weekend

Good weekend. Yes. Tired, though, today. Something about getting probably 6.5-7 hours of sleep before work this morning, combined with a very intensive weekend. Good indication of _that_ would be the fact that last night and the night before, my dreams were in a role-playing format. So I need to find time (probably tonight) to let my mind process, because my mind is full. And that fullness was leaking over a little into my drive home last night. I knew I was _much_ more tired than I originally thought when my sense of reality was hazy enough that I wondered if I needed to be rolling dice to change lanes. Thankfully, I was mostly home by then, and _noticed_ the thought as being very, very strange. Yikes!

I had forgotten how strongly I can become characters of mine. Was more than a bit startling last night near the end of the game when, possibly because I was _tired_, I found myself fighting tears (because my character was _terribly_ distraught, having just freed the spirit of her love, and let her go). Also, having to do the ending of a quest when I'm utterly exhausted does _not_ do good things for my ability to realize what I need to be doing. I'm just glad other players were more alert and able to point useful bits of information out to me, because I don't think we'd have survived otherwise. There's something distinctly odd about singing in the middle of a major battle.

Gaming good, yes. Gaming for an entire weekend is something that I think I need to be more aware of my amount of sleep beforehand, next time. On the plus side, it's certainly far enough out of winter that the weekend was good, and not just plain overwhelming. :)

weekend

Good weekend. Yes. Tired, though, today. Something about getting probably 6.5-7 hours of sleep before work this morning, combined with a very intensive weekend. Good indication of _that_ would be the fact that last night and the night before, my dreams were in a role-playing format. So I need to find time (probably tonight) to let my mind process, because my mind is full. And that fullness was leaking over a little into my drive home last night. I knew I was _much_ more tired than I originally thought when my sense of reality was hazy enough that I wondered if I needed to be rolling dice to change lanes. Thankfully, I was mostly home by then, and _noticed_ the thought as being very, very strange. Yikes!

I had forgotten how strongly I can become characters of mine. Was more than a bit startling last night near the end of the game when, possibly because I was _tired_, I found myself fighting tears (because my character was _terribly_ distraught, having just freed the spirit of her love, and let her go). Also, having to do the ending of a quest when I'm utterly exhausted does _not_ do good things for my ability to realize what I need to be doing. I'm just glad other players were more alert and able to point useful bits of information out to me, because I don't think we'd have survived otherwise. There's something distinctly odd about singing in the middle of a major battle.

Gaming good, yes. Gaming for an entire weekend is something that I think I need to be more aware of my amount of sleep beforehand, next time. On the plus side, it's certainly far enough out of winter that the weekend was good, and not just plain overwhelming. :)

Some links

Cthulthu + Teddy Bears, in bridgetester's journal.

Lyrics for "Perfect", in echospiralheart's journal.

Apparently, C.S. Lewis warned Tolkien, back in the day, that Frodo and Sam might be interpreted as having a, er, "special" relationship., link found in mollyringwraith's journal. The link is to a write-up of what that conversation could have been like.

Some links

Cthulthu + Teddy Bears, in bridgetester's journal.

Lyrics for "Perfect", in echospiralheart's journal.

Apparently, C.S. Lewis warned Tolkien, back in the day, that Frodo and Sam might be interpreted as having a, er, "special" relationship., link found in mollyringwraith's journal. The link is to a write-up of what that conversation could have been like.

Long. Retrospective.

( Others have written of change, and growth. And it struck me that, 2 years ago, I was in the middle of what I now think of as a time when I was simply not sane. )

Long. Retrospective.

( Others have written of change, and growth. And it struck me that, 2 years ago, I was in the middle of what I now think of as a time when I was simply not sane. )

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Now I know why my mind was being so insistent about my need to process on the weekend. My life apparently has entirely too much in flux right now, and very little opportunity for things to be in a known, reasonably stable state (both in my job and socially).

I believe this because I'm in a much more stable mental state today than I have been in a while, and it feels like it's related to having had _something_ resolve, even if it was in my character's life and not my own. I don't quite know what to do with this knowledge, but it feels important.


For at least the past three or four days, every time I've thought to check what the music playing in my head was, it has been Magic, the song I have known for much of my life, and which I sang in this phone post. Another thing which feels important, but I don't know why.

My brain isn't doing a very good job with putting puzzle pieces together today...

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Now I know why my mind was being so insistent about my need to process on the weekend. My life apparently has entirely too much in flux right now, and very little opportunity for things to be in a known, reasonably stable state (both in my job and socially).

I believe this because I'm in a much more stable mental state today than I have been in a while, and it feels like it's related to having had _something_ resolve, even if it was in my character's life and not my own. I don't quite know what to do with this knowledge, but it feels important.


For at least the past three or four days, every time I've thought to check what the music playing in my head was, it has been Magic, the song I have known for much of my life, and which I sang in this phone post. Another thing which feels important, but I don't know why.

My brain isn't doing a very good job with putting puzzle pieces together today...