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Fucking _hell_, I'm terrible about waiting for things.

My hair is still purple. There should be pictures as proof tonight (they exist now, but I wasn't home after they were taken, so they are not on my computer yet). Purple! I keep noticing this fact, and therefore keep commenting on it. It amuses those around me. :)

I would _really_ like to actually be able to _sleep_ when I'm so tired it's painful.

For the first time _ever_, I was more tired after work group than I was beforehand. That was strange.

It really _is_ Monday today. Unlike on Friday, when I just thought it was.

I continue to have problems where I think it's June. Apparently I just don't like May much this year. That may have something to do with the fact that it's _raining_ again!

Stupid rain.

Eileen Mcgann's music is in my head today. Probably because that's what I was listening to in the car on the way to work.

I need gas. Gas prices are stupid. I can remember when it was under a dollar a gallon (yes, I'm aware, US gas prices are the cheapest _anywhere_. It's all about what I'm used to).

Why do people voluntarily put themselves into situations where they feel trapped? My first guess is because they aren't fully aware of what is going on until it has happened... I'm fairly sure that's the reasoning behind the times _I've_ done it, at least. It's all about awareness, I guess. And willingness to force one's way out of a trap of one's own making.

"Man did not weave the web of life, he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself." -Chief Seattle

I don't have work next Monday! Yay, random vacation days!

I wanna see fireflies. (lightning bugs. You know, I'm not sure which term I learned/used first!)

This computer is named firefly, but that doesn't count. My home computer is named phoenix. I wonder if I was ever _not_ fire obsessed?

In less intense lighting, my hair looks black. That's even stranger than it being purple, I think!

Work now. Yes.

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Fucking _hell_, I'm terrible about waiting for things.

My hair is still purple. There should be pictures as proof tonight (they exist now, but I wasn't home after they were taken, so they are not on my computer yet). Purple! I keep noticing this fact, and therefore keep commenting on it. It amuses those around me. :)

I would _really_ like to actually be able to _sleep_ when I'm so tired it's painful.

For the first time _ever_, I was more tired after work group than I was beforehand. That was strange.

It really _is_ Monday today. Unlike on Friday, when I just thought it was.

I continue to have problems where I think it's June. Apparently I just don't like May much this year. That may have something to do with the fact that it's _raining_ again!

Stupid rain.

Eileen Mcgann's music is in my head today. Probably because that's what I was listening to in the car on the way to work.

I need gas. Gas prices are stupid. I can remember when it was under a dollar a gallon (yes, I'm aware, US gas prices are the cheapest _anywhere_. It's all about what I'm used to).

Why do people voluntarily put themselves into situations where they feel trapped? My first guess is because they aren't fully aware of what is going on until it has happened... I'm fairly sure that's the reasoning behind the times _I've_ done it, at least. It's all about awareness, I guess. And willingness to force one's way out of a trap of one's own making.

"Man did not weave the web of life, he is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself." -Chief Seattle

I don't have work next Monday! Yay, random vacation days!

I wanna see fireflies. (lightning bugs. You know, I'm not sure which term I learned/used first!)

This computer is named firefly, but that doesn't count. My home computer is named phoenix. I wonder if I was ever _not_ fire obsessed?

In less intense lighting, my hair looks black. That's even stranger than it being purple, I think!

Work now. Yes.

PURPLE!

Hee!

First co-worker to see the hair of PURPLE! said:

"Holy crap!", and wandered into my cube briefly to play with it.

That was amusing.

(Purple. Purplepurplepurplepurplepurplepurple)

Why the hell did I take so long to do this again?

Oh, right, because it's a pain in the ass and many companies aren't in favor of such things.

PURPLE!

Hee!

First co-worker to see the hair of PURPLE! said:

"Holy crap!", and wandered into my cube briefly to play with it.

That was amusing.

(Purple. Purplepurplepurplepurplepurplepurple)

Why the hell did I take so long to do this again?

Oh, right, because it's a pain in the ass and many companies aren't in favor of such things.

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http://www.qwertyuiop.myby.co.uk/antcity.swf - I exploded a city!

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http://www.qwertyuiop.myby.co.uk/antcity.swf - I exploded a city!

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I look like an anime character, every time I look in a mirror. It's really quite odd!


I must remember to track down Dante's Purgatorio & Paradiso, because it'll be really... disconcerting to leave off reading at the end of Inferno. Seriously. Preferably with the same translator as the one who translated the version of Inferno that I'm reading, because he's got all sorts of fascinating notes after each Canto. *decisive nod*

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I look like an anime character, every time I look in a mirror. It's really quite odd!


I must remember to track down Dante's Purgatorio & Paradiso, because it'll be really... disconcerting to leave off reading at the end of Inferno. Seriously. Preferably with the same translator as the one who translated the version of Inferno that I'm reading, because he's got all sorts of fascinating notes after each Canto. *decisive nod*

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*chuckle*

Amusing comment in reply to my post about how early I was born, was "It is weird to think of you as having parents. You seem like one of those people that just sprang from a dewdrop!", commented by bluepapercup.

I'm largly amused because I've gotten similar reactions from people before; I suspect part of this is that I _don't_ often refer to my parents, or family, not being terribly close to most of them. Also amused because I've often been informed that I'm elfish in manner. Which explains the dewdrop. (Y'know, that'd have to be one _hell_ of a large dewdrop!)

I'd certainly have very _different_ things to rewire in my head if I had no parents, of that I am sure. *still amused*

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*chuckle*

Amusing comment in reply to my post about how early I was born, was "It is weird to think of you as having parents. You seem like one of those people that just sprang from a dewdrop!", commented by bluepapercup.

I'm largly amused because I've gotten similar reactions from people before; I suspect part of this is that I _don't_ often refer to my parents, or family, not being terribly close to most of them. Also amused because I've often been informed that I'm elfish in manner. Which explains the dewdrop. (Y'know, that'd have to be one _hell_ of a large dewdrop!)

I'd certainly have very _different_ things to rewire in my head if I had no parents, of that I am sure. *still amused*

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Hee! IRC conversation is causing me gigglefits:

[Me] A: Food good, yes. :)
[Me] Have food with me.
* B wonders if [my IRC name] is commanding people to have food with her or is making a statement.
[C] B: She's commanding people. She's a powerful goddess, dintja know?
[B] Yes, I knew that.
* B feels a strong desire to wander off and eat
[Me] B: I have food with me! No commanding. :)
* B resists the powerful urge to go to Westford to have food with [my given name]

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Hee! IRC conversation is causing me gigglefits:

[Me] A: Food good, yes. :)
[Me] Have food with me.
* B wonders if [my IRC name] is commanding people to have food with her or is making a statement.
[C] B: She's commanding people. She's a powerful goddess, dintja know?
[B] Yes, I knew that.
* B feels a strong desire to wander off and eat
[Me] B: I have food with me! No commanding. :)
* B resists the powerful urge to go to Westford to have food with [my given name]

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One of those 'yes, _exactly_' replies I get from time to time to posts of mine felt like something I should post. So, with permission, I am.

In reply to my life lessons write-up post, opalmirror said:

"For me, discovering all these things required I not be in a primary relationship, because a primary relationship implied a level of entwinement that made it impossible for me to sort out who I am, coupled with a level of stress about partner happiness that compromised my ability to find energy to work on understanding myself."

Uh, yeah. Most of those life lessons I posted? They were things I realized within the last couple years, mostly during the time I was very intentionally avoiding serious-type relationships. I truly don't know if I could have figured them out while in one, but I _do_ know it was _significantly_ easier to do without such an attachment to anyone. I needed that time, when the only person I was responsible was to myself (and my cat). As well, having that time made it much easier for me to know who I was outside of major interpersonal entanglements, and therefore figure out what I needed while _in_ them. (of course, the 'what I needed while in them' part was/is mostly theoretical. We shall see. ;)

Anyway. That comment felt like something I very much needed to post.

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One of those 'yes, _exactly_' replies I get from time to time to posts of mine felt like something I should post. So, with permission, I am.

In reply to my life lessons write-up post, opalmirror said:

"For me, discovering all these things required I not be in a primary relationship, because a primary relationship implied a level of entwinement that made it impossible for me to sort out who I am, coupled with a level of stress about partner happiness that compromised my ability to find energy to work on understanding myself."

Uh, yeah. Most of those life lessons I posted? They were things I realized within the last couple years, mostly during the time I was very intentionally avoiding serious-type relationships. I truly don't know if I could have figured them out while in one, but I _do_ know it was _significantly_ easier to do without such an attachment to anyone. I needed that time, when the only person I was responsible was to myself (and my cat). As well, having that time made it much easier for me to know who I was outside of major interpersonal entanglements, and therefore figure out what I needed while _in_ them. (of course, the 'what I needed while in them' part was/is mostly theoretical. We shall see. ;)

Anyway. That comment felt like something I very much needed to post.

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I _so_ wish I had clothing to change into. I mean, I know it's kinda cold out. But pouring rain! And lightning! And thunder! But spending the rest of the day in air conditioning with wet clothing _not_ good. Nope, nope, nope.

*glee*

Purple _and_ lightning!

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I _so_ wish I had clothing to change into. I mean, I know it's kinda cold out. But pouring rain! And lightning! And thunder! But spending the rest of the day in air conditioning with wet clothing _not_ good. Nope, nope, nope.

*glee*

Purple _and_ lightning!

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Song in my head, from WUMB:

( St Mary's of Regret, Susan Werner )

Reminds me of:

For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: 'It might have been!'
-John Greenleaf Whittier


'Tis true, though. That's how I try to live my life. The times I did not act upon things I wanted for more than a brief moment are the times that I wish I had acted differently. Hell, including brief moments of want, when they only involve myself. It's good to stop and look at the stars, or lie in the grass, or listen to the birds. *smiles* I have good impulses, for the most part. Strange sometimes, but good.

I cannot easily think of things that I intentionally did (fair number of things I did _not_ do intentionally, though... it's part of why I try to make so much of what I do _intentional_) that I wished I had not done.

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Song in my head, from WUMB:

( St Mary's of Regret, Susan Werner )

Reminds me of:

For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: 'It might have been!'
-John Greenleaf Whittier


'Tis true, though. That's how I try to live my life. The times I did not act upon things I wanted for more than a brief moment are the times that I wish I had acted differently. Hell, including brief moments of want, when they only involve myself. It's good to stop and look at the stars, or lie in the grass, or listen to the birds. *smiles* I have good impulses, for the most part. Strange sometimes, but good.

I cannot easily think of things that I intentionally did (fair number of things I did _not_ do intentionally, though... it's part of why I try to make so much of what I do _intentional_) that I wished I had not done.

Choices, intentionality

Echoy brain. Apparently I wasn't done in the last post.

Doing things intentionally...

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Choices, intentionality

Echoy brain. Apparently I wasn't done in the last post.

Doing things intentionally...

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Pictures!

As requested, pictures of me w/purple hair. It's more obvious in some than in others, but some were too amusing to not share.

( cut for kindness )

Pictures!

As requested, pictures of me w/purple hair. It's more obvious in some than in others, but some were too amusing to not share.

( cut for kindness )