[Seasonal Affective Disorder] It's started...

[wispfox]

Oh, indeed, the crappy time of year stuff has begun.

I know because I was cranky all day and didn't _notice_ until a co-worker commented that I was certainly acting like it was Monday.

And, well, it _is_ Monday, but that doesn't usually have a huge affect on my actions.

Snappy, oh yes. Low energy, check. Tired all day? Yep.

Gonna start using my lamp after I post this. And start being less generally social and work on getting more regular touch. And stuff. And be more aware of my internal state, since I need to have a _much_ better awareness than normal.

(Note: started != constant, yet. I will continue to have ups and downs, and probably will continue to forget that I have them during the up periods, because I forget every year, until Jan and Feb. Then, I'll have mostly downs but will _accept_ that fact. And then the ups and downs will reverse from mid March until May, when I should be mostly normal again)

*sigh*

Now I go sit in front of my light and read. And try to sleep earlier than I had been all weekend, since I can't imagine that was helping.

Comments

[harlequinaide.livejournal.com]

It does help, actually. I'd like that. (I'd also like being in the same time and place so that you can, even if you don't have to.)

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

OK. Then I'll try to keep an eye on that, when I'm around you. We'll see how well I do. Esp with you wandering across country. ;)

[harlequinaide.livejournal.com]

I bet you'll do fine. I trust your intuition. Even across the country. I'll be unhappy at a party, and playing host to make sure everyone's okay, and I'll hear your voice in my head, telling me to cut that shit out. Maybe it's just that I hear voices, though.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

*laughing* Well, I _do_ apparently invade people's heads, so you never know. ;)

Thing is, I tend to avoid most particularly taxing parties, so I don't know that I would be at a party in which you are likely to be having trouble.

Besides. What do I tell you? 'You're trying to hard. You might want to take a break or something?'?

[harlequinaide.livejournal.com]

Something like that. I know when I need one, sometimes it's nice to give myself persmission in someone else's voice, y'know? In my head, other people tend to be nicer to me than I am.

[wispfox.livejournal.com]

Gotcha. Mental note made. :)