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wispfoxOh, good _gods_, I suddenly want touch.
And not just any touch. Touch where I'm not trying to heal someone or be healed. Touch where I don't have to think about whether or not they'll want the touch and/or have to ask for it, or whether or not there are areas I have to be careful about touching (ticklishness can be problematic). Comfy, non-thinking-required...
Gah.
[edit: it's actually fairly difficult for me to be comfortable enough to not think at all when cuddling with someone, and pretty much requires that they are both ridiculously comfy for me to be around _and_ are naturally very cuddly]
[another edit: non-thinking-required != not thinking. By that, I _really_ meant that I don't have to think about the cuddling itself in terms of being highly aware of where to not touch (for tickling reasons, mostly), whether or not the person really _wants_ to be touching for so long, etc...]
[yet another edit: cuddling, for me, implies that physical contact is being initiated by _both_ people, not only one. I need to feel like the other person is actively interested/involved in it, or it's not cuddling.]
And not just any touch. Touch where I'm not trying to heal someone or be healed. Touch where I don't have to think about whether or not they'll want the touch and/or have to ask for it, or whether or not there are areas I have to be careful about touching (ticklishness can be problematic). Comfy, non-thinking-required...
Gah.
[edit: it's actually fairly difficult for me to be comfortable enough to not think at all when cuddling with someone, and pretty much requires that they are both ridiculously comfy for me to be around _and_ are naturally very cuddly]
[another edit: non-thinking-required != not thinking. By that, I _really_ meant that I don't have to think about the cuddling itself in terms of being highly aware of where to not touch (for tickling reasons, mostly), whether or not the person really _wants_ to be touching for so long, etc...]
[yet another edit: cuddling, for me, implies that physical contact is being initiated by _both_ people, not only one. I need to feel like the other person is actively interested/involved in it, or it's not cuddling.]
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Re: touch
Date: 2004-07-12 05:47 pm (UTC)I understand about the non-needy touch want. I'm frequently desirous of more touch than I get; but that's just how our society is most of the time (at least for me). Good luck in fulfilling your want...
Re: touch
Date: 2004-07-12 05:49 pm (UTC)Not being ticklish is very much an advantage in my head - I learned how to turn it off at a _very_ young age. And most people I know who are ticklish don't like to be tickled. (most. Not all)
frequently desirous of more touch than I get
So am I. But for a while there I _was_ getting about my level of want and of the non-effortful varieety, which makes this more... noticable. I guess.
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Date: 2004-07-12 05:51 pm (UTC)(It is possible to touch me without tickling me, it just takes knowing intent.)
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Date: 2004-07-12 05:56 pm (UTC)*grins* True. But still fun! ;)
ticklish as all hell.
Yep.
For the most part, I don't _have_ good local outlets for this. Not to the extent that I want it to be effortless, because most of my social group _doesn't_ do the randomly touchy/cuddly stuff. At least not that I notice. Maybe it's just because I'm overly paranoid about annoying people with my more or less constantly wanting touch if I am being at all social, so I don't initiate enough to be aware of those who are and are not both really comfy for me _and_ as cuddle-friendly as I am. Not sure.
Meh. Missing...
Re: touch
Date: 2004-07-12 06:00 pm (UTC)I should probably mention that in terms of getting the amount of touch that I want, yesterday was good. :) I just want more today...
As for the thinking part, I was somewhat ignoring that since I'm quite good at keeping my thoughts to myself. (Yes, I put myself in the postion of supplying such even though I'm a bit distant. I don't know how else to give my reactions. I don't know if that's a usual behaviour for most people or not.)
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:01 pm (UTC)By that, I _really_ meant that I don't have to think about the cuddling itself in terms of being highly aware of where to not touch (for tickling reasons, mostly), whether or not the person really _wants_ to be touching for so long, etc...
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:02 pm (UTC)(Yes, I put myself in the postion of supplying such even though I'm a bit distant. I don't know how else to give my reactions. I don't know if that's a usual behaviour for most people or not.)
What?
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-12 06:04 pm (UTC)Good lord, so would I! Yeesh. People!
Must remember to initiate cuddling the next time we're together long enough to do so. Yes. :) Speaking of which, I really should visit you sometime soon!
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:06 pm (UTC)Still, I've noticed that it continues to happen sometimes nowadays, so. Not sure where to address this...
Perhaps with you visiting. Hi!
Re: thinking / wants / touching
Date: 2004-07-12 06:08 pm (UTC)Thanks for clarifying the not-thinking part. It makes much more sense now.
One of the reasons that I identify with ferrets is the amount that they play/lay/sleep together.
Re: what?
Date: 2004-07-12 06:14 pm (UTC)As an aside, the way that I was able to figure out how to respond to your comments was by putting myself in the role of supplying the touch that you are seeking. I did with no expectations of fulfilling such in the near future due to you being a continent away.
Figuring out my reactions in this manner is something that I do regularly but I have no idea how common the behaviour is.
It was really a throwaway comment that is imminently ignorable.
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-12 06:18 pm (UTC)Re: thinking / wants / touching
Date: 2004-07-12 06:44 pm (UTC)I mostly can't, although I _can_ go unable to speak and unable to word things.
It makes much more sense now.
Yeah. I should go clarify in the post itself. :)
Re: what?
Date: 2004-07-12 06:46 pm (UTC)I do this. I think of things in terms of what if they happen regardless of if they actually are likely to happen soon or at all. So no worries.
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:47 pm (UTC)Noted. And for the info, thank you.
having only met you once, I suspect I don't fall into the category of people you're that comfortable with, unfortunately.
I think you could get there, though. And it's less about only having met once than about only having met once for fairly briefly in a really crowded location. :)
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Date: 2004-07-12 06:48 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:10 pm (UTC)My life has been so inordinately busy and complicated lately; I could use that sort of generic fluffy petting my own self. *pout* That is something that is rare and hard to find in New England, a cuddle buddy. Heck, many of the people I met up here don't even know how to *hug* properly, it's all cheek touch, air kisses and A-Frame.
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:24 pm (UTC)This stuff _does_ happen in some of my social circles, but usually in large enough group things that I don't want to be there for the overwhelmingness of people.
I suspect part of my problem is simply that I'm still too _new_ to the vast majority of my social circle, so I'm not really sure where boundaries lie. And I tend strongly toward being overly cautious.
And I do have people who do this, but they are mostly scattered, sometimes _really_ far away.
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:25 pm (UTC)OK, my social group isn't _this_ bad. Reasonable hugs are normal/common, at least.
And, I grew up in New England, mostly, which might be why I _am_ so damn cautious about this kind of thing. Not sure.
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:30 pm (UTC)The largest concentration of cuddle folks for me is on the other coast. Dammit, I want my bicoastal teleporter already! ;P
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:45 pm (UTC)I know. Although, I _do_ touch - but touch is different than cuddling is.
pretty darn likely to lead to misinterpretation unless you make it extremely explicit
Which I think I do a pretty decent job of, but it's often not worth the energy expenditure to explain, and to figure out who is at a point in my head that it's even worth attempting to explain, so I don't.
And... actually... I think that the comment about people assuming much when one simply wants to be cuddly that
Meh. Sometimes the fact that the really nifty/comfy people in my life are so damn scattered annoys the hell out of me.
I want my bicoastal teleporter already!
If you can have one of those, can I have a more generic one? Please? It'd not only let me visit the nifty people I don't see enough, but it'd completely remove the things that make me travel less often - the time it takes to _get_ places, and the discomfort thereof.
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Date: 2004-07-12 07:55 pm (UTC)p'raps a visit with
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Date: 2004-07-12 08:01 pm (UTC)(and, I _am_ seeing him Thursday night)
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Date: 2004-07-12 08:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-12 08:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-12 08:51 pm (UTC)But I suppose that we don't really know each other well enough for that?
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Date: 2004-07-12 08:56 pm (UTC)For cuddling of a good kind, we do. And noted and appreciated and will keep it in mind when I want less... specific kinds of cuddling. (this information is likely to be more applicable for me come wintertime, FYI)
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Date: 2004-07-12 08:59 pm (UTC)*nod* I radiate well.
And thank you. I'm flattered and pleased to know that I'm able to be trusted/liked enough by you to have a place in the spectrum of people you might want to share touch with.
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Date: 2004-07-13 01:23 am (UTC)I think the ... ease of touch, the ... absence of intrusive monitoring during such, was a lot of what I was thinking of with my various comments re. "this does *not* seem like only [2 weeks | 3 months]".
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Date: 2004-07-13 03:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-13 02:08 pm (UTC)I... huh? No, I did _not_ know that!
*startled*
That said, it turns out that I was looking for _really_ specific kinds of cuddling. Not, of course, that touch _not_ of that type is bad. :)
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Date: 2004-07-13 02:23 pm (UTC)I think the ... ease of touch, the ... absence of intrusive monitoring during such, was a lot of what I was thinking of with my various comments re. "this does *not* seem like only [2 weeks | 3 months]".
Yes. But I get a stronger and stronger feeling that that ease of touch has much less to do with time (for me) than with _rightness_. Thus my usual comments in reply to your comments being 'Yeah, but I _do_ that'.
Re: thinking / wants / touching
Date: 2004-07-13 05:41 pm (UTC)Cuddlepile! *beams*
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Date: 2004-07-13 05:42 pm (UTC):P at them
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Date: 2004-07-13 05:45 pm (UTC)Why settle for bicoastal? I want an omnilocation teleporter. Or innate teleporation. Yes. :D
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Date: 2004-07-13 05:47 pm (UTC)*nods emphatically*
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Date: 2004-07-13 05:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-13 05:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-13 05:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-13 05:58 pm (UTC)I am far more comfortable touching females of any age, or guys much much younger than me than guys my own age. Guys older than me... that's rather unlikely too. *muses* The interpretation is very important.
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Date: 2004-07-13 10:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-14 07:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-16 06:45 pm (UTC)*ponders*
If I let myself/am comfortable with the person enough and/or think the other person is comfortable with it, I tend to move rather startlingly quickly in terms of casual touch with people. So...
At least in terms of casual physical contact with people, if the "rightness" is there, it'll be there early on, and I'll tend to act on it pretty early on.
But then, I'm also _much_ more prone to casual physical contact with friends-who-are-not-lovers than you are, IIRC. Which probably tends toward making me prone to having less time required for such. *shrug* Not sure. And probably doesn't particularly need all this investigatiion by me. ;)
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Date: 2004-07-16 06:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-07-26 09:30 am (UTC)Yes, that's probably it.