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Meh.

I'm still startlingly drained for this time of year. And I don't _like_ it. Wish things would just resolve already, so I could be my more normal upbeat self! Stupid unresolved feeling of something missing...

Hey, at least it's not wintertime. :)

Was very neat seeing people I've not seen in a while, even though I really didn't get much chance to talk to anyone specific. Stayed up way too late talking to Jessie-with-no-LJ, and stayed up late Sat night watching a movie. Damn, I'm tired!

I'm also very pleased because I think the fact that I was restricted by space meant that I did, sucessfully, manage to collect people who all seemed to get along well for my party yesterday. *pleased* There were some people who could not make it and were invited, some who were people I wanted to invite but did not because I knew they could not be there (huh. I wonder if I should have invited anyway?), but is probably good because there really wasn't as much available space due to a wet back porch. Still, all were missed.

Glad I have tonight, tomorrow, and Weds free. Ought to give me a chance to catch up on sleep, and perhaps continue to recharge.

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Meh.

I'm still startlingly drained for this time of year. And I don't _like_ it. Wish things would just resolve already, so I could be my more normal upbeat self! Stupid unresolved feeling of something missing...

Hey, at least it's not wintertime. :)

Was very neat seeing people I've not seen in a while, even though I really didn't get much chance to talk to anyone specific. Stayed up way too late talking to Jessie-with-no-LJ, and stayed up late Sat night watching a movie. Damn, I'm tired!

I'm also very pleased because I think the fact that I was restricted by space meant that I did, sucessfully, manage to collect people who all seemed to get along well for my party yesterday. *pleased* There were some people who could not make it and were invited, some who were people I wanted to invite but did not because I knew they could not be there (huh. I wonder if I should have invited anyway?), but is probably good because there really wasn't as much available space due to a wet back porch. Still, all were missed.

Glad I have tonight, tomorrow, and Weds free. Ought to give me a chance to catch up on sleep, and perhaps continue to recharge.

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I would like my brain to stop trying to convince me it's June. Caused more than a bit of confusion yesterday! ("See you in a couple weeks!" "You _do_ know it's over a month, and not a couple weeks. Right?" "Um. Right. My Palm knows, and that's all that matters!" "Yes, because your Palm controls your life!" -paraphrased, but: me, starandrea, me, cos)

It's _not_ June! It's May! Stupid brain...

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I would like my brain to stop trying to convince me it's June. Caused more than a bit of confusion yesterday! ("See you in a couple weeks!" "You _do_ know it's over a month, and not a couple weeks. Right?" "Um. Right. My Palm knows, and that's all that matters!" "Yes, because your Palm controls your life!" -paraphrased, but: me, starandrea, me, cos)

It's _not_ June! It's May! Stupid brain...

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So... there was lightning Saturday night. And pretty decent downpour. But I couldn't _feel_ it. I begin to wonder if it's less about the fact that there are few lightning storms (true) and more about the fact that I'm in the middle of a city, and the ambient light and noise drowns it out...

Must experiment next lightning storm. Go _away_ from Andover center for a while.

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So... there was lightning Saturday night. And pretty decent downpour. But I couldn't _feel_ it. I begin to wonder if it's less about the fact that there are few lightning storms (true) and more about the fact that I'm in the middle of a city, and the ambient light and noise drowns it out...

Must experiment next lightning storm. Go _away_ from Andover center for a while.

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I would like to stop being exhausted, vibratory, vent-needy (is there a better word for this?), and impatient now.

Yes. *nods*

Sleep would probably help. And tonight I run much less risk of wanting to stay up late talking to people.

*amused* Was asked if I slept better after excercise (biking!) Saturday. I said I didn't know, which then reminded the person asking that watching a movie had kept the both of us up _way_ too late Saturday night.

I physically hurt less today. I think I hurt the most Sat night, actually, _not_ Sunday like I expected.

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I would like to stop being exhausted, vibratory, vent-needy (is there a better word for this?), and impatient now.

Yes. *nods*

Sleep would probably help. And tonight I run much less risk of wanting to stay up late talking to people.

*amused* Was asked if I slept better after excercise (biking!) Saturday. I said I didn't know, which then reminded the person asking that watching a movie had kept the both of us up _way_ too late Saturday night.

I physically hurt less today. I think I hurt the most Sat night, actually, _not_ Sunday like I expected.

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Some words, a song or two, and then I go play with a harp until it's dark enough for me to sleep.

'"What is courage?", it's chorus asked - and the song answered, "It is to give when hope is gone, when there is no chance that men may call you a hero, when you have tried and failed and rise to try again." It then asked the same of friendship, answering that "the friend who stands beside you when you are right and all others despise you for it - and corrects you when you are wrong and all others praise you for it."' -The Eagle and the Nightingales, Mercedes Lackey

(It's funny. My authors I turn to when I'm most in need of balance are Mercedes Lackey and Richard Bach, depending on what I'm most needing)


( Sunny Side, 42nd Street )

And, for completeness' sake, another song that's been jumping around in my head:

"Sing, sing a song,
sing out loud, sing out strong.

Who cares if it's not good enough
for anyone else to hear? Just sing, sing a song,
make it simple to last the whole night long.

Who cares if it's not good enough
for anyone else to hear? Just sing, sing a song!"

I have _no_ idea where I picked that one up, but it has a Sesame Street feel to it. And it feels too short...


Now to tune, and play with, a harp. *wry smile* You know I'm feeling especially emotional when every part of myself is _ordering_ me to find some way to make music.

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Some words, a song or two, and then I go play with a harp until it's dark enough for me to sleep.

'"What is courage?", it's chorus asked - and the song answered, "It is to give when hope is gone, when there is no chance that men may call you a hero, when you have tried and failed and rise to try again." It then asked the same of friendship, answering that "the friend who stands beside you when you are right and all others despise you for it - and corrects you when you are wrong and all others praise you for it."' -The Eagle and the Nightingales, Mercedes Lackey

(It's funny. My authors I turn to when I'm most in need of balance are Mercedes Lackey and Richard Bach, depending on what I'm most needing)


( Sunny Side, 42nd Street )

And, for completeness' sake, another song that's been jumping around in my head:

"Sing, sing a song,
sing out loud, sing out strong.

Who cares if it's not good enough
for anyone else to hear? Just sing, sing a song,
make it simple to last the whole night long.

Who cares if it's not good enough
for anyone else to hear? Just sing, sing a song!"

I have _no_ idea where I picked that one up, but it has a Sesame Street feel to it. And it feels too short...


Now to tune, and play with, a harp. *wry smile* You know I'm feeling especially emotional when every part of myself is _ordering_ me to find some way to make music.