[time, travel]

[wispfox]

I'm noting myself having a _hell_ of a time being involved in my life now, because I'm seeing an end in sight for the first of the two requirements for my wandering around the US for a year. I can see my school loans gone in less than a year (and car loans gone even sooner), and then all I need to do is save up a bunch for a year or two. This means that I'm starting to investigate what I would need to be doing to prepare, already, even though it's probably 3-ish years out.

My mind wanders to traveling _often_, of late, and I don't think it's just because of the fact that I'm fully aware of the fact that I no longer have much patience for working in high tech. You know things are strange when I simply don't want to do _anything_ which might be even remotely complicated with my computer when I get home. Why yes, work _did_ apparently manage to burn me out to at least some extent this summer. Which recently caused one of my co-workers to comment that he'd been worried about me during the insanity of this past summer. Not going to volunteer for _that_ specific thing again, even if I _am_ good at it!

Might be partly because of the fact that I actually have future goals that I _know_ I want (http://www.ciis.edu), rather than think I want (and I'm working on getting the volunteer work I'll need when I apply there). Might also be because I'm able to see a 'when' for my (at this point) 15 year goal of visiting Australia, and don't want to be patient until the end of next year. Both because I want to go to Australia already, and because I miss the hell out of australian_joe. (Apparently I start having stronger than normal missing of long distance people after about three months)

I've been way less social lately, partly because of work and because the evil half of the year is starting. Probably partly because I do have at least some amount of regular small-group social activity (work group! And when my Friday evenings stop being taken up, Psinging). But there seems also to be a certain amount of 'but I know I'm _leaving_ relatively soon' in there, too. But that 'soon' is about three years out, and withdrawing from the people I know here, and the people I don't yet know very well but who are neat and nifty, is just plain _stupid_. And will hardly make it any easier to be patient! (On the slightly weird side, it does mean that other people are more often the ones to comment on how long it's been since I've seen them. Indeed, I do appear to have a lower than normal threshold for missing people)

So I'm starting to work on being back involved in my life here and _now_, rather than all the things I want to be doing later. It's strange having things I want to do, so far in the future. I've always tended to have things that would be kinda neat to do, rather than things I want to do and have plans for getting there. Now, I just need to balance the 'things I want to do later' with keeping myself socially healthy _now_, while not slowing my progress toward saving up and paying back my school loans.

I'm thinking that I'm going to have to start reducing my random travel to visit neat people, especially in the US. If I'm going to be spending an entire year wandering around the US, I can certainly wait to meet non-local US people a bit longer, and travel isn't precisely cheap - even when one has somewhere to stay. Especially since there's at least one travel thing I am likely to do a year which I _don't_ want to drop, if I can avoid it (APC).

'k. Back to working for a bit before leaving for Diesel. (See? I'm being more social! And in the social context which tends to take the most energy, too! Diesel isn't likely to ever be regular for me, since it's just so damn _loud_)

[edit: ok, did anyone _else_ read my subject line as talking about time travel, rather than time and travel separately? I just did]

Comments

[bridgetester.livejournal.com]

Hmm...

Do things for today. Or else it will be gone.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Yes. Thus my noting what I was doing, and striving to stop doing it. :)

[3smallishmagi.livejournal.com]

I understand the home pc thing. I have long term burnout problems and having had a (relatively) soft fluffy job helps a lot. I feel I can do my job with one hand tied behind my back. Now I've been doing that for a while I'm realising its a pace I should aim to keep. Somehow you end up doing more than when you were trying harder.

Can you afford to trade a month of snowy midwinter for a month of blistering heat? Long holidays help with burnout too.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Can you afford to trade a month of snowy midwinter for a month of blistering heat? Long holidays help with burnout too.

I don't _have_ a month of vacation. Combine this with the fact that I want to go to Australia end of next year, and... no, as far as vacation time, I can't. Not this year.

I probably could force it before end of next year if I hadn't managed to mostly recover from burnout, however. Some sort of unpaid leave thing...

[australian-joe.livejournal.com]

I read the subject as time travel initially, yes. 8->