disconnected bits
Jun. 18th, 2004 08:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxJust finished Silverlock, by John Myers Myers, to my great delight. And to my further delight, there's a fair amount of things I haven't read that were referenced and I therefore get to eventually read!
Tasty book, yes. I officially approve of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
yendi's and shadesong's taste in reading materials. Oh, yes. Now, I must see if either of them have reading suggestion lists somewhere...
'Tis the weekend. Thankfully, because this past week was quite draining at work! So, I rest, help someone move, and do laundry, and then I have anaustralian_joe for two weeks, starting Monday afternoon. *pleased*
Can _not_ wait for my massage this month, because it's a bit late as my massage therapist was not going to be in town this past week. So I hurt. Owy! Next Thursday, though. Oh, yes.
I appear to have decided to consciously let a bond fade, since it was pretty much doing so anyway, and if I do in fact end up having to sever it, it'll be an awful lot easier to do if it's not full strength (_easier_ - by no means do I pretend that it'll be _easy_). It's also much easier on me to not be fighting the fading when I don't have anything to fight it _with_. And a faded bond is reasonably simple to restore.
Want to do something, but have no particular sense of what. I hate it when I am in that kind of mental state. Maybe I'll play with the harp. It's been a while since I did that, and that tends to be good for that kind of mental itchiness.
Huh! There's no song in my head. I wonder if that's always the case when my head is feeling itchy like this?
Tasty book, yes. I officially approve of
yendi's and shadesong's taste in reading materials. Oh, yes. Now, I must see if either of them have reading suggestion lists somewhere...'Tis the weekend. Thankfully, because this past week was quite draining at work! So, I rest, help someone move, and do laundry, and then I have an
australian_joe for two weeks, starting Monday afternoon. *pleased*Can _not_ wait for my massage this month, because it's a bit late as my massage therapist was not going to be in town this past week. So I hurt. Owy! Next Thursday, though. Oh, yes.
I appear to have decided to consciously let a bond fade, since it was pretty much doing so anyway, and if I do in fact end up having to sever it, it'll be an awful lot easier to do if it's not full strength (_easier_ - by no means do I pretend that it'll be _easy_). It's also much easier on me to not be fighting the fading when I don't have anything to fight it _with_. And a faded bond is reasonably simple to restore.
Want to do something, but have no particular sense of what. I hate it when I am in that kind of mental state. Maybe I'll play with the harp. It's been a while since I did that, and that tends to be good for that kind of mental itchiness.
Huh! There's no song in my head. I wonder if that's always the case when my head is feeling itchy like this?
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Date: 2004-06-19 01:43 pm (UTC)So, I'm doing something similar. Except I'm doing it to a bond that just formed (something about not being emotionally safe). And I know from experience that one has to be careful with these things because if you spend too much time trying not to care, eventually one day you won't and no act of will can bring that connection back.
There must be a movie quote around here. Ahh! Swingers!
ROB: I mean first you'll pretend not to care, not call - whatever, and then, eventually, you really won't care.
MIKE: Unless she comes back first.
ROB: Ah, see, that's the thing. Somehow they don't come back until you really don't care anymore.
MIKE: There's the rub.
ROB There's the rub.
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Date: 2004-06-20 03:01 am (UTC)But it's not that I stop caring. It's that I can't hold to something with nothing there to hold onto.
And... it's possible to form new connections. Different connections. Or so I firmly believe; I'm not sure I've ever had to find that out.
But, yes. That is certainly one of my fears. Oh, yes.