned that apparently part of why my gaze can be disconcerting is that I don't move my eyes at _all_ unless I'm thinking about it (or something not what I'm looking at catches my eye).

I like that, even though I most certainly had moments of feeling like I was being too strange (and therefore enough to make people leave), there was an explicit statement that at no point was that a possible problem. And I _most_ certainly got stranger than most people see me (I don't usually let people see me when I'm being really unable to sleep/fae/not fully here). Weirding people out is _always_ a concern of mine.

Yes, I miss. Of course I do - two weeks is a lot of time, especially when one is attempting to do lots of stuff during it. But I _don't_ have the fear that normally comes with distance for me. At least for now, at least while the sense I got is strong and important/needed shared verbalizations are in my head, I'm not afraid. And it is good.

I love. I miss. And I'm not afraid.

[schmoop? I think?]

I like that, even with the mopey bits relating to the fact that my apartment is _empty_ right now, I am completely confident in that he'll be _back_. (and, yes, I do have intent to visit there at some point - dude, I _already_ wanted to visit Australia! I just have more reason now. ;)

I like that I had time during which I had both lots and lots of words and lots and lots of non-verbal. (And knowing that my need to be highly verbal is _appreciated_ is wonderful)

I like that I didn't let myself not say (and I _said_ them, mostly, not wrote them!) things that needed to be said because it annoyed me that it was true, or because I was afraid. And the telling was always received well. (I'm sure the above comment about highly verbal appreciation was a factor here, too)

I like that I felt like I was listened to on as many levels as I tend to listen.

I like that I was willing to look into eyes for long periods of time without breaking eye contact. And I learned that apparently part of why my gaze can be disconcerting is that I don't move my eyes at _all_ unless I'm thinking about it (or something not what I'm looking at catches my eye).

I like that, even though I most certainly had moments of feeling like I was being too strange (and therefore enough to make people leave), there was an explicit statement that at no point was that a possible problem. And I _most_ certainly got stranger than most people see me (I don't usually let people see me when I'm being really unable to sleep/fae/not fully here). Weirding people out is _always_ a concern of mine.

Yes, I miss. Of course I do - two weeks is a lot of time, especially when one is attempting to do lots of stuff during it. But I _don't_ have the fear that normally comes with distance for me. At least for now, at least while the sense I got is strong and important/needed shared verbalizations are in my head, I'm not afraid. And it is good.

I love. I miss. And I'm not afraid.

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*laughs at her cat, Ash*

Yes, I understand that you _must_ sit immediately next to me on the couch, and claim your rightful place next to me on my bed.

Reclaiming your space and person, much, kitty?

Crazy cat. He likes people, oh, yes. But he thinks I am _his_, and no one else's, and gets a bit out of sorts when that is proven to not be the case.

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*laughs at her cat, Ash*

Yes, I understand that you _must_ sit immediately next to me on the couch, and claim your rightful place next to me on my bed.

Reclaiming your space and person, much, kitty?

Crazy cat. He likes people, oh, yes. But he thinks I am _his_, and no one else's, and gets a bit out of sorts when that is proven to not be the case.