emotions

[wispfox]

Sometimes laughter is from amusement, often from startled, silly, or both.

Sometimes it's either that or crying.

Sometimes it's that _and_ crying.

Sometimes it's to stave off hysteria, and those laughs sound very brittle to my own ears.

Sometimes, though, laughter is an extension of a smile, because the smile just cannot hold enough joy without exploding into laughter. This is usually what is happening if I am unable to explain why I am laughing.


I now know that I handle completely unfamiliar situations much better than I used to. But they still are no fun. But, sometimes, especially difficult situations allow one to work through things that one did not know how to address, and come out the other side with a better understanding of one's self and one's relationships.


My predictive abilities for my emotional state are much better for positive situations than negative ones. I suspect strongly that I tend toward being overly negative about negative ones, because it's safer. It's much easier to start from the point of not being able to handle something, and perhaps later relax that as appropriate, than to expect too much of myself and make things bad all around for no helpful reason. On the other hand, I'm really accurate about whether or not something likely to be good for me is likely.

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predictive & negative things: It's usually about the difference between my immediate _right now_ reaction, and how I feel once enough time has passed. But since I can't tell ahead of time how much 'enough' time is, it's safer to be overly pessimistic about how I will feel about that thing, until and unless it changes appropriately.