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Jun. 17th, 2006 06:39 pmTendonitis is bad enough.
Not being able to read, cut my food, be on the computer at all, grasp or push anything for a month, if I wanted to not keep making myself worse? Bad enough.
The boredom from the above? Bad enough.
Having to now be very annoyed because I accidentally pushed myself too hard in strength work while not being able to tell when it got to tendons, too? So I was out of flare for a week, but have been back in for two? Bad enough.
Having to fight - and still fighting - to get on the short-term disability that work has, so I don't have no income for a month, and half for another? Insult on top of injury, especially considering how often people want things to be written. Or want me to go visit my doctor - who is a 40 minute drive each way, when gripping is part of the problem - when my doctor knows far less about what's going on than the PT who is a 5 minute drive away. They are currently claiming that there is not proof than I needed to be out of work for more than a week, and that it's a worker's comp claim (it's not - it was my own stupidity outside of work hours that pushed me over the edge into tendonitis. But at this point I'm kinda wishing it had been, so I could be done with this!). This is probably because it's difficult for me to get to my doctor, and I have no idea how often I ought to be visiting, anyway. It's not the doctor who is being helpful, it's PT. (and![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
australian_joe, and my own developing awareness of what is too much, and chiro, and massage, and my patient/helpful/pushy roommate reminding me to not make myself worse by letting her do what she can that I should not, and... _not_ the goddamn MD who is the one that work and Short-term disability all want to talk to)
Worse yet? To need to send a form to my doctor - because I can't drive there to give it in person - in order to prove that I really am out of work for a good reason, and am not just slacking (this is something relating to being able to continue getting medical/dental/etc benefits while not working full-time). And when I get the form back? They seem to think that I ought to have been able to be working part time for a month, 6 visits to PT, and then be fine again. Also, they thought some paltry amount of ibuprofen 3xdaily would be sufficient. How the _hell_ did the doctor get that impression, when I went in to that office after having tried to go back to work the first time, and I got a note saying to not go back to work again until PT said I was ready?!
Why do I need to talk to a doctor who obviously knows very little about tendonitis when the PT is the one who knows what's going on? Why can't the PT be the one talking to HR and short term disability?
Beginning to think I need to try to track down a doctor who is tendonitis-aware. And _not_ someone whose first suggestion is surgery. And who is closer to home.
Also wish I could actually get an appointment with _my_ doctor about this, rather than just other doctors at the office. But she's not got time until July. Perhaps I should make an appointment for July. Can't hurt.
Sure, the pain isn't awful, unless I'm doing _way_ more than I should. This could either be because, hey, maybe I have high pain tolerance. Or, possibly, because it's about _NOT_ making myself worse.
Fuckers. I am _so_ tired of this.
I want to be able to work full-time. But I also want to not totally disable myself. And to be able to do anything with my goddamn hands again.
But first, I need to get my wrists back out of flare. Again. Which is so immesurably frustrating!
No wonder I have no bloody stamina.
I'm just glad I'd started saving up for my intended traveling/going back to school _before_ this, because it means I have a fair amount of savings to fall back on if I have to. Which I likely will, starting this pay period.
Not being able to read, cut my food, be on the computer at all, grasp or push anything for a month, if I wanted to not keep making myself worse? Bad enough.
The boredom from the above? Bad enough.
Having to now be very annoyed because I accidentally pushed myself too hard in strength work while not being able to tell when it got to tendons, too? So I was out of flare for a week, but have been back in for two? Bad enough.
Having to fight - and still fighting - to get on the short-term disability that work has, so I don't have no income for a month, and half for another? Insult on top of injury, especially considering how often people want things to be written. Or want me to go visit my doctor - who is a 40 minute drive each way, when gripping is part of the problem - when my doctor knows far less about what's going on than the PT who is a 5 minute drive away. They are currently claiming that there is not proof than I needed to be out of work for more than a week, and that it's a worker's comp claim (it's not - it was my own stupidity outside of work hours that pushed me over the edge into tendonitis. But at this point I'm kinda wishing it had been, so I could be done with this!). This is probably because it's difficult for me to get to my doctor, and I have no idea how often I ought to be visiting, anyway. It's not the doctor who is being helpful, it's PT. (and
australian_joe, and my own developing awareness of what is too much, and chiro, and massage, and my patient/helpful/pushy roommate reminding me to not make myself worse by letting her do what she can that I should not, and... _not_ the goddamn MD who is the one that work and Short-term disability all want to talk to)Worse yet? To need to send a form to my doctor - because I can't drive there to give it in person - in order to prove that I really am out of work for a good reason, and am not just slacking (this is something relating to being able to continue getting medical/dental/etc benefits while not working full-time). And when I get the form back? They seem to think that I ought to have been able to be working part time for a month, 6 visits to PT, and then be fine again. Also, they thought some paltry amount of ibuprofen 3xdaily would be sufficient. How the _hell_ did the doctor get that impression, when I went in to that office after having tried to go back to work the first time, and I got a note saying to not go back to work again until PT said I was ready?!
Why do I need to talk to a doctor who obviously knows very little about tendonitis when the PT is the one who knows what's going on? Why can't the PT be the one talking to HR and short term disability?
Beginning to think I need to try to track down a doctor who is tendonitis-aware. And _not_ someone whose first suggestion is surgery. And who is closer to home.
Also wish I could actually get an appointment with _my_ doctor about this, rather than just other doctors at the office. But she's not got time until July. Perhaps I should make an appointment for July. Can't hurt.
Sure, the pain isn't awful, unless I'm doing _way_ more than I should. This could either be because, hey, maybe I have high pain tolerance. Or, possibly, because it's about _NOT_ making myself worse.
Fuckers. I am _so_ tired of this.
I want to be able to work full-time. But I also want to not totally disable myself. And to be able to do anything with my goddamn hands again.
But first, I need to get my wrists back out of flare. Again. Which is so immesurably frustrating!
No wonder I have no bloody stamina.
I'm just glad I'd started saving up for my intended traveling/going back to school _before_ this, because it means I have a fair amount of savings to fall back on if I have to. Which I likely will, starting this pay period.
