[brains, N*E]
Jun. 27th, 2005 05:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxSo, based on replies and on my replies to them, I'm beginning to wonder if it's not that I haven't tended to have both immediate attraction and nifty brain interest, but that I haven't allowed myself to. Or haven't realized what was going on (I _know_ I realize what's going on better when I get other people's perspective on things, and I've got people I tend to babble about things in general to, now).
I know I tend to try to reduce outward manefestation of N*E, simply because it feels... excessive _in_ my head, so probably is even more so when one is not in my head. I'm getting better at letting myself burble about people, though.
Hmm...
So maybe it's that I've tended to enforce compartmentalization of the two states, regardless of what would otherwise have happened. Or just that I didn't have words/awareness enough for it to have been imprinted on my memory as such. Or perhaps the fact that I tend to be far more verbal about things now, and more conscious about them (for both of which I thank alt.polyamory, in large part)...
Hmm.
I know I tend to try to reduce outward manefestation of N*E, simply because it feels... excessive _in_ my head, so probably is even more so when one is not in my head. I'm getting better at letting myself burble about people, though.
Hmm...
So maybe it's that I've tended to enforce compartmentalization of the two states, regardless of what would otherwise have happened. Or just that I didn't have words/awareness enough for it to have been imprinted on my memory as such. Or perhaps the fact that I tend to be far more verbal about things now, and more conscious about them (for both of which I thank alt.polyamory, in large part)...
Hmm.
