Note to self
Dec. 14th, 2007 03:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxSelf? You know how you can benefit from quiet and walks and such when stressed in not-winter?
Well, you seriously need to be more aware of the fact that in winter, once you start having your habitual fighting depression thing so that you remain mostly functional, you need to ever take a break and _stop_ fighting it, or you drain yourself to the point of not being able to benefit from the people interaction you so need.
It's _not failing_ to stop fighting your depression and just be with it for a while, and if depressing music/movies help, _use them_. It _is_ why you own "Dancer in the Dark", remember? This is _the main reason_ you need time to yourself in winter.
This post brought to you by severe depression + no people last night forcing me to stop trying to fight it, and instead lie on the couch in the dark with horribly depressing music (because it was not jarring, as it matched my mood) playing. It was oddly calming, which I've learned before. And keep forgetting.
Automatic coping mechanisms work less well if never allowed a recharge period. And if I'm sufficiently low on self-awareness, I will fail to think to turn off the default "people are around, I must spend energy and fight the depression to not worry them horribly" around people who _should_ be people I can turn that off around. Which means that no one is low-effort, and which means that things others can do to help will work less well.
Well, you seriously need to be more aware of the fact that in winter, once you start having your habitual fighting depression thing so that you remain mostly functional, you need to ever take a break and _stop_ fighting it, or you drain yourself to the point of not being able to benefit from the people interaction you so need.
It's _not failing_ to stop fighting your depression and just be with it for a while, and if depressing music/movies help, _use them_. It _is_ why you own "Dancer in the Dark", remember? This is _the main reason_ you need time to yourself in winter.
This post brought to you by severe depression + no people last night forcing me to stop trying to fight it, and instead lie on the couch in the dark with horribly depressing music (because it was not jarring, as it matched my mood) playing. It was oddly calming, which I've learned before. And keep forgetting.
Automatic coping mechanisms work less well if never allowed a recharge period. And if I'm sufficiently low on self-awareness, I will fail to think to turn off the default "people are around, I must spend energy and fight the depression to not worry them horribly" around people who _should_ be people I can turn that off around. Which means that no one is low-effort, and which means that things others can do to help will work less well.
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Date: 2007-12-14 09:17 pm (UTC)Is good advice.