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[wispfox]

Hey, look, I slept! I think I'm not (constantly) tired for the first time in at least a month. Sleep is good. Not that I have any idea why I finally started sleeping again, mind. I rather like having a functional brain. Can this continue, please?

On being clinically depressed, via the_xtina. Mmmmyeah.

I largely manage to avoid this level of depression every winter (now - I used to not manage to avoid it), via non-perscription meds and light therapy, but only barely (as evidenced by the fact that I specifically ask people who live with me to poke me about light therapy if they haven't noticed me using it and I seem worse; if that goes on too long, I won't. I won't have the energy, or want to, or think it'll help, or care. Something in there, possibly other things, too). Especially in Jan/Feb.

I'm kinda terrified, what with how much everything is affecting me now, that I'm not going to manage to avoid that this winter. Much of how I manage to (barely) avoid it is through many coping mechanisms developed over my years of having this. They've been broken or nearly broken for almost 6 months now, due largely to too many other things taking up cope. And I _really_ don't like the fact that all this is reminding me _just_ how much cope daily life requires for me.

Unfortunately, the one perscription med I've tried for depression (Prosac) seemed to work initially, but then I started getting... numb. Very numb. And I didn't really notice that this was happening, or a problem (very much a problem!) until after I went off it in the spring. I'm just glad I had a built-in timeout, due to it being seasonal. Fortunately, though, and in a strange way, the wrist stuff has finally managed to get me to take various pills _regularly_, so I won't risk accidentally forgetting any of my depression stuff.

Still nothing definite, digestively. The evil intense nighttime pain with fat stopped. Unfortunately stopped, since it means that what with my confusing symptoms, I never got diagnosed definitely with gallbladder problems. So it'll likely come back again. I appear to have something else wrong with my digestive tract, though. Investigation continues. But at least I can eat more normal food!

Wrists like me better when I sleep. They ache a bit now (soon time for a lunch break, I can tell!), but they did not immediately upon waking, as they have for almost a month due to poor sleeping.

Ok, hungry. Break now. La!

Comments

[psongster.livejournal.com]

Oh yay! I know you feel this improvement is unexplained and therefore probably temporary. But I'm glad you got the break anyway. And I'll hope it proves to be more than temporary :-).

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Sleep, at least, tends to remain sane if I get out of a bad pattern, and if I pay really good attention to continuing to have a reasonable sleep schedule.

So that, at least, is hopeful. Wary about the spontaneous lack of intense pain, though.

[psongster.livejournal.com]

Yes, but sometimes things really do just go away.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I do know that. And I'll be less suspicious the more time passes.

For now though? Suspicious. :)

[metahacker.livejournal.com]

Re: Prosac/numb: this can be a dosage issue. Generally Prosac gets prescribed at too strong a strength (in my limited experience) and, for me at least, led to feeling like I was wrapped in emotional cellophane, able to see the world but not really a part of it. It did keep me from bottoming out in depression; I can talk your ear off about that some other time if you so desire. But there're lots of options now, increasing the chance that something might help. I would recommend seeing a p-sychiatrist if you have any inclination toward that route...

Glad you're feeling a bit better in any case.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Prosac & too much: Well, in addition to that, my mom has noted that she believes that people with neurologic issues need less to handle depression than others do. So I might have been _REALLY_ overdosed.

I contemplate a psychiatrist, in any case. Although actually, it was my GP who perscribed the Prosac in a testing it out kind of way, the first time.

[3smallishmagi.livejournal.com]

It's good to see a sunny post from you. Hope things keep getting better. Take care of your hands.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*smile* I'm trying really hard to manage to both take care of my wrists _and_ still be able to do stuff. Today seems ok so far!

And yes. Sunny post. I appear to have a near-constant smirk today, for some reason. Wanna be outside, though, as it's nice and sunny out!

[zanawake.livejournal.com]

Best wishes. Sleep is good!
BTW, that's a cute icon (you, not Mittens and Snowdrop). :-)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Sleep is _VERY_ good, yes. I am pleased. :)

(another cute icon! ;)

cute icons

[zanawake.livejournal.com]

I think that icon implies "I caught a shiny little beetle and am carefully trying to prevent it from escaping from my hands while I admire it for a moment before freeing it outdoors." It's a visual metaphor for getting an idea. Oh, and also a cute photo too. :)

[jedi-diplomat.livejournal.com]

Hey, I'm sure you know this, but they have the UV lights that are like regular lightbulbs. My boss found them and put them in every light in his house because St. Pete (Russia not Florida) is freaking dark in the winter. If you'd like, I can get the link from him and send it over.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

I do, in fact, know this. I tend to have broad spectrum lights in as many of the light fixtures in my house as is possible. :)

But thank you!