[health, emotions.cranky]

Even what with what was probably a productive appointment with a gasto yesterday morning (more tests upcoming, sigh. But he seemed to be _listening_ and asking the right questions and noting that yes, it's not healthy to eat no fat at all), I am _seriously_ irritable with my body in general and my digestive tract in particular, today.

I'm tired of not being able to eat very many things, most of which are boring and dry. I'm tired of having near constant cravings for fatty foods which keep increasing in urgency. I'm tired of having to pay so goddamn much attention to everything I eat if I want to be without pain and actually sleep at night (and therefore be able to think and continue to have my wrists continue to improve).

Mostly, though? I'm just goddamn _tired_. Even when I get enough sleep (lately, I've been too stuffy to sleep well), I'm tired. Overwhelmed tired, I think. And bored. Bored with my food, bored with not being able to do very much with my hands (ordered a macbook pro yesterday because Linux has crap for voice recognition, I dislike Windows too much to deal with it on a regular basis, and Macs at least have a UNIX base and reasonable voice recognition software. Ought to help improve my healing speed _and_ increase how much I can do, once I've got the thing trained), bored with being horribly overstressed and tired.

Fucking body.

At least I'm able to be reasonably productive at work today... even if I am randomly and easily near tears from frustration.

[health, emotions.cranky]

Even what with what was probably a productive appointment with a gasto yesterday morning (more tests upcoming, sigh. But he seemed to be _listening_ and asking the right questions and noting that yes, it's not healthy to eat no fat at all), I am _seriously_ irritable with my body in general and my digestive tract in particular, today.

I'm tired of not being able to eat very many things, most of which are boring and dry. I'm tired of having near constant cravings for fatty foods which keep increasing in urgency. I'm tired of having to pay so goddamn much attention to everything I eat if I want to be without pain and actually sleep at night (and therefore be able to think and continue to have my wrists continue to improve).

Mostly, though? I'm just goddamn _tired_. Even when I get enough sleep (lately, I've been too stuffy to sleep well), I'm tired. Overwhelmed tired, I think. And bored. Bored with my food, bored with not being able to do very much with my hands (ordered a macbook pro yesterday because Linux has crap for voice recognition, I dislike Windows too much to deal with it on a regular basis, and Macs at least have a UNIX base and reasonable voice recognition software. Ought to help improve my healing speed _and_ increase how much I can do, once I've got the thing trained), bored with being horribly overstressed and tired.

Fucking body.

At least I'm able to be reasonably productive at work today... even if I am randomly and easily near tears from frustration.