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The same niece who fell asleep on my lap at 6 months - much to my utter bafflement - now refers to me as 'Aunt Mama', at 2 years. I don't know what this child sees in me, but at least she's consistent! She'll make changing coasts interesting; it's not like I visit often, but it'll be less often when on a different coast...
Calibrating massage therapists is good, even if it does require me to pay more of a certain type of attention than I like to do.
I am not liking that I am significantly lower energy than I expect to be in summer. Problem is, there's all sorts of possible reasons why, but no definites.
1) lack of roommate. I don't _like_ having no roommate, and the only time it hasn't been a problem was when I was so amazingly inwardly focused that I wasn't aware of it, really. It's... too quiet without one. And it's too difficult to be quietly social when social requires scheduling.
This only reinforces my suspicion that I really should see about getting people (like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
starandrea) to join me for at least part of my year long US wander. And makes me wonder how I'm going to find roommates once I'm in SF, who I actively want to room with and with whom Ash can live.
2) Not yet adjusted to new place. On the plus side, Ash seems adjusted, and has stopped his waking me at 6am thing. However, him taking ~1.5 months to adjust makes me nervous about my intention of bringing him with me cross country for a year. OTOH, leaving him behind isn't kind, either... *sigh* Two+ years to figure that out, though, so...
3) Hormone confusion from the Mirena instead of the pill. I still have bits of random cramping, so it's certainly possible. I really need to remember to schedule my twice yearly STD checkup, which will include the yearly pap and the 'how is the Mirena doing?', this time.
4) No couch makes cuddling with visiting people a lot more difficult! This probably makes social interaction less useful for me... and almost certainly gets me out of the habit of cuddling with people, since I have to actively figure out how to do so, comfortably. It's summer! I should be _more_ casually physically affectionate, not less!
5) I'm doing a _lot_ of regular, weekly or semi-weekly activities, now. I wonder how that affects things? (hell, I seem to have one such thing which is sneaking by because it's getting scheduled every week, and not actually stated as weekly) And I'm looking to add at least one more in, for 'helpful for future school application' reasons. Where _did_ all my free time go?! And I have people that I've not seen in far too long, too... Ah, well.
6) Want new field of work. Need to save up enough to do so. Impatient! Bored...
Dunno. Going to go back to trying to fall asleep, now.
Calibrating massage therapists is good, even if it does require me to pay more of a certain type of attention than I like to do.
I am not liking that I am significantly lower energy than I expect to be in summer. Problem is, there's all sorts of possible reasons why, but no definites.
1) lack of roommate. I don't _like_ having no roommate, and the only time it hasn't been a problem was when I was so amazingly inwardly focused that I wasn't aware of it, really. It's... too quiet without one. And it's too difficult to be quietly social when social requires scheduling.
This only reinforces my suspicion that I really should see about getting people (like
starandrea) to join me for at least part of my year long US wander. And makes me wonder how I'm going to find roommates once I'm in SF, who I actively want to room with and with whom Ash can live.2) Not yet adjusted to new place. On the plus side, Ash seems adjusted, and has stopped his waking me at 6am thing. However, him taking ~1.5 months to adjust makes me nervous about my intention of bringing him with me cross country for a year. OTOH, leaving him behind isn't kind, either... *sigh* Two+ years to figure that out, though, so...
3) Hormone confusion from the Mirena instead of the pill. I still have bits of random cramping, so it's certainly possible. I really need to remember to schedule my twice yearly STD checkup, which will include the yearly pap and the 'how is the Mirena doing?', this time.
4) No couch makes cuddling with visiting people a lot more difficult! This probably makes social interaction less useful for me... and almost certainly gets me out of the habit of cuddling with people, since I have to actively figure out how to do so, comfortably. It's summer! I should be _more_ casually physically affectionate, not less!
5) I'm doing a _lot_ of regular, weekly or semi-weekly activities, now. I wonder how that affects things? (hell, I seem to have one such thing which is sneaking by because it's getting scheduled every week, and not actually stated as weekly) And I'm looking to add at least one more in, for 'helpful for future school application' reasons. Where _did_ all my free time go?! And I have people that I've not seen in far too long, too... Ah, well.
6) Want new field of work. Need to save up enough to do so. Impatient! Bored...
Dunno. Going to go back to trying to fall asleep, now.
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so, hmm! p'raps i'd be better off looking at ways to get back without a car, then. that's my main concern with all of this, really.
also, re: license - i have a friend who's going to help me try to get my license before the learner's permit expires in september! so we shall see how that goes. hopefully the road test will be less stressful this time around, and hopefully the permit is still valid despite being horribly mangled and near-unreadable...*nervous*