[brains]

I very much dislike that many (all?) of my self-awareness routines require energy, because energy requires cope, and it's rather likely that if I'm out of cope (or at negative cope), then there's lots going on for which my self-awareness routines would be necessary. Such as, say, realizing that I'm completely out of cope.

If nothing else, recovering from negative cope and the lack of awareness combined with that, and the likely emotional numbness that can happen if I'm not aware of my emotional state and therefore not dealing with it, is _really_ difficult.

*blink* Huh. Ok, so it's really not far off from what I'm having to do to recover from tendonitis, other than that at least with tendonitis there's pain to give me warning that I'm way over extended, instead of being emotionally numb as apparently goes on with lack of cope (at least until not dealing with things builds up enough for an emotional meltdown).

I also dislike that much/most of my ability to figure out what's going on in my head works much better when I can type things out, instead of talking them out. 'Cause, well, typing as much out as I tend to need to when figuring things out is only tentatively ok at this point, and hasn't been at all ok for a month, and the frustration because of the reason for not being able to type has been one of the major stressors.

[brains]

I very much dislike that many (all?) of my self-awareness routines require energy, because energy requires cope, and it's rather likely that if I'm out of cope (or at negative cope), then there's lots going on for which my self-awareness routines would be necessary. Such as, say, realizing that I'm completely out of cope.

If nothing else, recovering from negative cope and the lack of awareness combined with that, and the likely emotional numbness that can happen if I'm not aware of my emotional state and therefore not dealing with it, is _really_ difficult.

*blink* Huh. Ok, so it's really not far off from what I'm having to do to recover from tendonitis, other than that at least with tendonitis there's pain to give me warning that I'm way over extended, instead of being emotionally numb as apparently goes on with lack of cope (at least until not dealing with things builds up enough for an emotional meltdown).

I also dislike that much/most of my ability to figure out what's going on in my head works much better when I can type things out, instead of talking them out. 'Cause, well, typing as much out as I tend to need to when figuring things out is only tentatively ok at this point, and hasn't been at all ok for a month, and the frustration because of the reason for not being able to type has been one of the major stressors.