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[wispfox]

Ended up leaving work early due to exhaustion and (probably related) headache. Have since spent my time resting/thinking (apparently I haven't taken enough time for myself lately), reading, eating silly, simple things (fruit, yogurt), and napping.

I've come to the conclusion that I need to stop trying to be more social than I am currently able to be. I've not had a weekend day to myself (where I didn't have things I needed to be doing) in entirely too long.

So. People who already have specific plans with me, I intend to keep them (this also includes work group, but any other regular group things I do will be... uncertain). People who want to visit me, let me know - being visited is much much less effort than visiting. People who want me to visit them, y'all will simply have to wait until I figure out what it is that I need to be doing in order to gain back some sembalance of energy reserves. I think the vast majority of my health/sleep related things lately is that I simply don't have much/any reserves left, and am trying to cope with too much on not enough reseves.

I'm _tired_. It's kinda scary exactly how tired I am. If I thought my body and responsibilities would let me, I'd try sleeping for a week. That'd probably help. A vacation would, too, but I'm not entirely certain what I need a vacation from.

I'll probably be really sporatic with LJ (as I have been for about a week now) until I have more energy again.

I suspect that having people visit me who don't require much energy would be a good thing, too, but right now my self is screaming for time to myself. Time without anything I _have_ to be doing (ie, laundry, bills, grocery shopping). I'll probably be wanting non-effortful company again soon, but not right now.

Comments

[bluepapercup]

some day, when you are feeling up to it (whenever that is, even if a year from now) I can come by and cook a simple dinner for you and we'll sit and talk and drink cold things and it will be peaceful and lovely.

*hug*

In the meantime, enjoy your alone time. I know just how important that can be.

[opalmirror.livejournal.com]

good choice! don't forget to take time to lay in the grass and read as a priority.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Read has been high priority. Laying in the grass less so because it's been icky/humid out and I don't want to have to put clothing on.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*smile* Y'know, this response was almost totally _right_ - and more so having been unsolicited. Excellent combination of 'want to spend time with you' and 'no pressure'. Thank you.

And, FYI, it's highly unlikely to take a year to happen.

I'm already starting to notice a slow recovery, and periodic bits of wanting to be around people.

Thanks, hon.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

I will note that, when you have time and energy available, this is becoming more of a possibility again, as my social energy slowly returns.

(my calendar is on my LJ, the second entry down. Backdated for ease of location)