thoughts of the moment

[wispfox]

This may be long; depends on how many of my thoughts want to get heard before I give up on my complete lack of stamina and go to bed at quarter of nine on a Saturday night.

Damn good thing I had no plans post-matrix tonight. I couldn't have *done* anything.


I hate having no stamina. OTOH, it was kinda useful to have it pointed out to me that this isn't *that* unusual, considering the drugs I was on all week, until yesterday.

What? Common sense? :) Just because I spent most of my time on Perciset (sp?) in a state of semi-exhaustion and dizziness means *nothing*! ;)

So... last night, did in fact go to the party previously mentioned. Still not sure if that was a terribly good idea, although I did enjoy the short time I was there. However, at around 11, I decided that I was having entirely too much trouble not falling asleep, and started trying to head home. Didn't actually *leave* until around 11:45, as I was having random (but cool) chat with water_childe about random hospital-y stuff.

Also met another random exhausted person (network) while I was there, who was pretty neat. And not being expected to be terribly conscious/coherent was nice. (Why is everyone I meet in Boston on LJ? What's *with* that?!)

Yeah. Fun party, but being tired does *not* a party make. Sadly enough. And didn't really have enough energy to interact with very many people. And didn't get to dance to nifty laser lights! Sadness.

Mmm. Today. Met ladytabitha's dad. I think he's an agent of chaos. He was also very amusing. Was good. Didn't spend all that much time with them, though, aside from lunch. Marche Movenpick is *neat*. I like. No worries about people needing to decide what they want to eat previous to getting there... :)

Went to see the Matrix with (I think her LJ username is) caillean, her fiancee, a Boston Pagan Alliance friend from Lowell, his wife, and volta. (heh. That was the only username I didn't have to lookup thus far. You people have entirely too complicated usernames!)

Was good. Matrix didn't leave me much time to *breathe*, but ya know. Being w/o stamina can't have helped that. (Dude. I'm starting to have trouble reading again. Must finish this soon!)

Was very good too see/chat with volta again. Has been a while. Missed him. Was kinda amusing, from my end at least, the fact that I couldn't figure out if I should/could give him a hug goodbye. *shrug* Not a huge deal, but it amused me that I was thinking about it sufficiently for it to become a dilemma.

I *have* pretty much gotten back into the habit lately of hugging everyone I know reasonably well goodbye. Hey! I hadn't noticed that consciously until *just* now! NICE! Yay for being sufficiently comfortable with my sense of people again. 'S been at least since... 1998(?) that that had not been true. Yeah. Recovery is good...

Random thoughts before my brain *completely* refuses to process.

I've apparently never had someone say, in response to me thanking them for something, "you would have done the same", before Tuesday. Completely and totally true, it was - and is likely to be, as I tend to avoid asking things of people if I do not think that I would do the same for them (also, if I'm not sure enough of our friendship yet, but...). But. Wow. Totally true. And might just manage to make me *stop* hating so much to ask people for help with stuff. Maybe. If I think of it.

I was amused to notice exactly how out of it I've been this week. On my grocery list, when I apparently meant to write 'mouthwash' (which I needed), I wrote 'toothpaste'. Which I don't need. At all. Not only did I write the wrong (but related) thing, which is not so unusual, but I did not *notice* and fix it. A bit more unusual. Heh. Brain functioning, much? I really hope I didn't schedule myself anything tomorrow. Don't think I did, but...

'K. Can't process input anymore. Must stop. Probably had more to say, but it can wait.