[random]

Weird getting what ought to have been enough sleep - even including the constant, and often intensely frustrating, dreaming and restlessness (and I took melatonin, no less!) - would mean I'd _not_ be tired today. This is, however, not the case. Mostly feeling dazed.

The Invisible Killer from hitherby_feed.

Today it really _is_ 4 weeks!

Random self-quote of the day 'I wake up via regularity', in response to my more or less complete incoherence upon arriving at work most mornings.

Indigo Girls' "Ghost" is in my head, most specifically:
( bits of lyrics )

Perhaps because that song _is_, although not quite that obsessively, how I feel about the people I've lost. Don't know.

Sleepy. But laundry is done!

[random]

Weird getting what ought to have been enough sleep - even including the constant, and often intensely frustrating, dreaming and restlessness (and I took melatonin, no less!) - would mean I'd _not_ be tired today. This is, however, not the case. Mostly feeling dazed.

The Invisible Killer from hitherby_feed.

Today it really _is_ 4 weeks!

Random self-quote of the day 'I wake up via regularity', in response to my more or less complete incoherence upon arriving at work most mornings.

Indigo Girls' "Ghost" is in my head, most specifically:
( bits of lyrics )

Perhaps because that song _is_, although not quite that obsessively, how I feel about the people I've lost. Don't know.

Sleepy. But laundry is done!

[query.dreams]

Anyone have any suggestions for making me dream less? It seems to go along with having a restless night, and it's really becoming a problem from the perspective of getting restful sleep (and not waking up in a really annoyed/melancholy/frustrated mood - the melancholy seems to be purely dreams-driven, but the other two are almost certainly from sleeping poorly). I _think_ it's an aspect of wintertime and my melatonin subsystem being fucked, but I'm not sure.

Valarian tends to not work for me, at all, if I'm having trouble getting to or staying asleep. At most it makes me sleepy.

Melatonin at least gets me to sleep, but if I'm restless will not keep me there for very long, or very deeply.

Benadryl and similar make me sleepy, but not sleep and not stay asleep.

I really don't want a perscription med to help me sleep, both because they are geneally addictive, and because I've found that any meds which have a side effect of having me unconscious most of the time make for really poor (although generally dreamless) sleep. Worse than if I slept on my own (only real example of this I have is strong painkillers, like Percocet).

Suggestions?

[query.dreams]

Anyone have any suggestions for making me dream less? It seems to go along with having a restless night, and it's really becoming a problem from the perspective of getting restful sleep (and not waking up in a really annoyed/melancholy/frustrated mood - the melancholy seems to be purely dreams-driven, but the other two are almost certainly from sleeping poorly). I _think_ it's an aspect of wintertime and my melatonin subsystem being fucked, but I'm not sure.

Valarian tends to not work for me, at all, if I'm having trouble getting to or staying asleep. At most it makes me sleepy.

Melatonin at least gets me to sleep, but if I'm restless will not keep me there for very long, or very deeply.

Benadryl and similar make me sleepy, but not sleep and not stay asleep.

I really don't want a perscription med to help me sleep, both because they are geneally addictive, and because I've found that any meds which have a side effect of having me unconscious most of the time make for really poor (although generally dreamless) sleep. Worse than if I slept on my own (only real example of this I have is strong painkillers, like Percocet).

Suggestions?