[today] beach! And odd shopping experience

I'm not sure if being awake at 7:30am on a Saturday is _good_, but it does at least beat being unable to get up in the morning. As long as I do my best to rest, I think I've got whatever the hell it was beat.

There is a fairly quiet beach ~15 minutes from my place. This makes me happy. The larger of the two sections - the one with lifeguards - costs, as I'm not a Willmington resident. The smaller of the two - which I saw on the way out - seems to be free. Yes, I wore sunscreen. I am not aware of any burns, and I didn't stay out for more than 1.5 hours. Swimming was odd, since the deepest that is permitted isn't over my head, and I can't see without my glasses, but it was still good. And sun! And book!

Going grocery shopping in summer when I am both hungry and thirst results in... lots of fruit. And veggies, too. And more hummus, since I finished mine (as well as some chick peas, as I intend to try my hand at making hummus). Also, IBC cherry soda. Mostly because I could, and rarely drink soda.

Grocery shopping is _NOT_ where I expect people to try to pick me up. I will admit, I was still wearing my bikini top from swimming, but _still_! On the plus side, I really am much better at small talk, even if I don't like it very much. And, had said person stopped with a compliment, it'd have been fine. Ah, well. Entertainment at the grocery store!

Not terribly hungry, which is amusing, since I was starving when I left the beach, and I just made myself a salad. But, since I know I tend to not be hungry enough when warm and when I just went swimming, I eat my salad anyway.

Cheerful, but tired. It's a reasonable state to be in. Now if I could just find goggles that went _over_ my glasses, I'd be more than just slightly physically tired, too! Mmm. Swimming. And sun! (and no burning)

[today] beach! And odd shopping experience

I'm not sure if being awake at 7:30am on a Saturday is _good_, but it does at least beat being unable to get up in the morning. As long as I do my best to rest, I think I've got whatever the hell it was beat.

There is a fairly quiet beach ~15 minutes from my place. This makes me happy. The larger of the two sections - the one with lifeguards - costs, as I'm not a Willmington resident. The smaller of the two - which I saw on the way out - seems to be free. Yes, I wore sunscreen. I am not aware of any burns, and I didn't stay out for more than 1.5 hours. Swimming was odd, since the deepest that is permitted isn't over my head, and I can't see without my glasses, but it was still good. And sun! And book!

Going grocery shopping in summer when I am both hungry and thirst results in... lots of fruit. And veggies, too. And more hummus, since I finished mine (as well as some chick peas, as I intend to try my hand at making hummus). Also, IBC cherry soda. Mostly because I could, and rarely drink soda.

Grocery shopping is _NOT_ where I expect people to try to pick me up. I will admit, I was still wearing my bikini top from swimming, but _still_! On the plus side, I really am much better at small talk, even if I don't like it very much. And, had said person stopped with a compliment, it'd have been fine. Ah, well. Entertainment at the grocery store!

Not terribly hungry, which is amusing, since I was starving when I left the beach, and I just made myself a salad. But, since I know I tend to not be hungry enough when warm and when I just went swimming, I eat my salad anyway.

Cheerful, but tired. It's a reasonable state to be in. Now if I could just find goggles that went _over_ my glasses, I'd be more than just slightly physically tired, too! Mmm. Swimming. And sun! (and no burning)

[brains.self-awareness] possibility for change

Something I am reminded of due to conversations I'm having...

At a very deep level, I believe that as long as any individual person lives, there is always possibility for change in that person and their life, however vanishingly small. I _have_ to believe that, or I lose a large part of what makes me who I am. Indeed, I lose a large part of how I became the person I am today.

For me, it's the difference between having any particular reason to believe that any specific person will change, and believing that there is possibility for change, as long as there is life.

And, not believing that takes away far too much of the joy, the hope, and the promise in life. Indeed, if I did not believe that, my next career path _could not_ be psychology (therapy, specifically). I have to believe in change. I note that I do not specify that the change is necessarily positive, although I tend toward being sufficiently optimistic that that is what I tend to think of when I say it. Change _at all_ is what I mean. Change and growth and learning and hope. I _need_ these things to remain sane. I do not want to live in a world that does not have them.

[brains.self-awareness] possibility for change

Something I am reminded of due to conversations I'm having...

At a very deep level, I believe that as long as any individual person lives, there is always possibility for change in that person and their life, however vanishingly small. I _have_ to believe that, or I lose a large part of what makes me who I am. Indeed, I lose a large part of how I became the person I am today.

For me, it's the difference between having any particular reason to believe that any specific person will change, and believing that there is possibility for change, as long as there is life.

And, not believing that takes away far too much of the joy, the hope, and the promise in life. Indeed, if I did not believe that, my next career path _could not_ be psychology (therapy, specifically). I have to believe in change. I note that I do not specify that the change is necessarily positive, although I tend toward being sufficiently optimistic that that is what I tend to think of when I say it. Change _at all_ is what I mean. Change and growth and learning and hope. I _need_ these things to remain sane. I do not want to live in a world that does not have them.

[beach]

Do I, or do I not want to go back to the beach for an hour? Need to feed Ash at 7, and call w/australian_joe (why the hell do I never just shorten that to "Joe"? It's not as if it's not part of the LJ name, and not as if anyone wouldn't know who I'm talking about. Weird brain...) at 8. And it's 5:20.

But I'd have to put clothing back on!

(why am I asking y'all this? I'll have decided - probably by taking too long to decide - before anyone replies, it being a weekend and all!)

[beach]

Do I, or do I not want to go back to the beach for an hour? Need to feed Ash at 7, and call w/australian_joe (why the hell do I never just shorten that to "Joe"? It's not as if it's not part of the LJ name, and not as if anyone wouldn't know who I'm talking about. Weird brain...) at 8. And it's 5:20.

But I'd have to put clothing back on!

(why am I asking y'all this? I'll have decided - probably by taking too long to decide - before anyone replies, it being a weekend and all!)