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[wispfox]

So. Fucking. Tired.

On every imaginable level.

I want a different year.


I don't like the fact that I have a bond to someone who is becoming unreal to me, due to lack of connection-maintaining activities (most people are not real to me, but I've never had someone who was fully real _become_ not real, at least not while they were still around). It feels like trying to keep a hold on mist, and I begin to forget why the bond was formed, and why I should care. The pain is losing focus and meaning, and just is.

I begin to wonder if the bond will fade away, too. Without my having to force it.


I fucking _hate_ involuntary learning experiences. Educational though they may be.


Hi. Yes, this is why I've been quiet lately. I'm tired of bitching about things where no change has happened. And the lack of sunlight isn't helping, although the bit of sun yesterday was nice. Supposedly, this weekend is going to be sunny.

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[randysmith]

*hugs*

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Probably not going to Psinging tonight, due to sheer exhaustion.

[randysmith]

Oh, well, I guess I don't get to really see what your hair looks like tonight.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Nope. It'll probably still be purple by next work group - will you be there?

[randysmith]

Oh, yeah. I've been bummed about how many working group meetings I've been missing; I plan to make a somewhat careful effort to make them this summer.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Cool! Then I shall see you Sunday. :)

[brynndragon.livejournal.com]

*hug* I'm not real, but given that the hug is also virtual that shouldn't matter. I will say that the lack of sun has made things seem far gloomier than they are - see how you feel once the sun comes back.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

I'm not real

*laughs* I'm sure you actually _are_, but just not to me. ;)

lack of sun has made things seem far gloomier than they are

Probably true, but it's difficult to say. Theoretically, sunlight this weekend.

[scholargipsy.livejournal.com]

Been there. Hang in.

"Happiness, too, is inevitable." -- Albert Camus

I'm around if you need a listening ear.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Been there. Hang in.

I'm trying...

"Happiness, too, is inevitable." -- Albert Camus

I think I'm going to attempt to meditate on this tonight. Thank you.

I'm around if you need a listening ear.

Thanks. I think, at least for now, I'm attempting to think about other things as much as possible. It's been too strongly in my head for entirely too long now. _Morrowind_ is an excellent distraction. ;)

[majes.livejournal.com]

although the bit of sun yesterday was nice

Yes, you are welcome.

Re: tired

[wolfieboy.livejournal.com]

My experience is that as ethereal as the bond may get, it never fades away completely. It might work differently for you but other similarity have existed.
Relationships also go through cycles; the cycle dipping down into unreality might be new but the cycle may re-assert itself and come back up again. Only time will tell.

I hope you feel better (from your next post) and possibly that is contributing to some of your feelings of unreality towards this person.

Good luck on the sun. I know that can be very important.

*Hug*

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

possibly that is contributing to some of your feelings of unreality towards this person.

Possibly, but I think it was more than the feelings of unreality were contributing to the illness.

Still, thanks for the thoughts. :)

[jasra]

*offerings of hugs* I hope it's sunny for you this weekend. We're supposed to have drab, chilly weather. And it's been overcast for a few days. I'm ready for a new year as well. If you find a way to make that happen, please take me along. Even if I'm not yet real. :)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Dude. If I knew how to make new years, I'd share. Totally!

*accepts, enjoy hugs*

Not being real to me means nothing more than that I don't know you terribly well (and probably means I don't know people in person). Is all. :)