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[wispfox]

Along the lines of the previous post...

I wonder how much of my earlier (~2 years ago or earlier) lack of thinking to shield against other people in order to keep a better hold on myself was because too much of me was made up of other people, so shielding against them was too frightening. If one doesn't know one's self very well, only having one's self to deal with can be scary.

Interesting thought, true or not.

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[danodea.livejournal.com]

At one point, knowing how others needs/wants/emotions affected myself, I deliberately allowed several to do so at once, as a way to provide counter-balance so that I wouldn't fall completely inside and one persons control.

I don't consider that a valid long term strategy, but when one is first becoming aware of these tendencies in one's self, and trying to gain awareness of which emotions are one's own and which are not, and struggling to find a valid coping mechanism, one tries things.

For me, learning to hold my own center and not be overly swayed by what I perceived from others was a significant project.