Psinging, energy work, courting

[wispfox]

Sometimes hearing someone else say things that are true is startling, even though they are true and has been for a while. An example of this that I was not fully aware of until, well, tonight, is Psinging.

I invite people to Psinging if I think they will enjoy it. But I _also_ invite some people to Psinging (and I think the phrasing is different - not 'do you want to go', but 'do you want to go with me') because I want them to _be_ there. I want them to know/share that part of me.

Music is important to me, strongly important. Psinging is the only regular outlet I have for it, and is therefore a pretty strong part of me. I did not really know it as such, but the fact that australian_joe wanted to go to Psinging with me meant a whole hell of a lot to me, probably partly because I generally don't expect others to have interest in such (don't know why, so asking won't get a useful reply), but most certainly because it is a partial reflection of who I am. It _is_ of high relationship import to me because it's a strong part of me. And I don't think I really knew this until it was stated to me as such.

I knew music in general was important to me, just as I know that energy work is important to me. I did _not_ know that Psinging had so thoroughly snuck its way into my head.

Energy work and mysticism are similarly important to me, and interest in such will have a similar level of bonus in my opinion of a person (presuming that it's _sane_ interest, and not fluffy bunny pagan interest!).

I had the odd realization recently that I don't think I'd ever been openly courted before. I've courted, definitely, although I doubt I used the word, and may not have been very open about it, either. It's interesting/neat/fascinating/weird/good. And although I can point to it happening, I'm not sure I can define it, or even give examples... (what's it with me and using all these words I can't define?)

Having someone be willing to show me who they are without strings attached or restraint, simply because they want me to know who they are and better be able to know what it is that I want is... right. And the trust shown helps me to trust in return, far more than I normally do. I don't have to wonder about things, because I know. Either because the knowledge is shared when it's available, or because I was told ahead of time. Or sometimes, because I can feel it. And the lack of strings means lack of pressure, means decisions made with awareness and knowledge, and not uncertainty.

Ok, the last few paragraphs aren't really making sense in my head, so I don't know if they make sense _out_ of it. I'm tired and words work less well in that state, but I wanted to try to get concepts out of my head. So now, I stop trying, and get off the computer, and attempt sleep. I must remember to get myself more of the sleep-improving pills. Yes.

Also wanted to try wording thoughts on reincarnation, but words aren't anymore so I guess that's not happening.