[sad, rant]

[wispfox]

Why must I lose friendships for things that did not happen? And, because of who I am and how I am, _would_ not happen, even should the friend in question not have been similarly trustworthy? I miss the friendship. I would have been perfectly _happy_ had it continued as the friendship that it was. I had not seriously considered any other possibilities due to lack of availability, regardless of the fears/expectations of said friend's significant other. But apparently having a close friendship with me is threatening for my friends' significant others, sometimes. At least that's not always true, I guess...

Why is it that being who I am seems to be so damn good at magnifying problems in the relationships of those with whom I spend a sufficient amount of time, all too frequently resulting in jealousy and/or the loss of said friendships? Sometimes I hate being a catalyst.

I don't like losing friendships. I never have. I like it even less when the reason is not within the friendship itself. The dislike increases yet more when I run into former friends with relative frequency, due to mutual social activities that I refuse to stop attending. Worse yet when I had a sufficiently strong bond with the former friend that I felt a need to remove the bond.

*sigh* I wish I coped _faster_, dammit!

[edit: tried to make things a little more clear]

Comments

Re: That's it... now you've done it

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*mock stern*

Alright you two, find your own journals to spam! ;)

*amused by the fact that people randomly have long chats in her posts*

Re: That's it... now you've done it

[majes.livejournal.com]

Ooops! Sorry about that. We'll take our random chatter and move right along. *slinks off*

Re: That's it... now you've done it

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

(was being mock stern. Really. I like that my friends list people get to know each other)

Yes, I know

[majes.livejournal.com]

I knew that you were just kidding around. I swear my feelings weren't hurt at all. I just have the allergies right now... that's what all that sniffiness is all about. Yeah. That's it.

Re: That's it... now you've done it

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

*shrugs* You and wolfieboy talked for a while in one of my posts the other day.

Besides, there were Clicky Links! ;P

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Dude! I said _mock_ stern!

I'm amused/pleased that people on my friends list are all getting to know each other!

Meh!

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

*pats* :)