brains, curious, visualization
Dec. 4th, 2008 04:05 pmWhen you close your eyes, do you see something?
I was asked this at Thanksgiving, after a long conversation involving face blindness, the fact that I have no visual memory and only vague glimmerings - after a _lot_ of work - of visual imagination. My initial reaction was utter and complete confusion, to the point of asking if the person only asked to get that reaction from me. It was, in fact, a serious question, although the reaction was itself appreciated.
I see nothing at all. I didn't really consider that other people might see something.
Indeed, this makes me wonder if this is why I am so sound-oriented when navigating a dark room; at least some of the other people in the room apparently visualize the room they are in when their eyes are closed. And were, indeed, perplexed when I said that I _listen_ to get around places that I cannot see, in addition to feeling my way. In fact, making noise so other people know where I am actively interferes with my ability to not run into things, because I am no longer able to _listen_. (I can hear when I am near objects because the sound quality changes, especially walls and doors and such. Less so smaller objects, since they are not at my ear height, I suspect, and are less fully encompassing and thus causing echos that I can hear)
I was asked this at Thanksgiving, after a long conversation involving face blindness, the fact that I have no visual memory and only vague glimmerings - after a _lot_ of work - of visual imagination. My initial reaction was utter and complete confusion, to the point of asking if the person only asked to get that reaction from me. It was, in fact, a serious question, although the reaction was itself appreciated.
I see nothing at all. I didn't really consider that other people might see something.
Indeed, this makes me wonder if this is why I am so sound-oriented when navigating a dark room; at least some of the other people in the room apparently visualize the room they are in when their eyes are closed. And were, indeed, perplexed when I said that I _listen_ to get around places that I cannot see, in addition to feeling my way. In fact, making noise so other people know where I am actively interferes with my ability to not run into things, because I am no longer able to _listen_. (I can hear when I am near objects because the sound quality changes, especially walls and doors and such. Less so smaller objects, since they are not at my ear height, I suspect, and are less fully encompassing and thus causing echos that I can hear)
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Date: 2008-12-04 09:43 pm (UTC)The image is mostly dark, brown or black, and at first there is the persistence of the bright patches from when my eyes were open for a period of time. These distort more and more as they fade. After a long enough time, there begin to be bursts of colors, usually in waves or lines and normally limited to small regions.
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Date: 2008-12-04 10:33 pm (UTC)When I read the cut part of your post, I was like, "Oh! You mean the place where I am?" No, I don't visualize anything that's physically around me. When I try to imagine what's around me, say for the purposes of navigating in the dark, I perceive them as spaces. Objects, I mean, I "see" in my mind as spaces of different... I don't know, temperature or attractiveness or something.
A metaphorical answer
Date: 2008-12-04 11:17 pm (UTC)The window is what comes into my eyes and registers. So the window shows only red/black splotches when I close my eyes.
The canvas is blank, and requires an effort of will to make things appear. This is where I deliberately imagine things, their appearance, etc. So I could decide whether to make a drawing in real life by drawing it on the canvas first to see what it would look like, and spare myself the effort if it would look ugly.
The cable TV is what is running in the background without my conscious control. My hindbrain or whatever it is that builds my dreams never really shuts up; I just don't pay any attention to it when there's anything better going on, or I'm making something more interesting myself. The cable TV only wins when the window and the canvas are less interesting than the random daydream images taking up CPU time in the back of my head.
When I am trying to get to sleep, I generally am failing when I look at the canvas, and get insomnia. I fall asleep when I watch the cable TV.
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Date: 2008-12-04 11:23 pm (UTC)I bet you'd like this guy's (http://www.slate.com/id/2154696/) echolocation class.
Re: A metaphorical answer
Date: 2008-12-05 03:19 am (UTC)For me, the main differences are:
a) my canvas doesn't seem to function all that well. I can visualize slight changes to something I'm already looking at, and I can summon vague recollections of things I've seen in the past, but picturing something new is really tough for me.
b) my cable TV, as far as I can tell, only shows brief flickers of visual images from time to time, although its soundtrack is running pretty much constantly.
c) visual images don't keep me awake nights; it's the inner monologue that does that. No idea how to shut it off, either.
Re: A metaphorical answer
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Date: 2008-12-05 03:43 am (UTC)Generally, 'no'. I put it in quotes because there is some noise there. But I have visual noise when my eyes are open, too. (We've discussed this.)
Sometimes, though, I get the impression of a strong light from just outside my vision in some direction. It's bright enough I feel like my irises should be constricting tightly, but not painfully. It only seems to happen in pretty dark rooms with my eyes closed.
re listening for spaces: I do this a little bit, but you're better at it. There's also a thing called "seeing with your face", which has to do with feeling air currents near walls and doors.
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Date: 2008-12-05 04:15 am (UTC)Oh, if that's what you're asking after, no, not at all. I have almost no ability to visualize. With enough concentration I can sorta do it, but it's utterly unreliable -- I couldn't use that visualization to navigate a room.
But! I have this other, non-visual, but 3D-spacial model in my head, that I can refer to. Don't ask, I can't explain. So I'm pretty good at finding things in the dark (or reaching into a bag, or what not.) The closest I can come to explaining (I just realized) is that I spent most of my life learning and practicing how to reach out and find and manipulate objects without looking at them and without visualizing them, but just remembering where they are in space: I started piano at 6, and I no more visualize a (darkened) room to find things in it than I visualize a piano keyboard to play it (without looking at my hands).
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Date: 2008-12-05 04:59 am (UTC)I heard long ago that about 60% of people learn by seeing, 30% learn by hearing, and 10% learn by doing, as their primary, most effective method. (Nearly everyone uses every method to various extent, of course.) The "learn by doing" mode is often described as kinesthesia, or spatial perception, although that word implies motion, while I think it ought to apply equally well to motionless spatial perception, or spatial *awareness*, as you prefer.
It shows up with my students, in that some get it when I draw a picture, while others get it when I talk it through, and still others don't get it at all until I talk *them* through the *motions*--literally--I think they grasp it when they move their hands in writing or tilt their head or grasp the object or what have you.
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Date: 2008-12-05 06:10 am (UTC)I'm in grad school in a branch of psychology, and I confess I rather don't approve of that paradigm, at least as it's escaped into the wild. It conflates learning modality with mental model with expressive modality -- it doesn't cope well with people like me who depend on visuals to learn, have no visualization ability, and are freakishly verbal in expression.
It also conflates conceptual processes with the concrete sensorium in a way that precisely reminds me of 15th century astrology mapping the magical properties of gemstones to the planets that "rule" them. I've written elsewhere about how I think, and I'm not a concretist, and it doesn't map to the sensorium; that makes it clear to at least me that the mapping to (merely some! of) the varieties of sensory stimuli is kinda arbitrary.
And, yes, it lumps a seven-minimum-sense organism's sensorium into three categories, wherein "kinesthetic" becomes the "other" category into which proprioception, tactility, gross and fine motor execution, empiricism, constructivism, etc are all ignomiously and indiscriminatly dumped. And then it fails to discriminate within a task, which category is really being invoked: if Jenny learns better by writing things down, is that because she needs to see them, or because she needs the kinesthetic experience of writing to remember?
Also, it seems to me to be a likely candidate of the Fundamental Attribution Error. I'm all about personality theory -- it's how I got into the field -- but this whole mapping of learning style preference to individuals sets two different sets of warning bells off in my head. For one thing, I think learning tasks are likely bound to a medium of study by culture, including microcultures. I note that as a musician who can both read and learn by ear -- which is the product of being trained in two traditions. For another, it simply seems likely that modal preferences in learning vary not just by person, but within a person by topic domain. It's not just that Timmy learns better when he can see it written down, he learns math better when he can see it written down, but still needs to read his Language Arts assignment aloud to parse it accurately, meanwhile Tina needs her math verbally presented, and to be allowed to see her LA assignments.
And, for another thing, it seems to confuse comprehension with memory. It seems to me in different areas, I have sometimes conflicting preferences. I can't memorize music from a score (I have to do it by ear), but I can't really understand it without one.
None of which is to suggest it's not great that you're conscientious about diversifying the sensory modalities through which the learning opportunities are provided. That is great. It's just not an adequate paradigm for thinking about how people of all ages really think, learn, express, or experience.
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Date: 2008-12-05 02:19 pm (UTC)When I was a kid I used to see swirls of color/light-dark. I also used to enjoy sitting in the sun with my eyes closed looking at the red.
These days I would say that I still notice the light/dark. I don't tend to notice color unless I'm in the sun; when I'm inside the color is a sort of really dark sepia (not the best description).
I don't think I stare at my eyelids for fun anymore, so it's a little hard to judge.
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Date: 2008-12-05 02:19 pm (UTC)Also an excellent point that people learn different subjects in different ways. Actually some of my students come to me because they have a "math mode" which is dysfunctional, and I try to get them to reclassify the math I'm teaching to them as something in another category, so they can use one of their more functional learning attitudes on it.
You are quite right that I lump all the other ways of thinking and learning and knowing as "other" and vaguely put them in with kinesthetic modes because I don't understand any of them or have mental models of them--I'm not even familiar with some of the terms you were using. I just try to remain aware that there *are* other ways and hope to trigger them as needed.
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Date: 2008-12-05 03:56 pm (UTC)visualizing as objects/spaces: huh. Not quite sure I follow, but neat. :)
Re: A metaphorical answer
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Date: 2008-12-05 04:16 pm (UTC)Huh.
Apparently I have trained ears. :)
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Date: 2008-12-05 04:38 pm (UTC)Edit: Well, some of them are. If I keep my eyes closed for a while I'll see some circles and lines (they sort of resemble what you might see in a microscope, but with a very different color scheme) that are almost certainly not afterimages.
Re: A metaphorical answer
Date: 2008-12-05 11:55 pm (UTC)Re: A metaphorical answer
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Date: 2008-12-06 12:30 am (UTC)But other times I have seen shapes, and sometimes there have been moving small bits, which my eyes can follow as they move away in one direction. The dark colors were the background, and the items in yellows or oranges.
And I, too, used to like to see the insides of my lids as they were red in the sun, usually while lying in an open field on top of a discarded mattress, feeling the gentle breeze.
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Date: 2008-12-06 02:48 am (UTC)I can't visualize spaces around me. If I'm in the dark in a place I know, I remember it, but it's all about tactile cues and body memory with a small verbal component. Meaning, in a place that's very familiar to me in the dark (like the upstairs of my house, where I walk with no lights semi-regularly to not wake the sleeping spouse), it translates roughly to "feel the wall, this bump means switch to feeling the other wall, left, three steps forward and there's the corner of the bed to not run into". In less familiar places (even my living room, because normally I turn on the lights to navigate it, and so am not trained to be tactile about it) I just run into things.
One of my main dance partners occasionally dances with his eyes closed by doing the echo-location thing you describe (mostly when there aren't other people on the floor), so to me that is not at all an unfamiliar concept. I can't do it myself, though.
If I'm very, very familiar with something I can "visualize" it, but even then it's highly unreliable. I would never try to get the details right based on it.
Re: closing eyes
Date: 2008-12-10 03:01 pm (UTC)People talk about visualization and seeing stuff with you close your eyes but I never see anything other than floaters or other physical things. Tried visualization exercises and nothing happens.