[brains, relationships] Balance
Aug. 2nd, 2004 05:00 pmIt's really very nice to have a relationship with a reasonable level of balance in the expression of emotions, and the expression of desire for connection and/or touch. (probably other things, too)
I did not realize exactly how much I needed it, nor how much I'd adjusted to never thinking it'd happen, until it happened. It's easier to let my impulses free when they are apparently mutual (or at least not going to weird anyone out). And it's easier to find words for and/or convince myself to say things when I'm not always the one who is saying them.
It's such an... _odd_ experience actually being able to _relax_ in a strongly emotionally intimate (and therefore highly vulnerable-making) relationship. I don't think I really realized I'd never done it before.
I did not realize exactly how much I needed it, nor how much I'd adjusted to never thinking it'd happen, until it happened. It's easier to let my impulses free when they are apparently mutual (or at least not going to weird anyone out). And it's easier to find words for and/or convince myself to say things when I'm not always the one who is saying them.
It's such an... _odd_ experience actually being able to _relax_ in a strongly emotionally intimate (and therefore highly vulnerable-making) relationship. I don't think I really realized I'd never done it before.
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Date: 2004-08-02 09:43 pm (UTC)it's tough having been in a relationship like you describe, but then
have it turn into something that became personally damaging
afterward i seriously doubted being able to get to that space again
any time in the near future or perhaps ever
but the universe went and proved me to be horribly mistaken
so now i just hope that i can hold on to this happiness
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Date: 2004-08-03 03:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-04 08:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-05 04:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-05 05:38 pm (UTC)#8^D~