Jan. 10th, 2005

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Awake at 6am this morning, after going to bed after midnight. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?!

No idea why, but since Falconridge last year (~August?), when I get a sinus infection, it usually (but not always) results in random unexplained dizziness. This does not please me, and I can't figure out why it's happening when it didn't used to! Don't _like_ having to grab for stationary objects for no obvious reason. I mind it less when it's relating to standing up too quickly, because that I can adjust for.

Last week's stomach bug appears to have exacerbated my problems with acid reflux. This _does_ _not_ _please_ _me_! Sad esophagus.

But hey! No major pain sources! Just lots of annoying things. More than usual, but still!
wispfox: (Default)
Awake at 6am this morning, after going to bed after midnight. Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?!

No idea why, but since Falconridge last year (~August?), when I get a sinus infection, it usually (but not always) results in random unexplained dizziness. This does not please me, and I can't figure out why it's happening when it didn't used to! Don't _like_ having to grab for stationary objects for no obvious reason. I mind it less when it's relating to standing up too quickly, because that I can adjust for.

Last week's stomach bug appears to have exacerbated my problems with acid reflux. This _does_ _not_ _please_ _me_! Sad esophagus.

But hey! No major pain sources! Just lots of annoying things. More than usual, but still!
wispfox: (distracto-ferret!)
I love working at a place where people play Magic: the Gathering during lunch.

Of course, now I miss playing... I haven't had cards since '98, and haven't purchased them for even longer.

I will _not_ spend needless money obtaining cards. I will _not_! (and yes, I could borrow cards, but it's far more fun for me to create decks out of my own cards, for some reason)

(Also, Unhinged and Unglued amuse the _hell_ out of me)

The fact that the cards tend to be pretty does _not_ help, either.
wispfox: (distracto-ferret!)
I love working at a place where people play Magic: the Gathering during lunch.

Of course, now I miss playing... I haven't had cards since '98, and haven't purchased them for even longer.

I will _not_ spend needless money obtaining cards. I will _not_! (and yes, I could borrow cards, but it's far more fun for me to create decks out of my own cards, for some reason)

(Also, Unhinged and Unglued amuse the _hell_ out of me)

The fact that the cards tend to be pretty does _not_ help, either.
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There are health problems that, when I first learned that not everyone has them, I was completely unable to grasp the idea.

Like... I have headaches so often that I don't necessarily notice them unless they are _really_ bad. I mean, I've known people who say that they never get headaches unless they are sick. Only getting headaches when one is sick? That's _crazy_ talk! (I think I might get _fewer_ headaches now than I did growing up, actually) I think the headache thing is true of my entire immediate family (which, for those who don't know, is actually not as strange a statement as it might sound. I'm one of 6 kids).

I cannot grasp the idea of not having my brain chemistry get fucked up if I forget to eat. Or don't get enough sleep or breaks from what I'm working on.

All those people who keep working through meals and don't notice? Can't do it. Well, at least not if I actually want to be able to think. Ditto for staying up all night doing work. My brain refuses to do things which require thought for longer than a certain period of time, no matter what.


I do remember when insufficient light didn't affect me so strongly, but that was before I was responsible for myself. I think this is _why_ I started having the problem. I started having things I could worry about. It kicked in my senior year in high school, you see (also age 15, so it could have been puberty related). I _still_ remember being completely and utterly unable to do division, and being thoroughly freaked out by it.

Vision! I cannot even sorta remember not needing vision correction. I mean, I've had contacts (but I got lazy a few years ago and stopped wearing them), but that still requires regular maintenance. I've had glasses (or contacts) since I was 8-ish, I think. Seeing clearly without correction? I know people do it (lots of people!), but I can't grasp the idea.

I also can't really comprehend the idea of not having one's body giving gradually increasing 'Hey! I hate you!' signals if one is slouching. Or sitting still too long. I mean, I can certainly ignore them, especially if I'm concentrating really hard. But the idea of not having them at all doesn't compute. I probably didn't have them when I was a kid, but my memory of pre-high school is very poor. (my memory is, in general, fairly poor in certain ways. This is different)

*shakes head* No particular point here, as I'm sure that everyone has their own set of 'hey! This shouldn't have happened this early, statistically!' physical things. Still. Crazy to think about, I find.
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There are health problems that, when I first learned that not everyone has them, I was completely unable to grasp the idea.

Like... I have headaches so often that I don't necessarily notice them unless they are _really_ bad. I mean, I've known people who say that they never get headaches unless they are sick. Only getting headaches when one is sick? That's _crazy_ talk! (I think I might get _fewer_ headaches now than I did growing up, actually) I think the headache thing is true of my entire immediate family (which, for those who don't know, is actually not as strange a statement as it might sound. I'm one of 6 kids).

I cannot grasp the idea of not having my brain chemistry get fucked up if I forget to eat. Or don't get enough sleep or breaks from what I'm working on.

All those people who keep working through meals and don't notice? Can't do it. Well, at least not if I actually want to be able to think. Ditto for staying up all night doing work. My brain refuses to do things which require thought for longer than a certain period of time, no matter what.


I do remember when insufficient light didn't affect me so strongly, but that was before I was responsible for myself. I think this is _why_ I started having the problem. I started having things I could worry about. It kicked in my senior year in high school, you see (also age 15, so it could have been puberty related). I _still_ remember being completely and utterly unable to do division, and being thoroughly freaked out by it.

Vision! I cannot even sorta remember not needing vision correction. I mean, I've had contacts (but I got lazy a few years ago and stopped wearing them), but that still requires regular maintenance. I've had glasses (or contacts) since I was 8-ish, I think. Seeing clearly without correction? I know people do it (lots of people!), but I can't grasp the idea.

I also can't really comprehend the idea of not having one's body giving gradually increasing 'Hey! I hate you!' signals if one is slouching. Or sitting still too long. I mean, I can certainly ignore them, especially if I'm concentrating really hard. But the idea of not having them at all doesn't compute. I probably didn't have them when I was a kid, but my memory of pre-high school is very poor. (my memory is, in general, fairly poor in certain ways. This is different)

*shakes head* No particular point here, as I'm sure that everyone has their own set of 'hey! This shouldn't have happened this early, statistically!' physical things. Still. Crazy to think about, I find.
wispfox: (insane)
-[livejournal.com profile] australian_joe in two days. Even if it does completely feel not real yet. (Just wait until Weds!)
-IM conversation with [cue announcer voice] Amazing Topic Shifts of Doooooom! [/cue] (ok, perhaps that's most of my conversations. At least the good ones. Still!)
-Brief appearance of [livejournal.com profile] australian_joe on IM (I think it's been weeks since I've seen him on IM, so it's noteworthy!).
-My kitty. Now, intensely clingy!
-Receiving three copies of an invite to a massage party. Weee, massage party in less than a month!
-There was sun today. At least briefly. And the snow helps make things brighter!
-Random strangers who help me with the evils of the last snowstorm!
-ZIM!
-Last night's work group. Yay, energy work!
-recent cuddling. Much good.
-Psinging Friday (I find it funny I'm putting it as a given in my head even though it actually isn't. I suspect it'll be difficult to convince myself to stay home if I really do need to)
-"Grrr, say the fluffy balls. And then they attack."
-There are tools being created right now which ought to help with the most painful part of working in my department. Reduction in making-me-want-to-kill-people-every-June stress, yay! (more often than that, but that's the worst month for me, by far, due to added responsibilities relating to the evil)
-It's mid-January. And I continue to be mostly stable, emotionally. This is miraculous, as far as I'm concerned. (well, in as much as SAM-e is miraculous, I suppose!) My god, winters don't _have_ to suck quite so much, even if I _don't_ move south. A lot. (there's still the energy level lowness, but that's so much more tolerable)
wispfox: (insane)
-[livejournal.com profile] australian_joe in two days. Even if it does completely feel not real yet. (Just wait until Weds!)
-IM conversation with [cue announcer voice] Amazing Topic Shifts of Doooooom! [/cue] (ok, perhaps that's most of my conversations. At least the good ones. Still!)
-Brief appearance of [livejournal.com profile] australian_joe on IM (I think it's been weeks since I've seen him on IM, so it's noteworthy!).
-My kitty. Now, intensely clingy!
-Receiving three copies of an invite to a massage party. Weee, massage party in less than a month!
-There was sun today. At least briefly. And the snow helps make things brighter!
-Random strangers who help me with the evils of the last snowstorm!
-ZIM!
-Last night's work group. Yay, energy work!
-recent cuddling. Much good.
-Psinging Friday (I find it funny I'm putting it as a given in my head even though it actually isn't. I suspect it'll be difficult to convince myself to stay home if I really do need to)
-"Grrr, say the fluffy balls. And then they attack."
-There are tools being created right now which ought to help with the most painful part of working in my department. Reduction in making-me-want-to-kill-people-every-June stress, yay! (more often than that, but that's the worst month for me, by far, due to added responsibilities relating to the evil)
-It's mid-January. And I continue to be mostly stable, emotionally. This is miraculous, as far as I'm concerned. (well, in as much as SAM-e is miraculous, I suppose!) My god, winters don't _have_ to suck quite so much, even if I _don't_ move south. A lot. (there's still the energy level lowness, but that's so much more tolerable)

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