[sad, rant]

[wispfox]

Why must I lose friendships for things that did not happen? And, because of who I am and how I am, _would_ not happen, even should the friend in question not have been similarly trustworthy? I miss the friendship. I would have been perfectly _happy_ had it continued as the friendship that it was. I had not seriously considered any other possibilities due to lack of availability, regardless of the fears/expectations of said friend's significant other. But apparently having a close friendship with me is threatening for my friends' significant others, sometimes. At least that's not always true, I guess...

Why is it that being who I am seems to be so damn good at magnifying problems in the relationships of those with whom I spend a sufficient amount of time, all too frequently resulting in jealousy and/or the loss of said friendships? Sometimes I hate being a catalyst.

I don't like losing friendships. I never have. I like it even less when the reason is not within the friendship itself. The dislike increases yet more when I run into former friends with relative frequency, due to mutual social activities that I refuse to stop attending. Worse yet when I had a sufficiently strong bond with the former friend that I felt a need to remove the bond.

*sigh* I wish I coped _faster_, dammit!

[edit: tried to make things a little more clear]

Comments

[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

It's the -ey. Keys, trolleys, turkeys, surveys... mollies, academies, curries.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Mmm! True.

I have no idea why I felt like noticing this today, but I did.

Crazy English grammar rules!

[kar0na.livejournal.com]

And why is it grammar, and not grammer? ...D'OH! ::ducks flying bricks::

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Because English is _EVIL_!

And American pronunciations of words make spelling them even more confusing. Which is just lovely. ;) Although I don't think this one would be helped by a non-American English speaker pronouncing it.

[kar0na.livejournal.com]

A thousand British are rolling their eyes at our bastardization* of the language. I roll my eyes too.

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[wispfox.livejournal.com]

huh, what?

(me, I just think Americans - which, BTW, I am one of - like making spoken language more confusing. ;) I'm just impressed anyone can ever spell anything with multiple possible spellings (by sound) correctly)

[kar0na.livejournal.com]

"Huh?" as in, did I even check to see if that was a real word first?

I guess the more confusing the language gets, the more it's like an exclusive club we all belong to. Now if we just had a cool secret handshake. :)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Oh! Heh. I don't check if most of the words I use are real, as long as they get the point across. :)

Sekret handshake! Not too complicated, or I won't remember it, 'k?

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

It's magic.

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

hammer! *glee!*