wispfox

I really do hope going to .au (and NOT WORKING) for a month in February will help the fact that I seem to be more or less constantly on the point of being overstimulated.

I don't know why, exactly, but I figure a real vacation (the likes of which I've not had since at least the last time I was in school, in '01) can't hurt. And is likely to help!

Can't decide if perhaps I'm just more likely to be easily overstimmed as I get older, if this really is just about me wanting to go ahead and change careers already, or something else that I can't think of. Similar question, as far as the degree of wintertime effects.

I'm tired of being tired, dammit! (but it's an overstimmed tired, and not - usually - a lack of sleep tired. Sometimes, it's both)

[edit: Actually, this feels an awful lot like I've just never quite gotten out of being burnt out a year ago last summer. So I think it may really be just about me needing to change careers]

My muscles tend to get really irritable about a week before my monthly massage. With variation on just how irritable, of course.

Usually, this means neck/shoulder/upper back area, as it appears to be where I carry my tension.

For some unknown reason, this time through, my left shoulder/neck is exceptionally irritable around my shoulder blade, such that my range of motion when turning my head to the left isn't as far as it ought to be, and I can't do a normal head circle (a neck loosening move I try to do with some regularity). I can't figure out how to stretch it out, much to my frustration. It was somewhat better (but the apparent source of the problem refused to go away) after metahacker (one of brynndragon's two nifty roommates. In theory, there is a third, but I'm not sure I've met the third roommate. That, or I just don't remember them due to insufficient interaction) kindly massaged at it for a while.

There were far too many parentheticals in that last paragraph.

I'm suspecting that - as with most of the time when I get nasty cricks in my neck/shoulders - there isn't much to be done. Massages help, but don't make it go away. Same with muscle relaxants and pain meds. IIRC, they goes away on its own, although I'm never sure why, or why they happen.

And, much as it feels like something needs to crack, cracking my neck (which tends to happen whether or not I try to cause it) seems to only make it worse.

I hate my muscles. I wish they would stop randomly getting irritable! (not that this a new behavior; I can't remember a time when they _didn't_ do this)