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wispfox(why is it that I always want to write 'braaaaaains' for this type of topic, even when I don't want to eat anyone's brain?)
I'm intrigued to notice that, after the stress of an unpleasant conversation wears off, I determine that I _do_ manage to retain small bits of what was said. Still only small bits, but apparently some things do manage to get through (and I suspect those are the only time my replies actually make any sense to whomever I'm talking to. Although, I suppose that it may not be obvious from the outside that I'm not really processing well...). Of course, I have no idea if it happens to be the bits and pieces which I would have labeled as of the highest import, but I suppose it's better than nothing.
And I do also wonder if the reason I have always had trouble getting content out of highly emotionally charged interaction is not only about the fact that I form fewer memories in such a situation, but because to get _at_ memories, I tend to have to relive (to some degree, at least) experiences. And if a conversation was difficult, I don't _want_ to. I don't want to have to live through emotional barrage in the hopes of finding more of the hopefully existing and recordered content. Especially when it's not certain that it _was_ recorded.
Now, I go read and nap for a bit!
I'm intrigued to notice that, after the stress of an unpleasant conversation wears off, I determine that I _do_ manage to retain small bits of what was said. Still only small bits, but apparently some things do manage to get through (and I suspect those are the only time my replies actually make any sense to whomever I'm talking to. Although, I suppose that it may not be obvious from the outside that I'm not really processing well...). Of course, I have no idea if it happens to be the bits and pieces which I would have labeled as of the highest import, but I suppose it's better than nothing.
And I do also wonder if the reason I have always had trouble getting content out of highly emotionally charged interaction is not only about the fact that I form fewer memories in such a situation, but because to get _at_ memories, I tend to have to relive (to some degree, at least) experiences. And if a conversation was difficult, I don't _want_ to. I don't want to have to live through emotional barrage in the hopes of finding more of the hopefully existing and recordered content. Especially when it's not certain that it _was_ recorded.
Now, I go read and nap for a bit!
