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May. 28th, 2004 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxSo. Fucking. Tired.
On every imaginable level.
I want a different year.
I don't like the fact that I have a bond to someone who is becoming unreal to me, due to lack of connection-maintaining activities (most people are not real to me, but I've never had someone who was fully real _become_ not real, at least not while they were still around). It feels like trying to keep a hold on mist, and I begin to forget why the bond was formed, and why I should care. The pain is losing focus and meaning, and just is.
I begin to wonder if the bond will fade away, too. Without my having to force it.
I fucking _hate_ involuntary learning experiences. Educational though they may be.
Hi. Yes, this is why I've been quiet lately. I'm tired of bitching about things where no change has happened. And the lack of sunlight isn't helping, although the bit of sun yesterday was nice. Supposedly, this weekend is going to be sunny.
On every imaginable level.
I want a different year.
I don't like the fact that I have a bond to someone who is becoming unreal to me, due to lack of connection-maintaining activities (most people are not real to me, but I've never had someone who was fully real _become_ not real, at least not while they were still around). It feels like trying to keep a hold on mist, and I begin to forget why the bond was formed, and why I should care. The pain is losing focus and meaning, and just is.
I begin to wonder if the bond will fade away, too. Without my having to force it.
I fucking _hate_ involuntary learning experiences. Educational though they may be.
Hi. Yes, this is why I've been quiet lately. I'm tired of bitching about things where no change has happened. And the lack of sunlight isn't helping, although the bit of sun yesterday was nice. Supposedly, this weekend is going to be sunny.
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Date: 2004-05-28 05:12 pm (UTC)I'm trying...
"Happiness, too, is inevitable." -- Albert Camus
I think I'm going to attempt to meditate on this tonight. Thank you.
I'm around if you need a listening ear.
Thanks. I think, at least for now, I'm attempting to think about other things as much as possible. It's been too strongly in my head for entirely too long now. _Morrowind_ is an excellent distraction. ;)