[health.sleep]
Oct. 22nd, 2006 03:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxI am _seriously_ disconcerted by the degree to which having taken the Ativan my new PCP perscribed (in response to my desire to have something to break me out of bad sleep cycles) improves my mood. I think I've slept better the last two night (need to ask my doc if it's ok if I take it regularly; I know it's ok for 5 days in a row, since that was her suggestion for breaking bad sleep patterns) than I can ever remember sleeping (I apparently slept fine as a baby and young child, so it did get worse as time passed). And once I get past the "don't wanna get up!" stage of the morning, my mood is _WAY_ better than it has been in months, and better than it usually is this time of year. (And I don't think my difficulty getting up is anything other than the fact that I've gone to bed two damn late both nights)
I'd almost say I'm worried that I'm being manic, except that I can compare with what I recell my mood as tending to be in mid-summer before I burned out on my job (my mental state has not recovered since then, although the month in mid-summer in Melbourne helped considerably, thus my decision to return to school after saving and taking a year off) and it seems that it's around that point. What I _actually_ am is _NORMAL_ for me, I think. Kinda scary that it's sufficiently unusual to disconcert me, though.
Good sleep pill. *pets it* Doesn't make me particularly drugged feeling, and doesn't seem to affect my mornings. _Does_ have addictive properties, thus me wanting to ask my doc if daily would be ok. But seriously. Sleeping well should _not_ be this foreign to me! (and the fact that my sleep difficulties are apparently degernative, according to both family members who also have them, does _not_ make me happy)
Yay, sleep! Yay being significantly less down than I had been! Trying to decide if I should hold of on trying the persc anti-depressant (for wintertime crap) until a bit later, since the sleep med has _such_ a dramatic mood effect.
I'd almost say I'm worried that I'm being manic, except that I can compare with what I recell my mood as tending to be in mid-summer before I burned out on my job (my mental state has not recovered since then, although the month in mid-summer in Melbourne helped considerably, thus my decision to return to school after saving and taking a year off) and it seems that it's around that point. What I _actually_ am is _NORMAL_ for me, I think. Kinda scary that it's sufficiently unusual to disconcert me, though.
Good sleep pill. *pets it* Doesn't make me particularly drugged feeling, and doesn't seem to affect my mornings. _Does_ have addictive properties, thus me wanting to ask my doc if daily would be ok. But seriously. Sleeping well should _not_ be this foreign to me! (and the fact that my sleep difficulties are apparently degernative, according to both family members who also have them, does _not_ make me happy)
Yay, sleep! Yay being significantly less down than I had been! Trying to decide if I should hold of on trying the persc anti-depressant (for wintertime crap) until a bit later, since the sleep med has _such_ a dramatic mood effect.
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Date: 2006-10-25 08:35 am (UTC)In a way, fast withdrawal symptoms imply fast breakdown of the drugs. Which means you don't need as long before they're out of your system.
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Date: 2006-10-25 02:45 pm (UTC)But I have no idea how I will tell that it is sufficiently out (even though getting up this morning was _intensely_ difficult) to start the new meds.