[brains.wanting]
Nov. 17th, 2006 12:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxBecause today, I am unrealistic.
What do I want for $DECEMBER_HOLIDAY?
Also, it's always interesting that I can tell how poorly I slept by how hungry I am in the morning. Sheesh. (starving? Slept for crap)
Because exhaustion is making me unrealistic:
1) to not have tendonitis (christ. I could actually work fulltime again. And not have being back in school be so difficult. And worry less about my ability to change countries. And drive places again).
2) to not have such stupid sleep issues so often and easily, and for them not to be degenerative.
3) to not be seasonally affected.
4) to know if work will be able to let me not work for a couple of months so I can go somewhere and not be bored and not overuse my wrists and let them heal.
5) to not have my next bunch of years be so goddamn uncertain/up in the air (see the next few points)
6) to know if/when I'll manage to get a permanent visa for Australia
7) to know if/when/where I'll get into grad school (masters and/or PhD, depending on point 6)
8) to know that I'll actually be able to find a job after I finally get my psych PhD (see previous 2 points, and likely the next one)
9) to fucking decide between my fascination with autism spectrum/prosopagnosia/synesthesia (and figure out which section of Psych best fits) and computer-human interaction (depending on wrists, likely), for psych grad stuff
*unsettled and tired and grumpy*
What do I want for $DECEMBER_HOLIDAY?
Also, it's always interesting that I can tell how poorly I slept by how hungry I am in the morning. Sheesh. (starving? Slept for crap)
Because exhaustion is making me unrealistic:
1) to not have tendonitis (christ. I could actually work fulltime again. And not have being back in school be so difficult. And worry less about my ability to change countries. And drive places again).
2) to not have such stupid sleep issues so often and easily, and for them not to be degenerative.
3) to not be seasonally affected.
4) to know if work will be able to let me not work for a couple of months so I can go somewhere and not be bored and not overuse my wrists and let them heal.
5) to not have my next bunch of years be so goddamn uncertain/up in the air (see the next few points)
6) to know if/when I'll manage to get a permanent visa for Australia
7) to know if/when/where I'll get into grad school (masters and/or PhD, depending on point 6)
8) to know that I'll actually be able to find a job after I finally get my psych PhD (see previous 2 points, and likely the next one)
9) to fucking decide between my fascination with autism spectrum/prosopagnosia/synesthesia (and figure out which section of Psych best fits) and computer-human interaction (depending on wrists, likely), for psych grad stuff
*unsettled and tired and grumpy*
