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Apr. 15th, 2004 03:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxHoly _fuck_.
I don't know what's going on, but I'm simultaneously really, really tired (reasonably - sleep is needed) and jittery/impatient/needy/shakey (not so reasonably), like there is something pending that desperately needs to _happen_.
Kinda like the feeling I get immediately before a thunderstorm, but the weather is clearing up right now. And it doesn't feel like it's weather-related anyway. (but a thunderstorm'd be nice! It's been a while since I've experienced a really good one. Want thunderstorm)
Whatever the hell it is, I want it to _happen_, already. Please. I can't _deal_ with this! I'm distractable enough without this adding to it.
On the plus side, massage tonight. Hopefully I can manage to get into a useful mental state to either block this out, or get distance from it. Gah. So far, my shielding hasn't been worth anything, and it's been increasing for the past few days. Maybe even all week.
I wonder if _this_ is why I haven't been sleeping easily or well lately?
Gah. Kinda makes me want to go hide from people, but I don't really have that option any time soon. Stupid really busy three weekends in a row, starting with this one. *whimper*
I don't know what's going on, but I'm simultaneously really, really tired (reasonably - sleep is needed) and jittery/impatient/needy/shakey (not so reasonably), like there is something pending that desperately needs to _happen_.
Kinda like the feeling I get immediately before a thunderstorm, but the weather is clearing up right now. And it doesn't feel like it's weather-related anyway. (but a thunderstorm'd be nice! It's been a while since I've experienced a really good one. Want thunderstorm)
Whatever the hell it is, I want it to _happen_, already. Please. I can't _deal_ with this! I'm distractable enough without this adding to it.
On the plus side, massage tonight. Hopefully I can manage to get into a useful mental state to either block this out, or get distance from it. Gah. So far, my shielding hasn't been worth anything, and it's been increasing for the past few days. Maybe even all week.
I wonder if _this_ is why I haven't been sleeping easily or well lately?
Gah. Kinda makes me want to go hide from people, but I don't really have that option any time soon. Stupid really busy three weekends in a row, starting with this one. *whimper*
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Date: 2004-04-15 12:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-15 01:09 pm (UTC)Percolating
Date: 2004-04-15 01:27 pm (UTC)I've got so much going on that I can't pick up on the subtleties right now. Hopefully something minor...
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Date: 2004-04-16 07:25 am (UTC)I have a suspicion as to what it might be, actually. In which case, it doesn't really affect much outside of me, and isn't even a new thing. Of course, that said, it's not really very minor to me. But being patient is all I can do about it. Frustratingly!
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Date: 2004-04-15 01:50 pm (UTC)One more day to the weekend, and then you'll leave this realm for a bit. Hopefully, it will help to clear the deck of your mind.
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Date: 2004-04-16 07:25 am (UTC)Or at least distract me from things for a while, yes. That's my hope. :)