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I am _seriously_ disconcerted by the degree to which having taken the Ativan my new PCP perscribed (in response to my desire to have something to break me out of bad sleep cycles) improves my mood. I think I've slept better the last two night (need to ask my doc if it's ok if I take it regularly; I know it's ok for 5 days in a row, since that was her suggestion for breaking bad sleep patterns) than I can ever remember sleeping (I apparently slept fine as a baby and young child, so it did get worse as time passed). And once I get past the "don't wanna get up!" stage of the morning, my mood is _WAY_ better than it has been in months, and better than it usually is this time of year. (And I don't think my difficulty getting up is anything other than the fact that I've gone to bed two damn late both nights)
I'd almost say I'm worried that I'm being manic, except that I can compare with what I recell my mood as tending to be in mid-summer before I burned out on my job (my mental state has not recovered since then, although the month in mid-summer in Melbourne helped considerably, thus my decision to return to school after saving and taking a year off) and it seems that it's around that point. What I _actually_ am is _NORMAL_ for me, I think. Kinda scary that it's sufficiently unusual to disconcert me, though.
Good sleep pill. *pets it* Doesn't make me particularly drugged feeling, and doesn't seem to affect my mornings. _Does_ have addictive properties, thus me wanting to ask my doc if daily would be ok. But seriously. Sleeping well should _not_ be this foreign to me! (and the fact that my sleep difficulties are apparently degernative, according to both family members who also have them, does _not_ make me happy)
Yay, sleep! Yay being significantly less down than I had been! Trying to decide if I should hold of on trying the persc anti-depressant (for wintertime crap) until a bit later, since the sleep med has _such_ a dramatic mood effect.
I'd almost say I'm worried that I'm being manic, except that I can compare with what I recell my mood as tending to be in mid-summer before I burned out on my job (my mental state has not recovered since then, although the month in mid-summer in Melbourne helped considerably, thus my decision to return to school after saving and taking a year off) and it seems that it's around that point. What I _actually_ am is _NORMAL_ for me, I think. Kinda scary that it's sufficiently unusual to disconcert me, though.
Good sleep pill. *pets it* Doesn't make me particularly drugged feeling, and doesn't seem to affect my mornings. _Does_ have addictive properties, thus me wanting to ask my doc if daily would be ok. But seriously. Sleeping well should _not_ be this foreign to me! (and the fact that my sleep difficulties are apparently degernative, according to both family members who also have them, does _not_ make me happy)
Yay, sleep! Yay being significantly less down than I had been! Trying to decide if I should hold of on trying the persc anti-depressant (for wintertime crap) until a bit later, since the sleep med has _such_ a dramatic mood effect.
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"This medication can cause dependense, especially if it has been used regularly for an extended time (more than 1-4 weeks), if it has been used in high doses, or if you have a history of alcoholism, drug abuse, or personality disorder. In such cases, if you suddenly stop this drug, withdrawal reactions may occur."
"When stopping extended, regular treatment with this drug, gradually reducing the dosage as directed will help prevent withdrawal reactions."
"When used for an extended time, this medication may not work as well and may require different dosing."
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I will of course also ask my doctor tomorrow when I call.
[starting Celexa]
I was thinking about waiting longer than the week necessary to get off the SAMe and 5-HTP, though.
[getting stable on Ativan to be more easily able to tell what is causing what]
But being stable on the Ativan only makes sense if the doctor says that it's ok for daily taking of it. And I'm suspecting it will not be.
[Sleep being critical to good mental health]
It's not that I did not know this, it's that I did not fully realize just _how_ badly sleep deprived I was on a regular basis, until I actually got a reasonable night's sleep. Largely because the worstening of the sleep trouble has been gradual.
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Stable on Ativan: Getting to a stable point doesn't rely on whether you're taking it daily or not. Even if you take it only twice a week, waiting for, say, half a dozen doses before changing anything else will give you a better chance of noticing side effects.
Sleep: Makes sense. Yay for you sleeping properly!
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And I'm definitely feeling the distinct lack of seratonin. And I don't get to start the Celexa until Saturday.
This rather makes for a complicated experiment, when I start my sleep meds and stop my seratonin meds with a day of each other.
I. wanna. take. seratonin. NOW.
I can definitely feel my brain trying to get me to do _anything_ that involves uppers. This tends to happen as I get further into winter. And much more gradually. Also? I'm really fucking whiny! Just ask
I really don't want to wait until Saturday. And, you get to have one call with me on new sleep meds and while still taking SAMe and 5-HTP, and the next call will be right before I'm allowed to take Celexa. Talk about major mood shifts. Our call on Friday will be interesting.
Also, along with whiny and wanting uppers gets to go jittery and very restless. I have been saying "Ahhhhh!" a lot.
[send sanity! -
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In a way, fast withdrawal symptoms imply fast breakdown of the drugs. Which means you don't need as long before they're out of your system.
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But I have no idea how I will tell that it is sufficiently out (even though getting up this morning was _intensely_ difficult) to start the new meds.