[sleep & weather]

So, apparently I _do_ get warning when I'm going to have an exceptionally restless night. My brain keeps giving 'aaah! Sleep is scary!' signals to me while I'm trying to fall asleep, and it feels a little difficult to get enough air. But, after taking melatonin - if I don't give up and get out of bed - I will eventually be able to sleep at all (although restlessly). And, while restless sleep _sucks_, it does at least prevent me from getting into a state where I can't sleep at all, no matter what I do. So. Now I know to interpret that reaction as me needing melatonin and to then ignore the signals until I actually sleep. And now I have stronger reason to attempt to get another appointment about sleep apnea (but after I stop with the kidney related stuff!).

So, yeah. Tired. Kept waking up all night. Glad that there was going to bed relatively early last night for me.

Weather today = sunny (typo = sinny). Yay, sun! Not so much yay with the 7F degree weather, though, even if it _is_ normal January weather. I want a bit more snow on the ground, for the reflectiveness factor.

[sleep & weather]

So, apparently I _do_ get warning when I'm going to have an exceptionally restless night. My brain keeps giving 'aaah! Sleep is scary!' signals to me while I'm trying to fall asleep, and it feels a little difficult to get enough air. But, after taking melatonin - if I don't give up and get out of bed - I will eventually be able to sleep at all (although restlessly). And, while restless sleep _sucks_, it does at least prevent me from getting into a state where I can't sleep at all, no matter what I do. So. Now I know to interpret that reaction as me needing melatonin and to then ignore the signals until I actually sleep. And now I have stronger reason to attempt to get another appointment about sleep apnea (but after I stop with the kidney related stuff!).

So, yeah. Tired. Kept waking up all night. Glad that there was going to bed relatively early last night for me.

Weather today = sunny (typo = sinny). Yay, sun! Not so much yay with the 7F degree weather, though, even if it _is_ normal January weather. I want a bit more snow on the ground, for the reflectiveness factor.

[random.affection]

You'd think eventually I would stop being mildly surprised that getting reasonable (for me - probably rather high for most people) amounts of casual physical affection from any of the people I care about makes me more casually physically affectionate with everyone I care about (unless I have good reason not to be). And that being very tired (insufficient sleep, rather than just wintertime tired) will make me act on that more.

Made for an especially affectionate end-of-week and weekend, that did. Complete with spontaneous kissings of people with whom I don't have a previously established relationshp in which kissing is expected (but with whom I have fairly good reason to believe that doing so is fine).

I do strongly prefer myself being less overly cautious about casual physical affection. I really, truly do! Both in terms of not being shy about being cuddly with people who don't necessarily tend to initiate cuddling, and in terms of not being shy about acting on spontaneous desires to kiss people.

Wee! Lots of casual affection! (and wee with the not-so-casual affection as well, but that's not my topic of the moment. ;)

[random.affection]

You'd think eventually I would stop being mildly surprised that getting reasonable (for me - probably rather high for most people) amounts of casual physical affection from any of the people I care about makes me more casually physically affectionate with everyone I care about (unless I have good reason not to be). And that being very tired (insufficient sleep, rather than just wintertime tired) will make me act on that more.

Made for an especially affectionate end-of-week and weekend, that did. Complete with spontaneous kissings of people with whom I don't have a previously established relationshp in which kissing is expected (but with whom I have fairly good reason to believe that doing so is fine).

I do strongly prefer myself being less overly cautious about casual physical affection. I really, truly do! Both in terms of not being shy about being cuddly with people who don't necessarily tend to initiate cuddling, and in terms of not being shy about acting on spontaneous desires to kiss people.

Wee! Lots of casual affection! (and wee with the not-so-casual affection as well, but that's not my topic of the moment. ;)