[brains, relationships] Balance

It's really very nice to have a relationship with a reasonable level of balance in the expression of emotions, and the expression of desire for connection and/or touch. (probably other things, too)

I did not realize exactly how much I needed it, nor how much I'd adjusted to never thinking it'd happen, until it happened. It's easier to let my impulses free when they are apparently mutual (or at least not going to weird anyone out). And it's easier to find words for and/or convince myself to say things when I'm not always the one who is saying them.

It's such an... _odd_ experience actually being able to _relax_ in a strongly emotionally intimate (and therefore highly vulnerable-making) relationship. I don't think I really realized I'd never done it before.

[brains, relationships] Balance

It's really very nice to have a relationship with a reasonable level of balance in the expression of emotions, and the expression of desire for connection and/or touch. (probably other things, too)

I did not realize exactly how much I needed it, nor how much I'd adjusted to never thinking it'd happen, until it happened. It's easier to let my impulses free when they are apparently mutual (or at least not going to weird anyone out). And it's easier to find words for and/or convince myself to say things when I'm not always the one who is saying them.

It's such an... _odd_ experience actually being able to _relax_ in a strongly emotionally intimate (and therefore highly vulnerable-making) relationship. I don't think I really realized I'd never done it before.

[brains, exhaustion, bitching]

In an unrelated train of thought to previous post (except that writing it made me notice), I'm having major trouble finding words today. *sigh*

I would _really_ like to stop being exhausted now. And I can't decide if I should blame the humidity because it means I have more trouble than normal with getting to sleep and staying there, my brain for being restless - possibly due to the humidity making me not want to be even _slightly_ active and/or because of the next item in this list, my emotions for being randomly irritating in the not-coping-fast-enough way, or that I might be getting/getting over being sick.

Or, y'know, I could embrace the power of 'and'...

[brains, exhaustion, bitching]

In an unrelated train of thought to previous post (except that writing it made me notice), I'm having major trouble finding words today. *sigh*

I would _really_ like to stop being exhausted now. And I can't decide if I should blame the humidity because it means I have more trouble than normal with getting to sleep and staying there, my brain for being restless - possibly due to the humidity making me not want to be even _slightly_ active and/or because of the next item in this list, my emotions for being randomly irritating in the not-coping-fast-enough way, or that I might be getting/getting over being sick.

Or, y'know, I could embrace the power of 'and'...