[sleep]

I would _really_ like to stop spending my nights in the grips of really strange dreams, because I seem to not sleep nearly as well that way. I do seem prone towards really strange dreams lately, though!

Tonight I try to determine if my sleep difficulties might have something to do with insufficient longer-term physical contact - I don't have any idea when the last time I had more than hug-type contact with anyone. No wonder I've been feeling out of sorts and disconnected and just plain strange!

[edit] I apparently was not clear. I'm not intending to try to combine cuddling and sleeping tonight; just attempting to get some cuddling in (and have already asked for such). I don't sleep (well, if at all) while cuddling, although cuddling can get me most of the way to being able to sleep.

[sleep]

I would _really_ like to stop spending my nights in the grips of really strange dreams, because I seem to not sleep nearly as well that way. I do seem prone towards really strange dreams lately, though!

Tonight I try to determine if my sleep difficulties might have something to do with insufficient longer-term physical contact - I don't have any idea when the last time I had more than hug-type contact with anyone. No wonder I've been feeling out of sorts and disconnected and just plain strange!

[edit] I apparently was not clear. I'm not intending to try to combine cuddling and sleeping tonight; just attempting to get some cuddling in (and have already asked for such). I don't sleep (well, if at all) while cuddling, although cuddling can get me most of the way to being able to sleep.

[random]

I have (almost) no memories! Waaaa! (apparently this is a known issue)

Just got asked for an update on my life from someone I've not really talked much to in... over a year. This ought to be entertaining! (and just how well _can_ I summarize the past year? *shakes head*)

[random]

I have (almost) no memories! Waaaa! (apparently this is a known issue)

Just got asked for an update on my life from someone I've not really talked much to in... over a year. This ought to be entertaining! (and just how well _can_ I summarize the past year? *shakes head*)

[comics] bits of funny

http://www.catharsiscomic.com/archive.php?strip=040115-132649.jpg
http://www.catharsiscomic.com/archive.php?strip=082703-203180.jpg

ladytabitha, this one made me think of you!

[comics] bits of funny

http://www.catharsiscomic.com/archive.php?strip=040115-132649.jpg
http://www.catharsiscomic.com/archive.php?strip=082703-203180.jpg

ladytabitha, this one made me think of you!

[random brain]

Uh...

Ok, the random factor in my brain is especially high today.

Having a conversation (of sorts) that has gone from accusing random co-workers of not being real to monkeys (in closets) to skeletal monkeys to fire-breathing cows. Some of which have guns. And I think they might all be in closets.

(I don't know if I ought to try blaming the small bit of chocolate at lunch, or the comic from which I posted links earlier. And I _think_ that fraterrisus is to blame for me reading that comic now.)

[random brain]

Uh...

Ok, the random factor in my brain is especially high today.

Having a conversation (of sorts) that has gone from accusing random co-workers of not being real to monkeys (in closets) to skeletal monkeys to fire-breathing cows. Some of which have guns. And I think they might all be in closets.

(I don't know if I ought to try blaming the small bit of chocolate at lunch, or the comic from which I posted links earlier. And I _think_ that fraterrisus is to blame for me reading that comic now.)

[grumpy]

I. Want. Sleep.

Technically, I want to be _able_ to sleep.

Cuddling good. Still not sleeping. (feeling a bit like I'm vibrating, though. Which is a bit odd)

Finished another book tonight (finished "Winter's Tale" last night, which was _much_ cheerier than the one I finished tonight. Guess which one I'm keeping and which one I'm not? :). Obsessive, I am.

Tomorrow night, Mentoring introduction meeting thingy. Thursday night, monthly massage. Friday, Seattle (and Saturday, and Sunday, and I unintentionally scheduled my flight home to be leaving at midnight-ish on Monday morning. Oops. I guess I see if I can sleep on planes or not!).

Hungry. Again. Annoying how much more often I want food when I'm not asleep.

Also annoying how much more strongly I miss australian_joe when I'm not sleeping, and how much more aware of my lack of a local partner I am. Not complaining about what I have, mind you! Just very aware of what I don't (yet! I'm very firmly attached to the word 'yet' in this matter!) have. Dammit.

Y'know, this week started out weird. The weird hasn't stopped yet. I wonder if I'm caught up in a cycling AWAKE! (tired) AWAKE! cycle, or something. I wonder if I should try meditating in order to perhaps get some actual restful sleep. Or stop being stubborn and try melatonin even though it's way way way too early in the season.

Meh. Meh is a very good word for my current mood. Meh!

[grumpy]

I. Want. Sleep.

Technically, I want to be _able_ to sleep.

Cuddling good. Still not sleeping. (feeling a bit like I'm vibrating, though. Which is a bit odd)

Finished another book tonight (finished "Winter's Tale" last night, which was _much_ cheerier than the one I finished tonight. Guess which one I'm keeping and which one I'm not? :). Obsessive, I am.

Tomorrow night, Mentoring introduction meeting thingy. Thursday night, monthly massage. Friday, Seattle (and Saturday, and Sunday, and I unintentionally scheduled my flight home to be leaving at midnight-ish on Monday morning. Oops. I guess I see if I can sleep on planes or not!).

Hungry. Again. Annoying how much more often I want food when I'm not asleep.

Also annoying how much more strongly I miss australian_joe when I'm not sleeping, and how much more aware of my lack of a local partner I am. Not complaining about what I have, mind you! Just very aware of what I don't (yet! I'm very firmly attached to the word 'yet' in this matter!) have. Dammit.

Y'know, this week started out weird. The weird hasn't stopped yet. I wonder if I'm caught up in a cycling AWAKE! (tired) AWAKE! cycle, or something. I wonder if I should try meditating in order to perhaps get some actual restful sleep. Or stop being stubborn and try melatonin even though it's way way way too early in the season.

Meh. Meh is a very good word for my current mood. Meh!