[schmoop] Look! Random schmoop attack, involving multiple people!

[wispfox]

starandrea's post makes me intensely happy.

So does the fact that I'll be seeing her this weekend. Her _AND_ ladytabitha.

So does the fact that I let myself be sappy, and share things that seem trivial and yet important to me, far more often than I used to. Perhaps because I never got what felt like the right responses when I did. So getting the 'right' responses makes me more likely to do it.

Took me until Psinging until I found people who had what I considered the 'right' response to 'Magic', for example. I learned that song when I was somewhere around 12, I think. And I'd tried to share it before, with no comprehension on other people's parts. That was always sad. And painful.

It makes me happy to know that knowing me can improve people's communication skills.

I like that I can get over fear and shyness to tell people things that they need to know of the things in my head, when I know them. Like that I'm in love with them. Even if it does make me want to hide, desperately (and, apparently, consistently).

It continues to make me happy when people request things of me that I want to do, but that I might not have thought to request. And it continues to make me happy when it's immediately obvious to me that people actively enjoy the things I might do, especially when they are touch-related.

I like that I'm ok with asking for seemingly trivial things which are important to me. Or simply doing things (usually touch-related), without worrying that I should ask first, or that it won't be appreciated or wanted. (or, if _not_ wanted right then, that they won't feel free to say so, or that they'll be snappy about it)

I like that my need for people to tell me things that relate to me when they are aware of them helps me feel a part of their lives. And cared for. And trusted. And loved.

I like that being pushy about things that are important to me are taken as signs of what is important to me, rather than a problem.

It amuses me that I still get randomly shy because of direct gazes, if there are other people around. (sometimes, sticking out my tongue is lack of a response, sometimes it's a response to cheeky people, and sometimes it is because I'm feeling self-conscious) I still like them, if I push through my embarrassment.

I like that I can trigger reminders of things like this. Because this, also, is one of those things which just feel 'right' to me.

Somehow, 'less than 6 months' is a much easier goal to be patient for than 6 months or more was.

And, somehow, tonight is ok. Then again, I think I recall that the night of the day after australian_joe leaves is the hardest. That, or much as I less and less _want_ to say goodbye, I'm getting better at coping with it.

I love, I'm loved, and apparently I feel like drowning you all in schmoop. And it makes me very happy that many of the things I've said apply to multiple people in my life.

Now, for a shower, kitty cuddling, and sleep.

Comments

[leiacat.livejournal.com]

*hug* Shmoop on.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*grin* Sounds something like 'rock on', but not. ;)

[leiacat.livejournal.com]

Yes, that's how it was intended.

[randysmith]

*smiles* *hugs*

[ladytabitha.livejournal.com]

So does the fact that I'll be seeing her this weekend. Her _AND_ ladytabitha.

Oh yeah!  Maybe I'll get to meet her this time!  (Heh.)  Is there anything in particular, or just hanging out?  If so, lo, I bring my knitting.

So does the fact that I let myself be sappy, and share things that seem trivial and yet important to me, far more often than I used to. Perhaps because I never got what felt like the right responses when I did. So getting the 'right' responses makes me more likely to do it.

What's a "right" response, out of curiosity?  (By which I mean, I know exactly what you mean, but it'd be nice to get words - I sometimes get a right response, and often don't, and if I could articulate what I'm looking for, blah blah blah you know what I mean.  :p )

And I'd tried to share it before, with no comprehension on other people's parts. That was always sad. And painful.

I accept that people can have very personal attachments to music, and that we're not always going to synch up - I'm not going to understand why Bob loves the theme to Dirty Dancing so much, and he's not going to get why I love Wild West Hero by ELO so much.  So I personally don't really look for comprehension from people, on why I deeply love certain songs.

When it happens, it's a thing of beauty and a joy forever, of course.  And oh how I look for it.  But I don't expect it.

(Tone = my take, not your take is wrong, of course!)

It makes me happy to know that knowing me can improve people's communication skills.

To the point to where they seek you out for advice.  :D

I like that being pushy about things that are important to me are taken as signs of what is important to me, rather than a problem.

Time to get out the mirror and tattoo kit again...

*hugs* overall, hon.  :)

[randysmith]

What's a "right" response, out of curiosity? (By which I mean, I know exactly what you mean, but it'd be nice to get words - I sometimes get a right response, and often don't, and if I could articulate what I'm looking for, blah blah blah you know what I mean. :p )

"A child, a friend, a smile, a song, the courage to stand tall"

It's hearing the magic in the song, and letting it remind you of the magic all around you. And that being visible outside--relaxing, smiling, remembering.

Just IMO, of course. I *so* don't speak for wispfox, even if occasionally we do end up saying the same thing :-}.

[ladytabitha.livejournal.com]

Ah, was unclear: I was asking about a more generalised thing, rather than specifically to that song.  (I read songs as poems when I don't hear the music, and I don't care for poems, so I wouldn't get much out of reading the lyrics in the first place.)  More of, when she gets a right response to certain things, how does she characterise it?

Arr, words.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

I think I answered the question you actually asked, above. That's what I thought you were asking, so... :)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

For that specific song, rather than the general answer ladytabitha got, it's about...

things like that there are things about being child like which I think people should want/try to keep. Like belief in magic. And wonder. And hope.

Joy in beauty and new things and exploration.

It's not an accident (although I didn't notice it until now) that the two things I linked were that song and the post of australian_joe's. Those things are important to me, and they often seem like they are not important to far, far, far too many people.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

a) I think the goal was knitting-related stuff. Perhaps relating to the fact that you were thinking of making her something? I don't remember.

b) 'right' response... apparent comprehension of why I would want to share whatever it is (usually apparently trivial). Sharing of something similar at some point, demonstrating that there was comprehension and at least some level of that being important to them, too.

c) It's less... certain songs, and more specific ideas, some of which that particular song's lyrics contain.

And no, I don't expect it. But it's still sad when it doesn't happen.

d) Advice seeking, indeed!

e) ... mirror and tattoo kit? :)

[ladytabitha.livejournal.com]

a) Perhaps!  I dunno.  I am happy to be of the teaching, I sent that email out ages ago, but I'm not sure if either of you are up for it, since no one replied.  *SOB*

b) And perhaps some level of respect for the thing being shared.  "Yeah yeah, that's not that important/good/necessary" isn't really the right response.

c) Oh yes, definitely with the sad.

e) To reverse-tattoo it on my forehead!

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

a) I have obtained yarn and the kit you suggested, so I would at least be interested in the teaching!

b) Yes. This, too.

e) *snort* Oh. :)

[regyt.livejournal.com]

I love reading about you being happy. Your happiness being rather important to me, and all that. So, yay!

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*grin* Yay, indeed. It's funny, though, how... I can be simultaneously sad about australian_joe leaving and still see all the happy. Of course, I suppose that if I couldn't, there's no way this could work for me, highly verbal though he may be.

And *hug*!

[okoshun.livejournal.com]

Shmoopy? I didn't think so.

Beautiful? Yes. :)

..and reading it made me smile, and I like things that make me smile.

You said some interesting things that have me thinking too (and weirdly, a bit weepy but more in an emotional sense than a sad sense).

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*chuckle* If that wasn't schmoopy, I'm not entirely sure I'm able to be. :) _I_ thought it was! :)

And glad that it made you smile. And think. I like making people do both, so... ;)

[jasra]

That was a lovely post. It's good to see people who are happy and I especially like that it's you.

*hug*

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*grin* *hug*

[dancingwolfgrrl.livejournal.com]

Yay schmoop!