[social, family, massage]
Aug. 7th, 2005 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
The same niece who fell asleep on my lap at 6 months - much to my utter bafflement - now refers to me as 'Aunt Mama', at 2 years. I don't know what this child sees in me, but at least she's consistent! She'll make changing coasts interesting; it's not like I visit often, but it'll be less often when on a different coast...
Calibrating massage therapists is good, even if it does require me to pay more of a certain type of attention than I like to do.
I am not liking that I am significantly lower energy than I expect to be in summer. Problem is, there's all sorts of possible reasons why, but no definites.
1) lack of roommate. I don't _like_ having no roommate, and the only time it hasn't been a problem was when I was so amazingly inwardly focused that I wasn't aware of it, really. It's... too quiet without one. And it's too difficult to be quietly social when social requires scheduling.
This only reinforces my suspicion that I really should see about getting people (like
starandrea) to join me for at least part of my year long US wander. And makes me wonder how I'm going to find roommates once I'm in SF, who I actively want to room with and with whom Ash can live.
2) Not yet adjusted to new place. On the plus side, Ash seems adjusted, and has stopped his waking me at 6am thing. However, him taking ~1.5 months to adjust makes me nervous about my intention of bringing him with me cross country for a year. OTOH, leaving him behind isn't kind, either... *sigh* Two+ years to figure that out, though, so...
3) Hormone confusion from the Mirena instead of the pill. I still have bits of random cramping, so it's certainly possible. I really need to remember to schedule my twice yearly STD checkup, which will include the yearly pap and the 'how is the Mirena doing?', this time.
4) No couch makes cuddling with visiting people a lot more difficult! This probably makes social interaction less useful for me... and almost certainly gets me out of the habit of cuddling with people, since I have to actively figure out how to do so, comfortably. It's summer! I should be _more_ casually physically affectionate, not less!
5) I'm doing a _lot_ of regular, weekly or semi-weekly activities, now. I wonder how that affects things? (hell, I seem to have one such thing which is sneaking by because it's getting scheduled every week, and not actually stated as weekly) And I'm looking to add at least one more in, for 'helpful for future school application' reasons. Where _did_ all my free time go?! And I have people that I've not seen in far too long, too... Ah, well.
6) Want new field of work. Need to save up enough to do so. Impatient! Bored...
Dunno. Going to go back to trying to fall asleep, now.
Calibrating massage therapists is good, even if it does require me to pay more of a certain type of attention than I like to do.
I am not liking that I am significantly lower energy than I expect to be in summer. Problem is, there's all sorts of possible reasons why, but no definites.
1) lack of roommate. I don't _like_ having no roommate, and the only time it hasn't been a problem was when I was so amazingly inwardly focused that I wasn't aware of it, really. It's... too quiet without one. And it's too difficult to be quietly social when social requires scheduling.
This only reinforces my suspicion that I really should see about getting people (like
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2) Not yet adjusted to new place. On the plus side, Ash seems adjusted, and has stopped his waking me at 6am thing. However, him taking ~1.5 months to adjust makes me nervous about my intention of bringing him with me cross country for a year. OTOH, leaving him behind isn't kind, either... *sigh* Two+ years to figure that out, though, so...
3) Hormone confusion from the Mirena instead of the pill. I still have bits of random cramping, so it's certainly possible. I really need to remember to schedule my twice yearly STD checkup, which will include the yearly pap and the 'how is the Mirena doing?', this time.
4) No couch makes cuddling with visiting people a lot more difficult! This probably makes social interaction less useful for me... and almost certainly gets me out of the habit of cuddling with people, since I have to actively figure out how to do so, comfortably. It's summer! I should be _more_ casually physically affectionate, not less!
5) I'm doing a _lot_ of regular, weekly or semi-weekly activities, now. I wonder how that affects things? (hell, I seem to have one such thing which is sneaking by because it's getting scheduled every week, and not actually stated as weekly) And I'm looking to add at least one more in, for 'helpful for future school application' reasons. Where _did_ all my free time go?! And I have people that I've not seen in far too long, too... Ah, well.
6) Want new field of work. Need to save up enough to do so. Impatient! Bored...
Dunno. Going to go back to trying to fall asleep, now.
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Date: 2005-08-08 03:04 am (UTC)PS. Come visit again some time?
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Date: 2005-08-08 01:21 pm (UTC)I intend to! But after it stops being stupidly hot/humid. Then again, I'm busy enough between now and Sept that perhaps I ought to try to figure out timing of next visit *now*... I'll email!
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Date: 2005-08-08 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-08 01:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-08 04:02 pm (UTC)why/how much do you need to save up? when i went to grad school, i essentially blew most of my savings (along with a generous grant from my parents) to buy my car, and let grants/loans fund tuition, room & board, etc. it all worked out in the end. of course, now i owe a lot in loans, so essentially you pay it on one end or the other (but i think schools are less likely to give you grants until you max out what loans you can take out). then again, *no way* was i making enough to pay my pre-grad school expenses *and* save money for grad school; our financial situations are probably different (?).
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Date: 2005-08-08 05:27 pm (UTC)Why:
because I'm intending to wander the US for a year, _then_ end up in SF and find a place to live and pay for at least part of my schooling.
How much: not sure. I figure that ~2 years of saving should be good. But first, I need to finish paying off my school loans. And save for my trip to .au in Feb.
I've got a reasonably well paying job right now, even including rent costs, which helps.
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Date: 2005-08-08 05:30 pm (UTC)Yep. I suspect the stress-inducing factors are going to make me able to stay in therapy for only so long. But there's also neuropsych! And Cognitive/perceptual psych! And social psych! They all sound neat, although almost certainly need PhD. Then again, depending on my opinion of the Masters, I may transfer into PhD at that school.
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Date: 2005-08-08 09:20 am (UTC)(6) Let me tell you about my new field of work sometime... :)
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Date: 2005-08-08 01:40 pm (UTC)But Ash doesn't like other cats if they want to play with him. He hides all the time. It's why I got him.
However, roommate in ~1 month.
Ash doesn't take too well to change... some kitties are like that.
I thought most were, and was surprised when he adjusted nearly instantly when I first got him. I suspect that if I were around more, he'd be fine, and while wandering the US, I'd be around lots more. But he'd have to be enclosed, for his and my safety...
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Date: 2005-08-09 08:14 am (UTC)all depends on finances, i suspect. we shall see.
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Date: 2005-08-09 02:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-08-09 06:19 pm (UTC)so, hmm! p'raps i'd be better off looking at ways to get back without a car, then. that's my main concern with all of this, really.
also, re: license - i have a friend who's going to help me try to get my license before the learner's permit expires in september! so we shall see how that goes. hopefully the road test will be less stressful this time around, and hopefully the permit is still valid despite being horribly mangled and near-unreadable...*nervous*