[bits of brain]
Oct. 24th, 2004 11:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wispfoxLots of affectionate touch, _gooood_. And apparently having ditched my earlier weirdness in terms of being willing to initiate affectionate touch, also good. Yes.
Although it's kinda interesting to note that sufficient affectionate touch appears to bring my libido back from hibernation!
It's really, really interesting for me to notice significant improvements in other people's happiness with life. I sometimes forget how strongly other people's happiness affects my ability to find them attractive. I've had multiple instances of spontaneously becoming aware of the attractiveness of a few of my friends in the past few weeks, due to an increase in the happiness levels of their lives. Yes, happiness - real, deep level happiness - will cause at least some level of attraction on my part. Frequently to my startlement. :) And I think it affects me more strongly if it's more than a brief instant of it; if it seems to reflect general life happiness and joy, it's much more potent than if it's simply a brief moment of it. (Both is also possible, mind)
Various people have, in the past few months, spontaneously kissed me on the head or cheek or similar. This simultaneously confuses me and pleases me. Pleased, I think, is because I take it as affectionate contact. Confuses, I think, is because I can never tell if things involving kissing of any sort (even blatantly non-mouth contact sorts) has any additional meaning behind them. I've tended to decide that if anyone ever intends such things to have more meaning, they will have to tell me, and generally taken such things as simply another form of affectionate contact. But it's been happening a _lot_ more often lately. So I am simultaneously perplexed and pleased, and go on with my life. :)
Sleep now. Good day. I am pleased with my day.
Although it's kinda interesting to note that sufficient affectionate touch appears to bring my libido back from hibernation!
It's really, really interesting for me to notice significant improvements in other people's happiness with life. I sometimes forget how strongly other people's happiness affects my ability to find them attractive. I've had multiple instances of spontaneously becoming aware of the attractiveness of a few of my friends in the past few weeks, due to an increase in the happiness levels of their lives. Yes, happiness - real, deep level happiness - will cause at least some level of attraction on my part. Frequently to my startlement. :) And I think it affects me more strongly if it's more than a brief instant of it; if it seems to reflect general life happiness and joy, it's much more potent than if it's simply a brief moment of it. (Both is also possible, mind)
Various people have, in the past few months, spontaneously kissed me on the head or cheek or similar. This simultaneously confuses me and pleases me. Pleased, I think, is because I take it as affectionate contact. Confuses, I think, is because I can never tell if things involving kissing of any sort (even blatantly non-mouth contact sorts) has any additional meaning behind them. I've tended to decide that if anyone ever intends such things to have more meaning, they will have to tell me, and generally taken such things as simply another form of affectionate contact. But it's been happening a _lot_ more often lately. So I am simultaneously perplexed and pleased, and go on with my life. :)
Sleep now. Good day. I am pleased with my day.
