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Why must I lose friendships for things that did not happen? And, because of who I am and how I am, _would_ not happen, even should the friend in question not have been similarly trustworthy? I miss the friendship. I would have been perfectly _happy_ had it continued as the friendship that it was. I had not seriously considered any other possibilities due to lack of availability, regardless of the fears/expectations of said friend's significant other. But apparently having a close friendship with me is threatening for my friends' significant others, sometimes. At least that's not always true, I guess...

Why is it that being who I am seems to be so damn good at magnifying problems in the relationships of those with whom I spend a sufficient amount of time, all too frequently resulting in jealousy and/or the loss of said friendships? Sometimes I hate being a catalyst.

I don't like losing friendships. I never have. I like it even less when the reason is not within the friendship itself. The dislike increases yet more when I run into former friends with relative frequency, due to mutual social activities that I refuse to stop attending. Worse yet when I had a sufficiently strong bond with the former friend that I felt a need to remove the bond.

*sigh* I wish I coped _faster_, dammit!

[edit: tried to make things a little more clear]

Re: I'm sure its fast as it should be

Date: 2004-07-27 07:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
*muse* You can talk rationally, while going through emotional/mental/psychological havoc. Even if it's after the fact talking.

Date: 2004-07-27 07:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wispfox.livejournal.com
Oh. Yes.

I need to be able to communicate too much while going through emotional/mental/etc havoc - that's part of why I did such an excessive job on controlling my emotions as a kid.

So yeah. I can.

Date: 2004-07-27 07:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
It's a good skill to have. I also do the controlling emotions thingy, as you've gathered. I do tend to be more free in RL than LJ though. Usually. *sigh*

Re: I'm sure its fast as it should be

Date: 2004-07-27 08:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
Yeah, [livejournal.com profile] bridgetester gets it. You've always impressed me with your clear thought-ed-ness in your LJ while you were in the middle of psyche-damaging events. Then again, to my recall, you seem to do a good job talking through these things in RL as well. I tell you, when the apocalypse comes, I hope that you on my side - you'll be all cool-headed, even while waving around that two-handed assault machine gun, and shouting "Get down!" at me before firing a full round over my ducked head into the advancing flaming-bodied horde.

And yes, you should ping me to visit. The Soon part is the only problem. I think I'm free next post-Pennsic. >:-(
On the plus side, after Pennsic, I have all kinds of free time.

Date: 2004-07-27 08:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wispfox.livejournal.com
you'll be all cool-headed, even while waving around that two-handed assault machine gun, and shouting "Get down!" at me before firing a full round over my ducked head into the advancing flaming-bodied horde.

Um. No. Things that require quick physical action aren't my forte. :)

I can stay cool-headed, but I can't parse things quickly enough to have quick reactions to things.

As for post-Pennsic - how about you ping me when you get back?

Re: I'm sure its fast as it should be

Date: 2004-07-27 10:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
Oh good. I thought I was parsing that correctly... :)

And that, my friend, is no small feat

Date: 2004-07-28 03:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
Entire civilizations have risen and fallen without once ever, over the course of their whole history, both in times high and low, understanding the nature and meaning of my words. Then again, sometimes it is just better not to understand what I'm talking about. More than one noble entity has broken the ship of his mind on the jagged rocks of my peculiar notions. Fairly warned, says I.

Re: And that, my friend, is no small feat

Date: 2004-07-28 04:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
*glee!*

Entire civilizations have risen and fallen without once ever, over the course of their whole history, both in times high and low, understanding the nature and meaning of my words.

That wouldn't have anything to do with, just perhaps, their existence before you were born?

Then again, sometimes it is just better not to understand what I'm talking about. More than one noble entity has broken the ship of his mind on the jagged rocks of my peculiar notions. Fairly warned, says I.

Avast! Rocks ahead, capt'n! They're lookin' mighty peculiar too. 'Ware them rocks!

Re: And that, my friend, is no small feat

Date: 2004-07-28 06:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
That wouldn't have anything to do with, just perhaps, their existence before you were born?

Before I was born? Before?

Oh... ah, I see. You don't know about the whole how-I-was-forged-two-cycles-before-the-birth-of-time-itself thing about me. Totally understandable. People make that mistake all the time.

Re: And that, my friend, is no small feat

Date: 2004-07-28 06:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
how-I-was-forged-two-cycles-before-the-birth-of-time-itself

Paradoxical. Because nothing could be completed before time began, because it takes time to complete things.

Time and other silly dimensions

Date: 2004-07-28 07:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
Yeah, this was back "before" cause-effect relationships too. It was a hell of a lot easier to get things done back then, because there was no time of which to run out. Of course, nothing happened for any reason, but everything (did/was/will) happen(ing) all at once. We had some wild parties. Goodness, those were the non-days!

Re: Time and other silly dimensions

Date: 2004-07-28 07:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
http://www.math.ohio-state.edu/~fiedorow/math655/unorientable.html

That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 07:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
Look, I have a rule here, by which I must abide. Let's see... I believe it's rule #241, which is as follows... ahem...

"I shall, under no circumstances, attempt to merge the essence of a llama and a duck. While this might seem like a great plan, it didn't work out so well last time..."

Wait, wait, no... that's not it. Ah, here it is - it was #242.

"I shall automatically befriend anyone who is the first to send me a link about 2 dimensional crabs moving through the midst of single sided objects."

Ipso facto, you are now on my friends list. Silly me; I thought that rule would never come into play.

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
http://www.geocities.com/spotty_the_salamander/duckllama/duckllama1.html

Duly friended back, although I'm often overly lax about reading others' journals. :)

So what's the rule about a link to Flatland (http://www.alcyone.com/max/lit/flatland/)?

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 08:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
What an obscure little cartoon. That's great! >:-)

Duly friended back, although I'm often overly lax about reading others' journals. :)

S'okay. Happens to the best of us.

So what's the rule about a link to Flatland?

Well, there goes the rest of my day.

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 08:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wispfox.livejournal.com
*mock stern*

Alright you two, find your own journals to spam! ;)

*amused by the fact that people randomly have long chats in her posts*

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 08:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
Ooops! Sorry about that. We'll take our random chatter and move right along. *slinks off*

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 09:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wispfox.livejournal.com
(was being mock stern. Really. I like that my friends list people get to know each other)

Yes, I know

Date: 2004-07-28 09:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] majes.livejournal.com
I knew that you were just kidding around. I swear my feelings weren't hurt at all. I just have the allergies right now... that's what all that sniffiness is all about. Yeah. That's it.

Re: That's it... now you've done it

Date: 2004-07-28 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bridgetester.livejournal.com
*shrugs* You and [livejournal.com profile] wolfieboy talked for a while in one of my posts the other day.

Besides, there were Clicky Links! ;P

Date: 2004-07-28 09:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wispfox.livejournal.com
Dude! I said _mock_ stern!

I'm amused/pleased that people on my friends list are all getting to know each other!

Meh!

Date: 2004-07-28 09:11 pm (UTC)

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