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[wispfox]

Dinner and Diesel and phone call (in that order, even) on Friday evening were all very good. Got to see many people at dinner who I don't see very much of, which was neat. Also got to see some people who I'd not expected to be able to see for a while (ladytabitha!). Need to make sure to find time to visit with/do reiki on nex0s. Also need to fix my pronunciation of reiki, as it confuses people. :)

Saturday morning I was awake at 9. But I refused to get up, and dozed until noon. That felt *amazing*, not listening to my brain's annoying insistance that I always need to be *doing* something. Dinner previous to massage party was good, although there was much exhaustion and it was *cold* out. Stupid cold weather.

Massage party was lovely, although I'd not considered that the time of year was wrong for me to be hugely social, even in the way that massage is social. But it was ok, because I still got some good massages and some useful pointers on new techniques. And got to notice, again, how *many* people in this area I know now. And got lots of cuddling with people I like but don't see enough of. I'm still amused by the fact that I didn't notice how odd it was that I effectively ordered someone to give me a massage until sometime during the massage. Didn't end up being a problem, but I'm not usually that... pushy! Starting to wonder if I *should* be, though. :)

Have been seeing a hell of a lot of volta lately, which has been neat, although kinda odd, since most of it has *not* been me scheduling time to see him, which is the normal state of things. We don't usually have a whole lot of social activity overlap. Was quite cool. And it was thoroughly nifty that we got to have lots and lots and lots of time to chat about all sorts of stuff. I did miss that, and am glad that we appear to be back at a reasonable state for such; possibly even more reasonable than ever used to be true, because of the amount of growing up and learning about myself I've done in the last year and a half or so.

Weee! Self-learning!

For those who've met me in the last year or so, which is most of you, I'm *way* more sure of what I want, and who I am, than I used to be. This makes conversations of all sorts quite a bit more pleasant, probably for everyone involved.

Still investigating myself, of course, but it's a much less painful process for other people (and for me) to deal with. And still working on some of my relationship-destroying habits, but at least I'm *aware* of them, and *can* work on them. And have seen progress. I've most certainly been more willing to *say* the things in my head that I was worried about saying or afraid of than I used to be. Both offline and on. And being able to say things in person is by far the most impressive thing from my perspective.

Of course, having people who reinforce the good behavior of not letting things fester in my head always helps, as does having people to talk to about stuff. So, yay, for my friends! *is pleased*

Today, I get (if that's the right word) to visit my parents and my oldest sibling's family. Previous plans for the day ended up not happening, so I figured I'd be a good daughter and take them up on their invitation. Should be... interesting.

Just hope my sister-in-law doesn't ask me why I don't visit more often. In the state of mind I'm in today, I might just answer the question, rather than dodge it. (in short, she drives me batty - even more batty than my mom used to do.)

OK. Must go find clothing and wander off to visit some of my family now. Oh, joy.

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[starphire.livejournal.com]

I guess it's not so strange you don't remember talking to me there - I don't think we've run into each other since then. Since my SO hosts the massage parties & CA, I may be overshadowed by her radiance. :)
Given the number of people you likely met for the first time the last time we met, perhaps a face is more useful than a name?

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

In truth, faces and names are *both* difficult for me, unless it's someone I interacted with enough.

Had I noticed the comment about the hosting of stuff by your SO, I might have figured out who you were without the email. But! Email worked. :)