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sleep, health
Aug. 18th, 2009 10:37 amSo, I have no idea what I had last week, but it was _not_ fun.
While I suppose it's nice to have had the amount of food that I eat per meal reset, as I'd been having a difficult time figuring out where 'sufficient' actually was, I prefer to not have had this occur because I was nauseous every time I ate anything for most of a week. Also, a couple degrees of fever is far less entertaining when I don't get to have wacky dreams and instead they are all just disturbing or upsetting. Rude!
But also, the ativan had stopped having an effect that was sufficient to keep taking it, as I was taking forever to fall asleep. It was probably still causing me to sleep more deeply, though. But anyway, this means I've not taken it for a bit over a week, in the hopes of getting un-acclimated to it, and being able to return to the original reason that I first took it: to break cycles of not sleeping. This does, however, mean I cannot fall asleep before midnight, even if I go to bed at 10 (I think I'm going to go to bed at 11, so I spend less time irritated by failing to sleep, although I may change back if it turns out that I take 2 hours to fall asleep no matter what. I don't recall where normal was, for this, although I do recall that 11p was previously my bedtime in summer), that I have strange dreams and wake up every 1-2 hours all night because I'm sleeping that lightly, and that I'm awake earlier than I would prefer except when I was sick last week.
I did not actually _want_ to return to my previous-to-ativan difficulties with sleep, but oh well.
So I'm going to be constantly exhausted (not just tired, like had been usual), and will be driving as minimally as I can, because I'm not... entirely alert enough to be driving. On the plus side, I can take the bus to therapy!
*fuzzy brained*
While I suppose it's nice to have had the amount of food that I eat per meal reset, as I'd been having a difficult time figuring out where 'sufficient' actually was, I prefer to not have had this occur because I was nauseous every time I ate anything for most of a week. Also, a couple degrees of fever is far less entertaining when I don't get to have wacky dreams and instead they are all just disturbing or upsetting. Rude!
But also, the ativan had stopped having an effect that was sufficient to keep taking it, as I was taking forever to fall asleep. It was probably still causing me to sleep more deeply, though. But anyway, this means I've not taken it for a bit over a week, in the hopes of getting un-acclimated to it, and being able to return to the original reason that I first took it: to break cycles of not sleeping. This does, however, mean I cannot fall asleep before midnight, even if I go to bed at 10 (I think I'm going to go to bed at 11, so I spend less time irritated by failing to sleep, although I may change back if it turns out that I take 2 hours to fall asleep no matter what. I don't recall where normal was, for this, although I do recall that 11p was previously my bedtime in summer), that I have strange dreams and wake up every 1-2 hours all night because I'm sleeping that lightly, and that I'm awake earlier than I would prefer except when I was sick last week.
I did not actually _want_ to return to my previous-to-ativan difficulties with sleep, but oh well.
So I'm going to be constantly exhausted (not just tired, like had been usual), and will be driving as minimally as I can, because I'm not... entirely alert enough to be driving. On the plus side, I can take the bus to therapy!
*fuzzy brained*
