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May. 21st, 2004 11:22 amThe major problem with being someone who doesn't settle for things well, and therefore really impatient about any wrong things in my life, is that as I slowly remove the things that are wrong, the remaining wrong things become more... difficult to ignore and/or be patient about.
'Tis funny. I can be really, really patient. But only if I am able to have reason to believe that there's good reason for it, _and_ that whatever it is will resolve in a positive manner before my patience for waiting runs out. It's running out. The good is beginning to be outweighed by the bad. But I'm determined to not let my patience run out before it's even _possible_ for a resolution.
*looks internally* Stupid anti-settling urge... (ok, not - I'd _so_ not be who/where I am right now without it, but still...)
'Tis funny. I can be really, really patient. But only if I am able to have reason to believe that there's good reason for it, _and_ that whatever it is will resolve in a positive manner before my patience for waiting runs out. It's running out. The good is beginning to be outweighed by the bad. But I'm determined to not let my patience run out before it's even _possible_ for a resolution.
*looks internally* Stupid anti-settling urge... (ok, not - I'd _so_ not be who/where I am right now without it, but still...)
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:37 pm (UTC)soon. wish i could promise that. but i believe strongly in soon.
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:42 pm (UTC)But, thanks. *returns the hug*
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:47 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-21 03:49 pm (UTC)patience
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:50 pm (UTC)>:-)
However, I'd argue with you - based off my initial observations, you seem to have your non-settling self fairly well in check, balanced by your hope. You appear to have a good "hope evaluation strategy" too - in that it should give you enough strength to stick it out through the hard-but-ultimately-productive times while keeping you from holding fast during the-plane-is-out-of-fuel,-on-fire,-and-swooping-toward-the-jagged-mountains times.
Here's to your determination.
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:57 pm (UTC)See, no. I think that, for the most part, that non-settling stuff is about as strong as it needs to be. It leaves me alone unless there are either things _wrong_, or things that have remained stagnent for too long. I'd be fine sharing if it didn't entail losing any of what I have, though. If I knew how!
seem to have your non-settling self fairly well in check, balanced by your hope.
Perhaps. Remember, I'm _in_ my head, dealing with it. Much more difficult to get needed distance that way.
keeping you from holding fast during the-plane-is-out-of-fuel,-on-fire,-and-swooping-toward-the-jagged-mountains times
Well, yes. I won't let myself get to that point ever again.
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Date: 2004-05-21 03:58 pm (UTC)I've been sitting here all morning, pondering a situation in my life...trying to put into words how I feel.
Your entry here describes exactly the struggle I am feeling. I am completely baffled by this entry. Thank you.
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Date: 2004-05-21 04:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-21 11:39 pm (UTC)I laughed. and had to go back and reread a couple times to actually figure that out! :)