I'm really sorry, as I always have been about this--there was nothing new in this post, and it still brought tears to my eyes. And I'm really sorry that it's left you scarred. But I'm glad that the bond removal worked, and that there wasn't much if any pain last night--I wasn't sure (especially when the first three people there, with no hosts, were the three of you--that was basically my lameness and I'm sorry about it).

*hugs* Good luck, as always.